Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Thursday, October 29, 2009
reports n reports
once again,every night its tears
9:15 PM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
this song is nicee
once again,every night its tears
9:25 PM
some stuff for girls to read up on =)
how do you differentiate a serious sweetheart from a flirty player? - teens magazine
Serious sweetheart
~ sweet talk - he compliments you sincerely and at the right moments. He may come across as slightly shy and awkward but thats only because he doesnt compliment girls often
~ nicknames - He uses a special endearment for you. This endearment may have a sweet story behind it, or may be related to a special experience you both shared.
~ your family&friends - He wants to meet you friends and family and feels hurt if you dont introduced him to them
~ his family&friends - He is very keen on introducing you to his friends and family. When he introduces you, he holds your hand and proudly proclaims that you're his girlfriend
~ personal space - He is fine with you leaving your stuff in his bad or at his place. Even if there things include cutesy stuffed toys!
~ dates - He often makes the effort to plan dates and is always interested in the outings that you plan. This shows that you are on his list of priorities, and spending quality time with you matters
~ hand holding - He holds your hand lovingly in public
~ phone calls - He calls when he says he will. If he is tied up, he'll at least SMS you because he's afraid that you'll worry
~ friends ratio - He has a healthy mix of guys and girls friends which he hangs out with, and tries to include you as far as possible
~ friends reaction - His friends do their best to make you feel included and ask you about yourself
~ physical intimacy - He respects you emotional wellbeing and deos not pressure you to be physically intimate with him
~ I love you - He waits to say " i love you " and when he does, it is simple and unconditional
the flirty player is just the opp of everything.
so yea,hehe im lazy to typed out everything!haha
oh wells, now i roughly know how to differentiate n playboy from a serious darling
and now i know who played me.
once again,every night its tears
9:04 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
sigh.
im still stressing if i should change course
crap.i really dont like this.
i dont understand why other ppl's life can be so easy
but mine is like totally fucked
i mean on a average scale.
there's nothing interesting in life.
everything is just a bloody big cycle..
all the disappointments,expectations and wdv shit
its killing me.
i think i shall call up NP tml the course
and get wdv information i need
and hopefully..
once again,every night its tears
11:33 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
be jealous,
be VERY jealous!
haha i just had a good dinnerr =D
shark fins soup, crab tanghoon,duck feet(which i nv eat),butter prawns and some veg
totally awesome.
but i'd rather you bring me to thai express or akashi
but its still good! =) not complaining =)
just tat i dont really dont how to appreciate shark
school starts tml =(
how sucky
once again,every night its tears
9:49 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
went for dk training
the sun was freaking &^%$#
got sunburnt -.-" even though i applied like super thick layer of sunblock
oh wells.
im damn shagged now.seriously
after dk went for lunch at the usual
then on the way back, heading towards hb
yong en and i decided to head down to RJ to throw abit
haha.even though we're both damnnn shagged.
but yea.we ended up throwing abit den lying on the field chit-chatting
haha.i swear yong en is a funny guy..haha
but a really nice person to talk to also =D
after that, showered and head down to bishan
he needed to eat dinner so i accompanied him
den i went off to my grandma's hse
and ate prawnnnn meeeee
hmmm aft that went to holland v, bought frolick ice-cream
AWESOMEEE but i prefer the peach flavour compared to strawberry =/
but it was stilll awesomeee ahaha
i hope when school starts,
i can manage my time properly =)
once again,every night its tears
11:09 PM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
todays weather was freaking retarded
when i left hse it was damn bloody cold
den when i reached school it was hot like i duno what.haha
i was quite tired for todays training
cause i was feeling quite sick alrdy
and plus all the running -.-
and i duno whats wrong with my left thigh
its like so painful since ytd aft goaltimate and someone hit my thigh damn sharply
oh wells..
YAY!i had "proper" dinner for this week's training! =)
ytd i went to eat macs at hb with joel and qingying
today i ate mos burger at tpy with jordan
i did the " " cause i dont consider fast food as proper
and if possible i would defiantely avoid fast food
well it beats having maggie alone at home =)
im so tiredd..zzz..
thinking if i should go running tml..hehe
i should stop thinking about you
and just let things fall into place
cause its hopeless for a girl to do so much
once again,every night its tears
12:40 AM
Monday, October 12, 2009
sian im so bored that i can actually post so many times in a day
zzz, i hate having black hair..
wdv colour i dye it just doesnt turn out right -.-
irritating.
stupid sore throat
go away right now!roars!
once again,every night its tears
8:24 PM
omg sore throat and fever =(
school is starting next weeeeek!
sian all the work will just start to pile in
i've got to plan my time properly man
im wan to be able to excel both in ultimate and studiess!!
roars..
its funny how you can flirt with other girls
but not with me anymore
everything is a fucking lie
a fucking big lie.
its gona take me some time..
and sometimes i wonder if you even feel anything.
once again,every night its tears
9:54 AM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
post transferred to my other blog =)
once again,every night its tears
7:33 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
OMG
i'm so freaking happy that i duno what to say
CHAMPIONS of GHS baby! =)
awesome or what!
omg i've nv played till so hiong before after so long
that i didnt feel i was myself
all i know is, i just wan to win so badly
so i can prove myself
that im not fucking useless
and what has been taught to me is not wasted
sorry to all that i may seem cocky on the field and stuff
it was just so intense for me and every point counts
so yea.SORRY.lol
i dont wana be labeled as the bitch or something
not like SOMEONE
totally own her in her fucking face.
ben and the seniors say they'll come back stronger
cause we're all like so cocky and stuff
i'd say, bring it on!
they come back stronger,
doesnt mean we cant be even more stronger than what we are now rite
so yea.
LET GROW STRONGER NYP! =D
we will take this years IVP back home
and break the "curse" LOL
4stars baby 4 stars!
woah im so tired now zzz
i think i'll go sleep soon =)
once again,every night its tears
11:39 PM
Friday, October 09, 2009
im so excited for tml's GHS
weeee =)
but i think i've got food poisoning =(
sucks luh.
oh wells.hope that i'll be better by tml
this will be my only chance to prove my worth
to prove that frisbee is not a stupid dog game
and to prove whatever that have been taught, have not gone down the drain
no stupid drops,
no throw aways.
100% focus
and CONSISTENCY
once again,every night its tears
9:38 PM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
i felt so left out during ytd's training =(
cause i missed tue training
n unlucky me missed the best training
sigh.
i hope come sat
our team chemistry is there
and everything will just be totally awesome =)
GHS,
NYP reds will own you! =)
once again,every night its tears
12:11 PM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
welcome to the family vickky =)
my new baby <3
once again,every night its tears
9:17 PM
i feel useless, unimportant and neglected.
why isit so fucking hard to be happy
i hate this shit seriously
woke up fucking early
to have breakfast with my sisters n mum
den we went to SPCA
wanted to adopt kittens/cat
but the fucking people there like dont wana let us adopt.
nbcb we're alrdy paying to adopt them luh
and its not like we cant give them a better compared to what you are giving them now
locking them up is fucking cages.idiot.
i saw this black cat.
looks and behave like missy =(
it keeps calling for attention and its like " adopt me please, i really want a home "
fuck man.its meows are like so sad =(
i hate it when people say they wana adopt pretty kittens only
like what about the the older cats?
they still deserve a home.they are still cats.
just that they are not young
whats wrong?
and for those cats that do not have beautiful fur,
whats wrong with adopting them!?
they are still cats!
roars.
sigh i dont feel so good now.
my stomach is like so pain.i dont know if i shld go for training
it hurts like *&^%$#@
GHS come on!!
once again,every night its tears
12:33 PM
Monday, October 05, 2009
get well soon baby
=(
once again,every night its tears
10:32 PM
Sunday, October 04, 2009
i love this song.
i think chinese songs can portray a much emotional feeling
compared to english songs =/
i duno thats what i think.LOL
maybe cause its the lyrics.
once again,every night its tears
11:22 PM
after ytd's DK training,
had lunch den went straight to ben's hse
with jethro,robin and eliseus
helped to prepare with the party
then slacked and stuff
the rain was a spoiler =/ cause we couldnt set up the BBQ pit
was super tired from making drinks for the people..
zzz cause its quite a distance to walk to take water to make the drink
but okay luh.
otherwise i would feel bad not contributing
and i would be bored.
the party is kinda..a disappointment haha..
maybe cause there wasnt enough alcohol.
but yea..oh wells.
i kinda think, beer can knock me out faster
compared to hard liquor mix with soft drinks
LOL.oh wells.
it kinda got boring after the alcohol finished and
most of the ppl went home..
when it was morning,
we all packed the stuff and took a lift from ben to cck mrt
had breakfast den took my 1hour plus ride back home
hehe i didnt know i had straight bus back =)
and i almost missed my stop cause i was sleeping on the bus
too bloody tired even though i did sleep at the party.ahaha
gona go out for dinner with my mum later.
im still feeling sleep even though i slpt for 3 hours when i came back home.
i'll trade smoking to have you to be happy with me.
seriously, i would.
i love you.
once again,every night its tears
2:31 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
went out for girls outing.
had picnic at marina barrage.
cool place =)
fun outing
but lousy weather.so bloody hot sia.LOL
outing ended at 4pm+
den i went to sentosa
sorry ivan, was late.LOL
met nana,ruth,clifford and clement.
omg its been AGES since i saw them
missed them lots =(
had a rushy dinner with them.
den they went off =(
i didnt wana take the bus back
cause of all the banglahs
so i waited for my parents to finish their movie.
while waitingg...
i went to buy H2O for tml and sweets and breakfast =)
den i went up to the rooftop to stone for 2.5hours
before meeting my parents again =/
what i did in the 2.5hour was just..
admiring the lousy sea scenery
thinking about stuff
and yea lor.just ......
i saw this couple sitting in front of me..
like the girl suddenly so emo and the guy so quiet..
den aft awhile the guy stood up and walk away
and his facial expression was like " yes, finally no more burden " kind..
den i look at the girl.she cry until so jialiat =(
i feel so sad for her that i cried alittle.
i duno, suddenly the scene of him leaving me..replayed again and again
but like, it was also quite pathetic.
as in, like..she cry so much.the guy also like..dont really care.
sigh.
seriously, jerk.
the girl looks like those shy shy kind and yea..like wont jio guys one..
so is like confirm the guy jio her, den dump her.
like WTF.WHATS WRONG WITH YOU!
sian.i hate that guy.seriously..
i wanted to go to the girl and give her mentos =/
LOL but yea.abit weird.haha..
cause like yea luh you know.but yea.
i feel so sad for her =(
i curse that jerk to die, esp if its for another girl.
this incident made me emo abit luh..
and then....
i suddenly rmb what someone told me
that one of my ex denied that i was his exgf
zzz..
seriously, am i such a embarassment!damn it =(
jerk.nbcb
i'll prove to you that im not
i'll make sure you'll regret saying that im not your ex
when im popular and rich in the futher you'd better not say im your ex.
nbcb.GO AWAY
i'll fucking make sure i'm sucessful in life.
oh wells.enough of yea.
just finish dota-ing with jet
and i think im gona sleep soon..
tml got DK training and party
CONSISTENCY FOR TRAINING!!
oh yes, i've asked my parents to watch me play at GHS
cause cause i really want them to know that
frisbee..is not a fucking dog game
and im serious abt frisbee.
once again,every night its tears
12:39 AM
Thursday, October 01, 2009
exactly how many of us can actually did what he did.
i know, honestly i cant do it..
but its something we all must learn..
right?
i love you so much
once again,every night its tears
10:49 PM
