Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sat:
had frisbee competition today..
yes, i decided to go for it even though it'll cost me my 4-5 cca points to fly away..
i had to go if not my team would be disqualified..so yea
game started at 8am sharp.
each game was 8min long..
to our horror, the court is just twice of a drill box training, which is to us super duper small..
and the end zone is 1 1/2m wide..like oh man..
so yea..here comes the sad news
we lost 3rounds,won 5rounds n drew 2
if only we didnt lose tat last round..we would be in the semi-finals =((
sad? yes honestly i'm very very sad..but what to do..
whats done is done =) i'll just go for the upcoming one ehh..aft Os i guess..
anws, i followed clement to bathe in acsi..
they've got water heater in their school!!omgosh rocking skl man
hmm went to have lunch in acsi school canteen..
air-connnnn canteen how freaking cool is that!?
crap man now i wish i had the brains n money to study in acsi =(
so yea met his 2 friends aft tat den walked over to acjc
its super packed wid ppl even though we came like at such a late time..
i so hate being in a place packed wid ppl =(
so yupp met more of clement's funny friends..
honestly they are damn funny..ahah they make racist jokes when they are indians ahah
hmm met clifford there too..so yea
honestly funfair is a super boring..
clifford got alots of free coupons haha so we like randoming played some mini games
soccer n frisbee
i scored 30 or the soccer =) yay ahha
but scored none for frisbee cause it super difficult as in seriously
but clifford won a MP3 n gave it to his friend haha..
hmm by den ivan n sam came to the funfair alrdy..so yea
oh yea did i mention..one of clement's friend eat the lollipop wid the wrapper on
damn damn funny ahah
later on played toss wid 2 ACJC frisbee players n yea my friends
honestly my throws are super off
oh oh n the SFS shirt is super sexy! =)
HOT! HOT! HOT!
so yupp aft which went for dinner wid clifford n clement..
apparently they just waved for the cab n asked me to go in..
den leaving their friends behind ahah..funny people
ate at Holland V, only clement ate -.-"
den i bought this super large green tea bottle..tats my dinner ahah
went back to acsi for the performance thing
its super funny,alot of wrong suggestive quotes i think n other stuffs..
its still darn funny even though clement
says tat i keep laughing at the wrong part =/
i'd say its not bad n abt 10 the actor/actress are frisbee players..
so yupp anw clifford bought the candy floss for me den it got stolen by clement's friend
as in he took like a super big piece
den aft tat all his friends took abit n abit so yea
den clifford went to buy another one for me haha..
e same thing happened..darn funny..i only ate very little of it haha
thanks clifford =D haha..even though its the guys who ate most of it..
oh yea my green tea came in handy ahah, i couldnt finish it all so the guys drank it =)
yay at least i didnt waste the drink..
the performance ends at abt 10plus
den when i walked out i lost everyone..
so i just went out n waited for my sis to fecth me..
while walking out..guess what..
i saw parents fetching acsi ppl in sports car n all those high-class rich ppl's stuff
den i was like..wth rich ppl man
sorry ivan =(
Today:
Woke up early..like 8plus
to go for breakfast den go to meet up my cousins at the graveyard there to pay respect to the dead
so yea..i definately had difficulty waking n walking around
wen to imm swensens for breakfast
den head down to cemetry rd(sp?) its super jammed there..
like the cars are moving 5cm per 1min ahah..
ok tats exagerating but yea..haha
came home for lunch, cousins came along
went to finish my homework n read abit of my geog textbk
so i studied! =) yay
went out for fris at 4.30+
i played super horribly today..
keep fouling n knocking into ppl =((
i'm super sorry about it..i guess today just isnt the day.
=(((
once again,every night its tears
12:31 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
had physics quiz today..think i'm gona fail..
sigh, been failing my tests n quiz..i feel so lousy =(
anw yea, aft skl tossed wid ivan for awhile..
its not like i did or say anything abt him anymore
so whats your bloody prob..cant u just leave me alone?
irritating assholes
anw yea, went for chem remedial..
i think i almosted died there
den went to find mr liew for extra physics lesson but he wasnt free..
so i'll be meeting him aft skl at 1.30pm tml..
hmm..went to do my art..so tiring -.- sigh
den went to collect frisbee jersey! =DDD
YAY!! its super sexy ahha..
met my mum in queensway(where i collected my jersey)
bought a lime green fbt n ankle support
den we cabbed home..
sigh i'm still stuck wheather to go fris or gb
i talked to ms reena about it and she says that
i could go n take the drill test with another school..
provided she can find one for me =(
if not i wont get it...sighh
and also i need the freaking drill test badge for pioneer pin
and the passing mark is 12/15 wtheck!
besides tat, i need to be selected to go for the camp in june
and what more only 1or2 ppl will get selected for the pioneer brigader brooche(sp??)
ARGH!! stressssed
its a battle between responsiblities in GB
and reponsiblities as a frisbee team member..
if i go for GB,i'll get my drill badge..tat is if i pass but
i'll be selfish as my teammate may not be able to cope with it
and the judge may not let her play due to her injury..
so theres a chance they'll get disqualified..
if i go for frisbee, there goes my 3years of hardwork n effort
teachers will think i'm irresponisble and obviously make my life harder
for the next few months..and my report from them will sucks..
HOW!? =((((
i have to decide by tml because theres GB tml!
once again,every night its tears
11:23 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
sigh, wed is the most boring day of the week..
everything was as usual, had GB exco mtg aft skl den toss awhile aft tat..
kinda have physics test tml, which i hope i can pass properly..
i'm still freaking frustrated wheather to fris or GB
is like wth i do so much for GB and i only get freaking 19points!?
like its a bloody B3 damn it.
thats why i'm asking mrs ly-ann for my points which are rightfully mine >=[
ROOARRRR! i'm freaking angry n pisst
if i cant get my points i'm so gona switch face man..
i like GB alot cause its e only place i feel belong to n where i can feel God
but if i dont see any justice here obviously i wont be happy..
i mean i spend so much time in GB should at least give me what i need right..
its freaking unfair luh, even girls who pons GB can get their points n i dun get..
wtf is this man..sacrifice so much of my stuff for GB n this is what i get.
ROOOOOAARRR! i so hate this sticky situation =(
i so feel like ripping out my heart and tearing it into pieces
AHHHHHHHHH, i'm gona jump down soon..
i really really am.
i just hope i make the right decision when sat comes
and i wont regret it at all.
I kinda ask God to help me by showing me a sign..
Go for Gb den fris- rain in the morning den stop in the afternoon
Go for fris- dont rain at all
apparently, it didnt rain today..so should i?
once again,every night its tears
10:12 AM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
it rained ytd in the evening =(
so its like super sad cause we cant play fris at acsi =((
ok luh we played in the rain for like 20mins den we stopped..
i didnt really play much cause my back hurts
super hate it when i get injured..ROAR!!
ok so yea, came home took a super nice hot shower
had dinner den rush on my chem homework..
i think its super crazy luh..
the rest of my classmates get 3days to complete it
but i only get 1night cause i didnt come last =(
oh wells, trains me to think quick n analyse fast =)
cant wait for school to end.
i'm super tired..oh did i mention?i'm in school now ahah..
so yupp, just tooko 10min to blog den tonight not gona blog lei ahaha
come on when its times like this i want time to really really fly
as in seriously i cant wait till the competition date =)
4 more days! woohoo i bet sat is gona be a fuunnn n happy day =)
once again,every night its tears
3:08 AM
Monday, March 24, 2008
woke up at 9.30am..
thought my dad was like gona bring me out for breakfast den to the library to study..
but, noone was at home so yea..
just spend the whole morning slacking..
took a super long nap from 12-3pm+
just super tired..
packed my stuff for frisbee..
yes i know i'm sick, but nothing can stop me from playing sports! =)
wore my sis's netball jersey cause my usual fris shirt is still wet -.-
so yupp, dad gave me a lift to wcp aft dropping his library bk in the library..
he was complaining tat i didnt study today n all those..
n i was like, i studied 3chpts ytd man..
i know its very little, but yea i really cant take in anymore information into my brain..
my head hurts when i read stuffs, i duno why..
side effects of stress?hahaa yea right..i dun even feel stress at all..
and its a super bad sign when Os is like getting nearer n nearer!!
fris was alright..suprisingly, today got lots of ppl
also i didnt play much cause when i ran my back feels like as though
someone is punching me..it so totally sucks n i keep coughing ARGH
sorry clement, i know i keep hitting you =/ cause u keep saying me
i kinda feel bad like i somehow or rather feel like i left ivan out or something..
but den again he got friends ard him so yea..i duno man just werid..
i'm sorry ivan if u felt tat i pang sei-ed you =(
oh wells, so much for training today for sat's competition ahah
sigh tml's gona me a long day..
really dun feel like going back to school n face those shit stuffs again
but do i have a choice? no -.-
oh wells, more tests to take this week n consent form to hand up =/
aft skl gona have Gb drill, i think i'm gona die wid the condition of my back..
its either i slouch(Sp?) or stand super straight..
either way it hurts =( argh i freaking hate being injured n being a sick person
so yea, aft tat gona meet ivan den head down to acsi for fris again..
its only 1hour of fris so there wont be much running or anything =)
once again,every night its tears
12:25 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
stayed at home whole day =(
studied chem for awhile..
den took a super long nap and studied chem again..
sian..my head hurts alot luh, duno whats wrong..
this is some thing tat caught my attention
when i was reading online news
http://www.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20080322-55659.html
its like quite sad to hear such things..
when girls are suppose to be yea..
i'm really grateful tat i'm a christian n i've got supportive n gd friends
whom i know they'll never lead me astray(sp?) =D
so yupp..i guess i'm blessed with super gd friends
n friends tat hurt me alot..
even though they may cause alot of damage to me
BUT at least their sinful actions remind me of how gd my buddies are to me =)
so i'm still sort of grateful for them even though they keep hurting me for no reason..
sigh, i'm now really really sick..
in the morning i completely lost my voice =(
but now it got better..
even though i hate drinking so much water in a day, i kept spammin water..
cause my friends keep bugging me to do
and i really really wana get well soon
so i can go back to school(even though i really dun wan to), do well for my GB drill test and of course, play well in the fris competition =)
i really do hope i can get well soon asap..cause i'm like taking chinese n western medication now
=( makes me feel like some idiot..
tml got fris, but i'm not sure if i'm going..
mayb i'll drop by later in the evening =)
oh wells, cant go for church tml cause my dad
wantes me to go breakfast den study again =((
so much for missing lessons for a week T.T
i'm not sure if these feelings are real,
but i do know i've been waiting for your msg all day..
so what does that mean?
once again,every night its tears
1:49 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2008
wee went to sentosa today..
its like super hot..
met ivan at vivo at 12pm++
den went into sentosa..
went to find the fris players at siloso beach
did my chem homework while watching them play
den erm went to get a bite wid ivan at delifrance
hmm tossed for awhile,
clement n clifford came..so yea we tossed till the game was over..
clifford looked damn disappointed cause it was the last game n he didnt play at all..
its quite funny n i kept laughing at him..
met jireh(my god-bro since sec1, didnt see him since den cause of army)
lol he got super good eye-sight luh ahah..spot me from so far ahah..
so yupp said hi n like chatted for 1min den went back to tossing..
joined wei song's friends for game later on at 4pm+
played till 6plus..apparently i've got sand fight wid clement..
and he being sweet enough gave me a super big scoop of sand n throw it at me..
so i've got sand all over me n it went inside too -.-" itchy, yes..
went to erm wash up..but didnt bathe cause e toilet was freaking full..
i just dun understand why they built such a small toilet when they have so many stuffs going on in sentosa like..no common sense luh
so yupp went for dinner at hb wid ivan clement, clifford went off alrdy..
aft which we studied abit of math n chem..
came home n watched white chicks..
so here i am now infornt of this com..
i think i'm really getting sick of facing the com whole day luh..
tats why..tml i'll study whole day!
den on sunday..study again!den frisbee of course..haha
once again,every night its tears
3:12 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
woah sian..from 11 untill 4 i was out..
at 11 i went to visit the chinese doc
eee bitter medicine =((
den went to have lunch wid my mum at 12
1pm went to another chinese doc(massage)
and she gave me accupunture(sp??)
the one where the poke needle on ur back..
den she used the thingy tat make my back look like i've got sucked by a big octopus..
looks scary..if you ask if its pain..its SUPER PAIN..
so yea..den drop by in my skl aft my mum fetched me..
collected my report book n tickets to sell..sian
dun talk abt my results man..its sooo sucks to the core
and my CCA points for last year is onyl what 19points?!?
wtf man, its not even a A1 screw it..
i'm gona find my teacher to settle it, like my class capt thing also nv add in..
wah laoo ok so nvm..
my mum drop me at the salon to have my hair cut
den send my eldest sis to visit the doctor..
there is seriously something really wrong in my family..
everyone is falling sick luh.what a year man..
at this rate, my family is gona go bankrupt man..all the medical bills..
aft tat my mum fetched me, bought the jap soya sauce for tonight's dinner..
we are gona have jap steamboat! =) yay
i really think i'm blessed wid a super gd mummy..
today she is like whole day driving us ard..
den come home have to prepare dinner..
so yea ANW..i got my sis to took a pic of my back..
dun be shocked when u see it..
i also uploaded 3pictures from the creative arts camp thing..
looks like a smily face uh
Reginal, my worship instructor =)
YAY new friends =)
worship leaders..crappy photoonce again,every night its tears
8:34 AM
didnt go to school today..
its like so cool i feel like as though i've got 2weeks of holi..
but yea it really isnt holi..it sucks to be sick!
so yea, i'm gona visit 2doctors later..
yes its 2 doctors..my mum asked me to go..
one chinese doc n the other sensei to massage my back..
so it'll get better..but i both also dun wana see luh..
chinese medicine is super bitter..
and i dun wan anyone touching my back i'm super scare of massage..
so yea..maybe when i come home i'll start to catch up with all that i've missed out..
if not revise my sec3 stuffs..
RALENE DONT BE LAZY!
sigh..
ok so on the 29th this is my plan
to go for GB drill, ask if i can be excused early
den rush down to city hall for the fris competition..
tat is if i still can play sports, got to see what the doctor say 1st..
oh man den i'll miss out 3hours of fris..NOOO =(
better den nothing i guess
once again,every night its tears
1:42 AM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
went to skl today..
luckily my sis bf was ard to send me to skl..so i didnt hv to take bus..
had the sick feeling when school start..
today they asked us to wear either black or blue shirt to come to school..
so form the skl cresent on the school field wid the pri skl..
met mdm koh =) my pri 6 teacher ahaha..she still looks the same n healthy as ever
but yea i went to the GO n rest cause i wasnt feeling well..
after 2hours..i went back to join my class when the field thingy was over
sat in the hall for police talk again -.-" sian..
sit there untill i almost die..my back was killing me
its a good thing i sat at the back..
firstly,i can stretch(sp?) my leg
second,my ears wont die
so yup..tats abt it..had normal lessons aft recess
aft skl passed joel his present den tossed abit wid ivan..
sadly, my throws went back to usual- lousy
took bus back home, ate lunch n slpt all the way untill 6.30
guess what!?
my GB drill test is on the same day n time as my frisbee competition..
well done -.-"
what should i do now? i have exactly no idea..
if i do go for GB drill test..
den i'll be letting down my team-mates n they need me
cause they cant really find another female fris player..
if i do go for fris competition
ms ong will be disappointed in me
i must get the drill badge to get PBB(highest rank in GB)
ARGHHH HEADACHE!
God, help me?why got such thing happen..can you make a miricle to like make the DI absent or something..so i can take it another day?PLEASEEE =((
once again,every night its tears
10:34 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
yay didnt go school again =)
doctor gave me mc for ytd n today hehe..
woke up at 9am..erm did 1chinese compo..
apprently i took super long just to complete it and i used 4 dictionaries..
i know what you are thinking..just admit it i'm just pro.haha =D
aft tat went out for lunch den went to queensway to meet ivan n caleb..
to "hunt" for our frisbee LAMBENT team shirt! =D
apprently i did the hunting for 1hour..they had clb so they came later anw..
Lambent is our frisbee team name for the competition on the 29march..
Singapore Frisbee S.....(sorry forgot the last one) bascially its SFS
Lambent is Lamp of God.COOL UH! nice one sam for chosing a cool name.
so yea..apprently, ivan n caleb were against e colour orange =(
so they chose navy blue instead..with limegreen wordings..
still sexy! ahah at least they went with the limegreen printings =P
i think its gona turn out super sexy =D we'll be getting it on next thurs..
to me its darn long..cause i cant wait to get it!!!arghh
ok so whos on the team
ivan,(captain)
caleb,
me,
celement,
merilyn,
samuel,
zach....,
ven...,
nikki(replacement)
so yupp..LAMBENTS ALL THE WAY!
ok now i've got this really bad feeling that i'll flung my Os
cause currently now my attitude is...
FRISBEE ALL THE WAY!
SCREW Os! YAY =D
i know its wrong n everything but i cant help it..
esp when my throws are improving alot more =D
and i can run, excerise n lose weight!!
and whats more, i got to know alot more pro frisbee players..
so its really exciting n challenging...
but yea..i guess i'll have to dicipline myself n start studying..
i'll do that after the competition..
or isit too late??
chinese paper starts in May if i'm not wrong..
sigh, and my parents are nagging at me not to go..
but how not to?its really once in a life time thing..
God, i need your help..to help me manage my time between my hobbies and studies..
let me be able to handle everything smoothly and thank you God for giving me the speedy recovery =) praise God!
in Daddy's BIGBIG name AMEN!
once again,every night its tears
10:52 AM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
didnt go skl today =)
went to visit doc heng, and she said i sprain my ligament..
den my sis,jamie treat me for lunch at her work place =))
how nice can she get! =D
aft tat she send me to school..
was suppose to go take ss test, but decided not to since anw i had to "punish" the GB girls who came late on sat..sigh..i feel bad though..
so yea, aft which i went for chapel practice even though there is a high possibility tat i wont go to school..ahah
went to meet ivan at dover den head down to acsi for frisbee
know whats the greatest joke..
when i run it doesn hurt at all, only when i walk,sit or lie down it hurts like crap..
kinda werid uh..so yupp
made new friends, they are quite gd fris players..
celement,clifford,ruth and yea..tats abt it..
some of them ivan n i met before alrdy..
played untill 7.50pm++
den waited for peak hour to go pass, den i took cab home..
tml got chapel and ms yeo is depending on me to help her backup..
and i've got napfa test..so how!?
sigh..now my back hurts, so its like..arghh..
i so hate being injured..
oh wells, i know God will gif me speedy recovery and protect me from anymore injury. =)
once again,every night its tears
11:43 AM
Monday, March 17, 2008
ytd, went for fris..
while playing fris..i suddenly felt a sharp pain on my right hip
crap man..i had problem walking around aft tat..
but yea, i continued to play fris..since the game have not end yet..
thanks jeremy for giving me a lift home.
den yea, came home and the pain got worse..
my sore throat got worse too and now i've got fever..
sigh..
so yea, tats why i'm not in skl now..
i'm going back to skl ard 2plus..
pass hotang his eng homework den
go sit for ss test..
my mum asked me to go see doctor heng..
but i dun feel like, i wana play fris at acsi aft e test..
sighh..i need to get well asap!
i hate being sick man..
LORD, please heal me and make a healthy person asap..also bless my parents wid a safe trip back home..same for merv and fern..let me have the dicipline to complete those tat i need to and correct mindset to get things done..in daddy's BIGBIG NAME..AMEN! =)
once again,every night its tears
2:10 PM
wee..did some of my homework =)
still got 3chinese compo and lit homework i think -.-"
i kinda got sore throat now..
think cause last night i ate or drank something wrong..
oh man its sucks big time..
cant sing or talk properly..ahhh
oh crap i just rmb tml got chapel practice!!
oh no oh no..i hope i recover in time for tmls practice..
ok apprently i didnt go to church -.-"
and i kinda feel bad,
cause in the bible it says that sunday is e sabbath
so we, children of God should stop all work and attend church
to praise God n listen to God's word..
sigh..
ralene, you need to have more dicipline in your life..
oh wells, i'll study for ss test tml den go for fris =)
once again,every night its tears
4:34 AM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
GB ENROLLMENT DAY!!
i took bus to skl by myself today =)
its like super early..
anws we had 1parade rehersal..
before the Guest of Honour arrives..
amazingly the parade only lasted for 20mins..
so we had early service..
BUT something big happened..
the power tripped on the stage when i touched the socket..
so its like blackout on the stage..the amplifer for the guitar,bass n piano wasnt working..
so yea we kinda panicked.
in the end we mic-ed the acrustic(sp?) guitar n piano..
lucky everything sort of went smoothly..i think
after tat came home n i just fell asleep on my sofa..
haha yes i was really tired..
ivan gave me a call at 4plus to go for bums
so yea, packed my stuff, met him at 79 den went to sentosa
played frisbee..made erm can say new friends
den came home.tiredd...
gona wake up early to finish all my homework den prolly go church den frisbee
once again,every night its tears
1:21 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
another tiring day..
had GB parade practice untill 11am
den went for lunch den went for GB service practice..
appprently we've got no PA to help us so..
we've got no mics just e guitar n stuff..
so yea anw wroship was better =)
praise the LORD! =)))
just hope joshua's string wont snap again..
2strings snap in less den an hour man..ahah
was so called forced to watch movie wid..
russell,riaz,jon,desmond n cheryl.
acttually i didnt wana go cause i was tired n broke
but like i feel bad if i leave cheryl alone so yea..
den anw jon treat me to the movie =) ahaha
watched 10000BC
the lead actor n actress are hottt
the guy is handsome n has a sexy body
the girl is super pretty n has a sexy figure!
went to jon's hse for dinner
had chilli crab..thanks mrs fong..
the crab is nice =)
den cab home wid desmond..
thanks desmond for the cab fare =/
i seem to be like leechin of ppl..which sucks alot..
acttually jon's dad was suppose to send me home,
but he went out so yea..
what happens when you are broke..sigh
i feel soo..soo what now..sighh
anw..GB ENROLLMENT IS TML!
ahhh..stress stress..
i really really do hope everything goes well tml.
LORD, please let everything run smoothly..that on the parade ground, everyone will know their roles..commanders do not shout wrong command n the GOH contingent will do us proud..
during service, the PA crew will help us n the nothing will just screw up the service..
even if theres a slight uh-mmm yea..just help us to cover up and it'll run smoothly like as planned..
and also for a good weather tml..let the clouds cover the sun, keep it slighty windy but hold back the rain..in daddy's BIGBIG name AMEN! =)
once again,every night its tears
2:36 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
woo tired..
thanks fern for lending me your jacket =)
spiderwick is not bad..
even though i almost slpt cause i was quite tired n hungry
den yea..aft movie we went to eat at pastamania
den went to e arcade..and played para para
james can dances well =)
we all had a go, joel,david n myself..
obviously i embarassed myself..haha
den we all went home..
i'm really really tired..
think i shall wake up real early tml to polish my boots,pack my GB uniform n prolly do abit of my homework..
tml is gona be a lonnggg day
once again,every night its tears
3:10 PM
had gb enrollment service practice from 8.45am-1pm++
everything was kinda messed up in the beginning cause
PA crew wasnt there and yea, bascially most of the things have not been setted up yet...
but yea later everything was ok but still rather messy
there are many changes in the emcee script so yea headache
but luckily xingya is clear on what are the changes and she is gona send me the updated proposal tonight.
THANKS XINGYA!cheer up n stay happy yea!?
=)
and the worship band was quite disorganized but yea..
they got better as we practiced..
still i'm kinda worried for the service..
i feel that everything is not really welled prepared but yea
i guess i have to trust God and just go with the flow..
also i feel tat i'm a really a pain in the neck to the worship band cause i keep asking them to do this n that..
sorry guys/girls..cause yea, its really really messy..
from what i see i think they just need more SERIOUS practice..
after that went to dover wid merv for lunch
thanks jacob for offering me the umbrella, really sweet =)
and also merv...den had tuition..learnt a new math chpt on vectors
quite a easy topic..but yea i was kinda tired so i took a short nap after the tuition..
bathed and now i'm here infornt of his com =)
gona go out soon to watch spiderwick??isit?i duno ahah
gona watch wid ppl i've meet during the creative arts camp
joel,david and james..
yes i know all guys but i also duno why..
oh wells..
Day 2&3 morning sermon at creative arts camp
Eph 1:12
Humanity's chief end is to serve and enjoy God
2kngs 17:38-39
Mark 12:29-31
[ Loving people ]
- intentional, deliberate, purposeful
- exercise of human will
- not influenced by emotions
Worship is about our relationship with God
[ Loving your neighbour ]
- it is basic human sensibility and respect
- it is a visible expression of our love to God
-it is the tangible expression of God's love for all creation
We can only make God's love visible through our actions,
we are ambassadors of Jesus christ
So where do we start?
Romans 12
- We must be willing to surrender ourself to God
3points to remember about worship
1) it is the way we live our lives, the life-values that we hold, both as community and as individuals
2) as an event, it is a visible reality of the kingdom of God for the world
3) it is a love response not a "forced" social obligation
John 13:34-35
1Corinthians 13
Worship is about loving God and your neighbour
once again,every night its tears
8:43 AM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
today was the last day of worship leading training..
made new friends =)
so yea..we kinda practiced how to lead worship..
den yea tats abt it..
i'm too lazy to type everything esle ahah
tml i'm gona go back to skl again -.-
for Gb enrollment service rehersal..
after which i'll be goin merv's hse for tuition
den prolly go catch a movie =)
once again,every night its tears
11:42 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Went for worship leader training from 9am-5pm
i learn alot during the training..
like how a worship leader should be carrying him/herself..
and all those stuff like worshiping for God and not for yourself..
so yea it kinda change my attitude towards some people..
and the fact that i will not let that few people change my character to something that God hates.
so yea after training went for tuition at merv's hse.
from 5pm-7.30pm.(actually now i'm merv's hse)
feeling really tired now..
but when i reach home i'm gona start revising my sec3 topics..
and sleep early because tml i still got the worship leading training!!
oh wells..i hope tml will be a much less tiring n fun day..
cause everything today is very much of theory lesson..
Here are somethings that i learn during the training..
so i thought mayb i just wana share it and i shall post mpore when i have time
Firstly, do you qualify to be a worship leader?
1) Heart:
- Love God
- Love the people whom you lead
- Regulary repent of sins. Daily repent and cleansing
( merv helped me changed it to something positive: Daily reminder that Ralene is the righteousness of God in Jesus Christ )
2) Skill:
- Sing in tune
- Sing in Tempo
So How does praise and worship blesses us(worshipper) too?
1) Weakens the enemy
- 2 Chronicles 20:22(NKJV)
- 1 samuel 16:23
2) Strengthens our foundation in prayer and the word
- Psalm 42:8
- Colossians 3:16
3) Reverses Our Discouragement and releases faith
- Isaiah 54:1
- Acts 16:25
once again,every night its tears
10:48 AM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
since merv keeps BUGGING me to post..i shall post now..
had drill practice for enrollment in the morning at 7.30am!
was tired and yea.ended at 10am..
aft that went to visit my sis in AH
she looks so much better =)
thanks God =)
my mum says she'll be going home tml.
so yay! i kinda saw the wound on her stomach..
its like so scary..can you imagine 3scars at your stomach?
oh mannn..so yea
came home n slpt all the way untill 4pm
woke up and did abit of math den i gave up..
ok not really give up but just dun feel like doing..
i sort of came up with a timetable for this week..
but den again whats the point when i dont follow timetables haha..
sigh.i acttually thought i could relax or study my subjects but i dont think i can anymore..
oh wells..
thank you LORD for looking after my sister =)
and giving us good weather to able to practice drill today!
i just wana pray that on enrollment service,
very thing will go smoothly and tat i'll work hard n do well for my coming mid year examinations
in daddy's big big name AMEN!
once again,every night its tears
11:50 AM
Saturday, March 08, 2008
just came back from the hospital..
i almost cried when i saw my sister..but yea i fought back my tears.
its really a heart breaking situation.
she look so pale and weak but yet she is still so strong..
my mum told me aft the operation in the morning..
even sitting down was so pain for my sis.
tat when she sits on the bed, tears starting dropping..
my sister is a very very strong girl, for her to even shed a tear is so difficult..
it must be really really painful..
she couldnt eat or drink water, my maid had to go AH and feed her..
sigh..i think i shall go slp now..
really really tired from everything..
school work,freaking unnessary conflicts,cca stuffs and all those craps..
God i pray that you'll give my sister speedy recovery
and protect her from anymore harm..
also show me the path that i should take to conquer all these obstacles in my life.
let me be able to handle all these problems both emotionally and mentally...
i also pray that Gb enrollment will go accordly to plan, with good weather,
no technical problems and all sorts of stuffs..
and also that for class gathering on friday will be a enjoyable one for everyone even though i'm not going...just hope that our class will be more united as this is our last year..
no more gossipping,backstabbing,insulting each other, being a hyprocrite and all those
just pray that if there is any jealousy or stubborness in any of them, pray that you'll remove it from them so we'll have a united class and it'll be a better place for everyone
in Daddy's big big name amen..
once again,every night its tears
3:16 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
today's weather was rather gloomy..
pe isnt really pe..
had napfa briefing den taught the sec1 girls how to do incline pull ups..
den went for recess..
recess was screwed luh fish soup stall..
pay money alrdy den dont wan to gimme my food..
kns make me wait n wait..wait untill i only got 4mins to rush through my hot soup..
bloody idiot luh.keep showing attitude.
eh auntie, w/o us you wont be earning money okay..
so stop your bloody rude attitude to us..
wth talk to us like as though we owe u a living.
get a life,dont wana work in school canteen go work in public luh
i bet your earnings will drop by half.bloody gay fag.
sigh..den everything was as normal..
did my art work aft skl, went to settle some stuffs den came home..
when i came home my maid told me tat my mum when to AH
to sign a form for my sister to go operation..
cause theres something wrong with her intestine
i was damn sad and i really feel like crying..
not too long she just went for leg operation den now she have to get her stomach cut open??
wth man.God what on earth are you trying to do.
this is my Olevel year lei you think what..
apart from giving all the bullshits tat i have to handle in school
you also give me problems in my family..what on earth man
my family is also not earning as much as before..
what more operation need afew thousand dollars
just who are you trying to play at God?
TELL ME WHO!
yes God i'm pisst wid you but i still love you. =(
i really dont feel like going to school anymore.
everyday it just gets harder to controll my emotions..
i was thinking..those who provoked me..
you better thank God that i'm a changed person and tat i'm a child of God..
if not you will long ago be crying and crying
cause i would have made your life like hell..
rip off your face in the whole school,
make the whole world turn against you
and
make sure you regret and hate your secondary skl years...
dont think tat i never do or say anything means i'm ok wid wdv you r doing behind my back.
i'm just obeying what God ask me to do and am finding chances for me to forgive you..
but if you really really go overboard dont blame me for being a hardcore bitch.
cause once you freaking pisst me off i'll go all out to make your pathetic life miserable.
once again,every night its tears
12:32 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Semekau trip!
rest of the pictures is on amber's blog..ahha
Candid SHOT!
candid shot!
hmmm...
captain of the trip and myself
!another dad of mine!wana know why?cause he helped me signed the semekau form
as my gurdian(sp?)
HI DADDY!
russell n i(poor russell look so tired..)once again,every night its tears
1:53 PM
school was normal..
only thing amber n cheryl signed out..
talked to joel li aft skl..caught up with stuffs =)
its been quite awhile since we acttually have a proper chit-chat session
esp when he hardly goes for frisbee anymore cause of church stuffs..
so yupp..had exco
nat keeps saying i look very poffessional wid my laptop..
anw i'm glad i brought my laptop..at least i managed to finish 3/4 of the proposal during mtg =))
got 2 bad news
firstly, enrollment is next week!
and theres quite alot of things not done..
i'm really really starting to get worried abt it..sigh.
i really hope everything will go as according to plan on that day..
second..
my sister has been admitted into hospital again at 3am this morning =((
so yupp went to visit her aft my exco mtg..
she looks really really sad =((
sigh..so yea my mum,eldest sis n i just sat there wid her for awhile..
untill she got tired n fell asleep..
while accompanying her theres this lady admitted in the ward beside us..
she keeps screaming/shouting every now and then..
its really sad..even a small kid will know that she is really really depressed n sad by her screams..
my mum says tat noone visits her and was abandoned by her children in the hospital..
everytime i hear her scream i really feel like crying..
i dunot why but i feel really really sad..
even though my eyes were watery i just cant cry if not my mum n my sisters will think i'm crazy...
so yea.sigh..
i really wana stop coming to school..
all the stress and sadness just keeps piling
God, where are you when i need the most?
Satan, stop toying with my life and leave me alone!
i doubt if anymore things happen..
i can controll my emotions.
since so many ppl reads my blog,
there i've given you the warning..
so if you provoke me, be prepared to see a fist flying to your face.
if you think i'm joking.
think again i'm not..
once again,every night its tears
12:00 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
today's chapel really spoke to me..
and i'm sure it spoke to many other ppl tat is if they are listening..
so amber n i was busy taking down notes while mrs cheng was speaking..
oh yea hannah lee lead chapel today..
it totally rocks =) ALL THE WAY HANNAH!
i dont think i can lead as well as her or in fact anyone..
ms wong keeps asking me to lead chapel,
but yea i'm really scare cause the last time i did it for lower sec, i screwed it up.
oh wells..i'm kinda having art now..
i really cant think of any more ideas for my art =((
sigh..gonna go semekau soon i guess in 40min more?
haha..
oh yea one funny thing is tat
i think my blog can become the next xiaxue blogspot
at the rate ppl are viewing my blog..haha
like i can say abt 15ppl visit my blog everyday..
and the number just keeps increasing due to the commotion tat is happening..
haha i duno but i find it kinda funny..
and last night i wanted to slit my wrist but i couldnt find a penknife
its kinda pathetic..i only found my old rusty penknife..
den i was thinking..
if i cut den God wont be happy wid me..
and that guy will dislike me..
den joel li will scold me n all those shit.
but its really funny if i really killed myself
would i go hell or be a vengence ghost tat goes after those tat i hate..
haha but den again..
i love GOD n HIM n my friends more den anything esle
sometimes e saddest period in my life is acttually the most humorous part of my life..
cause i get to see ppl do childish things
and see myself do stupid stuff..
but there are somethings i just dont understand..
is it wrong going out for wid my friend whom i hardly talk or meet?
haha the world is getting more n more werid..
or mayb its just tat person.
i guess mayb ppl think too much n start being paranoid abt stuffs
tat doesnt even relate to themself and tat the world revolves(sp?)around them
funny world, paranoid ppl, werid mindset..
once again,every night its tears
3:48 AM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
nth much happen in school today..
only thing heard more stuffs abt my class again -.-"
sigh..i realised tat alot of ppl in 4C do want 4C to be united but yea..
say only..no action done..
for me i really cant be bother wid 4C anymore unless something changes my mind..
cause last year when i try so hard to bond the class..
the outcome was just crap so i decided that theres no point trying cause its just our class atittude.
i guess tats just the difference between us n other classes..
went for lunch at dover wid Nikki n Clinton
den went to merv hse for tuition..
guess what! i'm at his hse now =P
tml i'm going pula semekau wid amber n cheryl..only 3 of us in 4C
and the rest are from 4F n 4E =)
ppl are saying that the conflict in our class is getting worse..
like the girls are hating me more
and now guys also hate me..
ok not like i'm gona be bothered abt it anymore..
what more ppl are commenting on my blog..
saying tat i'm acttually insulting them on my blog..
but i'm not, you can think what ever you want cause wdv i'm blogging may not even be referring to u..
besides i didn't say anything abt anyone being a bitch so why you being so paranoid?
sometimes i really just wana laugh, i thought things like this only happen in pri skl..
haha, what a joke.
i guess this kinda spices up my life n is something i'm gona laugh abt when i look back in the past next time.
once again,every night its tears
10:31 AM
Monday, March 03, 2008
sigh didnt go frisbee in the end..
it was cancelled due to the rain..
i really wana join the SFS competition but my dad didnt allow
cause its on 29march kinda near my Olevel chinese exam..
screw Olevel!should have stayed in NA
i feel tat i'm really not prepared..mentally prepared tat is.
cause since sec1 my mindset have me tuned to 5years n all those..
what more i'm the only one who is in express stream in my family.
so its like kinda rush for me esp wid the push foward of the Olevels..
stress.. =((
went to meet wilson at macs aft church service
been very long since i talked to him n met him for lunch..
studyed physics.
i realised tat my physics really really sucks like shit when
i couldnt do the qns in my wkbk n wilson had to teach me..
lucky he still rmbs how to do it ahaha.
now i can tell mr liew "seee i've done my homework.." =))
aft tat went for dinner den came home..cause i was really tired.
slpt for 1hour before going to my uncle's country club
eat ice-cream den went to play lan there.
was talking to clinton while playing cs wid my cousin ahah..
oh wells school starts tml..
i hope all e bullshits will just stop increasing.
once again,every night its tears
2:06 PM
theres something i keep wanting to blog but i keep forgetting..
its abt my sister who went for her operation on her right leg.
that day when she went for operate, my parents brought me to AGH to visit at night..
her face was damn pale n swollen..kinda scary..
but now i'm glad she is getting better even though she is still on cruches(sp?)
she showed me the stiches(sp?) on her leg..n it looked rather disgusting..haha..
den theres a small wound below the stiches den she said:
" wah lao i think the doctor accidently drop the knife on my leg or something..
why suddenly got wound here one "
ok at tat point in time it was funny..
ytd had leadership conference..
we had to attend talks from 8.45-6++??
of course we do have breaks in between..
but it really really make me feel mentally tired..
having to concentrate for so long..
what more i cant doze off even though i almost did many times
cause i have to set gd example -.-
i mean we are representing 3rd coy GB and some more a leader in GB
sigh..this is one of the few times i really feel stress..
cause its like when you are really really tired, you cant sleep.
and you hv to keep telling yourself "stay awake,set gd example..etc.."
like in one of the talks..
they said the leader must be examplary(sp?) role models
before being able to lead..
example..if i tell someone esle not to slp n i end up slping..i'm just bullshitting wad.
so yea..
keeping my attire neat n tidy
meaning no fringes,mini skirts,other colour rubberband,
wear school shoe,school socks and all those..
i've alrdy forced myself to do it even cutting my nails =((
but when it comes to behaviour..
its kinda difficult..ok very difficult for me..
having to not scold vulgarities in public,not slping during talks..etc..
sigh..so yea
so whats on for today?
its mark leong's bday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARKONG!
ok even though he doesnt read my blog but who cares..
i gave him his bday present 1week before his bday..kia su?
i dont think so haha cause i'm rather busy with stuff lately..
esp with so much commotion going on in my life..
i tend to be more forgetful..
gona go church(hope i wont be late)
den have lunch den frisbee!
hope it doesnt rain..
to unknown:
i dont even know if u are trying to shoot me or encourage me or wdv
but anw..
i'm not gona waste my time on you anymore..
cause like what i said you dont even know whats going on in my life.
so u can just stop raising the subject.
once again,every night its tears
2:08 AM
Saturday, March 01, 2008
today was kinda crap..
was really sad by the fact(yes tats why i cried, i will NEVER cry cause i'm scare or wdv)
that my good friend wld acttually turn against me bcuz of his gf..
but everything was settled alrdy..
i'm just glad i've got reliable friends ard me to stand by me when i'm falling apart..
so yea..kinda predicted it wld happen but i just didnt expect it to happen so fast to so thats all.
sigh.Gb was alright only thing my drill standard drop alot cause i was mentally tired..
and got very bad headache..
Gb ended at 5pm due to the meet the parents session n principle dialogue thingy..
suppose to play captain's ball at 5 but yea, seniors came to talk to us the ppl doing enrollment drill..
that its not up to standard n all those...kinda felt very very stressed.
went to dover wid ariel for dinner.
chester tagged along so we just chatted lor..sigh
went back to school for meet-the-parents..
n everything..very tired now...
tml got leadership conference..
ahhhh 7.45am-8pm. -.-"
thanks goodness no drill if not i'll die..
i shall rush all my homework on sunday n sleep early today..
to my friends who stand by me:
thank you so much for beign there for me when i was falling apart..
even though i know some of you do not really know what is going on..
i still know u care for me as a friend even by asking a simple qn like "are you okay?what happen?"
i'm really glad to b able to make such friends, unlike others..
to those who know what is going on..
i'm really glad you helped me with things n comforted me..
also giving words of wisdom =))
at least now i know who will be there for me when i'm in trouble
and who wouldnt be..
special thanks to
cliton,nikki,daniel,russell,patten,cheryl,amber,renia
sorry if i didnt mention ur name..
my brain is alrdy half dead n my memory is fading due to the after effect of crying..haha
to unknown:
i know you are one of the guys in my class not like i duno
you tagged my blog during dnt lesson.
please lor you dont how i feel so just shut up.
if i'm a flirt or slut what are you?
basturd?gigglo?son of a bitch?
you dont even know whats going on in my life
you dont even know how i feel n what i'm experiencing so just shut the fuck up
and dun be another bitch in the class.
somemore you dont need to be a coward to type UNKNOWN
bloody gay fag.
once again,every night its tears
1:26 PM
