Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
felt much better when i woke up in the morning.
the emo feeling wasnt really there aft i prayed last night.
so yea.went to skl.
had geog,den math..didnt have 2 go for chem.
during math,mr ho was super angry.
hai.sometimes i just wish....nvm.
went for chapel practice 1pm.
forgot 2 bring extra mic...oh well.
went off at 2pm when the pastor just came -.-"
den i went home, bathe n went out 2 vivo 2 meet michelle.
i thought her obs grp had seperated their ways alrdy
if not i wouldnt want 2 go -.- hai..
felt so extra there.anw..in the end her grp seperated their ways.
i find tat her grp is super indecisive(sp?) they wana watch movie different movie but dun wana split.
werid luh.they shld at least have a like plan den every1 can enjoy themselves.
oh well.i'm not in thier grp. =) so i dun need 2 bother much.
when they split their ways, michelle n i went 2 eat pastamaina.
okay its just me.but yea.cause she ate earlier on...
den we went window shopping.
it was super fun.
in the end we bought a double layer yellow top which was so sexy.
we will wear it 2gether e next time we go out and look like twins =D
till that byee.
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FOR FUCKING PEOPLE WH HAVE BIG MOUTHS
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i freaking hell hate gossipers.
i think i'm in the toplist 4 gossips man.
my own personal lifestyle ppl also find it a interesting topic 2 gossip abt.
bloody bitchs.
what rubbish that i like markong now when i'm wid brendan and i dont treasure markong when i stead wid him last time.
fucking gossipers also dun what happen in e history.
talk wad shit.
argh.stupid rumors.
how the fuck hell wld you know how i feel when you're not me?
fuck off and die bloody gossipers.
my life is 4 myself handle.
not for you big mouths 2 bother shit and start spreading rumors that r not true.
you think everyone's life is perfect like your's
and that its so perfect tat you can start gossipping abt mine?
just fuck off and gossip abt yourself 2 other people.
if your live is fucking hell perfect,look again
your life will soon be perfect in hell.
once i get hold of all the names of the gossipers.
the main culprits better watch out.
its time for you pay dearly.
once again,every night its tears
11:27 AM
Monday, May 28, 2007
YES!now i only left wid 13new task for my e-learning =)
argh.wasted my time on e computer.now my head hurts..
felt much better aft a good rest las nite even though my chest hurts now.
my dad just told me tat my mum stayed overnight at my grandma's hse.
argh..fuck school luh.
i'm suppose 2 stay at my grandma's hse tonight also wid my cousins but i fuck hell cant.
&^*$&#^%$#^%$#@&!
fuck fuck fuck!
argh.stupid skl tml.wads this crap!!!!!!
wana stay at my grand's hse also no chance!
wtfuck is going on!
and now i'm stucked at home.
this dirty home when no one have swept or mopped the floor in a week.
wtfreak man.I WANA GO OUTTTTTT!
=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(
stuppiiiiiid!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
fuck hell!i hate life!i hate life!
i dun wan to stay at homeee!
i wana go AH MA'S HSE!!! =(
i dun wana do anymore work =((
i fucking hell wana rip myself apart!!!!!!!!
FUCK LIFE!
God you are freaking unfair to me.
one set back after another and another.
whats this crap???????
fuck.dun talk 2 me.i'm freaking depressed.
once again,every night its tears
12:21 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
FUCK E-LEARNING!
i hate you!i hate you!i hate you!
argh.i freaking hell got 27 uncomplete task.
and i fuck hell have 2 finish it by monday.
how in the shitting world am i gona finish it in 2days.
things are fucking hell getting worse
ok i'm gona count all the bad things that had happen again
1) fucking screwed obs
2) my grandfather passed away
3) the fucking e-learning is stressing me up
4) fucking screwed up result
5) didnt managed to complete game plan,so i submitted incomplete proposal.
6) just say..i'll be dying from a broken heart.
7) my face is freaking hell damaged by pimples due to lack of slp cuz of e wake.
8) no maid in my hse for 1 fucking month.
9) my eldest sister is bitching around.
10) i'm freaking hell tired.
ok so those are the things that are causing me to be super depressed.
so if you would,try not to pisst me off.
and i apologize if i bitched around.
once again,every night its tears
3:07 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
sad day..
my grandpa passed away on the tuesday morning.
1st is e obs camp,which wasnt good 4 me.
2nd not being able to complete my work
and now
this...
hai..so sway of all time, why now?
when i have to do my e-learning.
stupid e-learnig,wads wid the school?
anw yea..its been very tiring.
waking early 2 do e-learning den later stayin up till next morning at the wake.
i only managed to slp at 2am ytd and woke up at 7.15am this morning
to prepare go school take report book.
my results are screwed.
teachers asked me if i want to go back to NA.
i really wan to,but i cant take Amath.
if i go back NA and i'll have 2 take Amath,
i'll kill myself.as in really.cause my "O"level is screwed.
if i stay in exp, i'll regret very badly.argh.FUCK the FUCKING SCHOOL!
why on earth they give NA students a chance 2 take Amath?
argh.if not i can stay back in NA wid my friends =(
and enjoy life.
but i go exp is also 2 graduate same year as brendan.
arhhhhh.feel so trapped. =/
hai..gtg 4 the wake soon..
anw here are my results
English - 65.1 - B3
Chinese - 56.8 - C5
Math - 37.1 - F9
Phy/Chem -52.0 - C6
Com Hum - 49.7 - D7
Lit - 63.0 - B4
Art - 68.5 - B3
Total: 392.2/700
Percentage: 56.0
Class position: 3/30
L1R4: 21
L1R5: 28
so yea..sucks rite.hai..
anw..
my darling is going 2 Nepal soon =(
its been a long time(to me) since we went on a date.
hai.but i dun think there is any chance untill he comes back.
oh well, i miss him so so much.
think i shall take a nap den go 4 the wake.
take care ppl.enjoy ur holiday
once again,every night its tears
4:44 AM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
YAY!i'm back from obs.
woohoo i miss my darling so much.
camp was fun but yea many irritating conflicts happen
Day 1
Left for pula ubin from fmss early in e morning.
We had to split up into different grps.
1 boy n 1 girl from each class.
hai..so sad got seperated frm my friends.
grp members :Jervis,Mas,Jacob,Nicholas,Alex.Chu hui,Liyan,Beyanca(sp?),Jo,Joylnn,Cassandra,Jeyun,Jacqline,swenn and me.
Its difficult to clique wid them.
but yea.i was appointed overall i/c
li yan was appointed food i/c
nicholas n jervis as store i/c
jacob as kayaking i/c
grp name is Hillary.
our grp was named aft some dude climb e highest mountain in e world.
and they hope we can have e same attitude n essense tat he had.
i hope tat we had it too.
hai..anw yea.i tired 2 bond e grp =)
everything seem fine n things were going alrite.
we went kayaking aft packin e store n dividing e food,
i can see tat we were enjoying ourselves together n i super happy.
aft tat we had 2 pitch our tent and cook our dinner.
we took turns as in some pitch tent,some cook,some went 2 bathe.
and switch over every now n den.
slpt at 11pm.
Day 2
We woke up at 4am+
wash up and packed our stuff.
we were still late.like 45min.
aft we met Andy who was our instructor,we did PT
which was damn funny but yea..
Hillary got closer.
we hiked for 15-20min to OBS main camp.
e place was super big.
we had lunch,did the inverse tower.
Liyan n i was e 1st 2 climb n reach e top of e tower for our grp.=D
sexy man.
but was kinda dissapointed when not everyone climb e tower.
i saw tat e enthu spirit wasnt there.oh well.
sadly Jervis went back home because he had fever.
so we got a extra bag 2 put e items
we pitched e tent aft tat..
we didnt had 2 cook dinner cause they cooked dinner us.
aft dinner,we bathe n had red bean/orange soup 4 supper.
den we had 2 pack our bags again 4 tml's activities.
slpt at ard 12am.
anw 4watchs was combined into 1 grp. Mobile 4C.
Day 3
LAND EXPIDITION!
we woke up early,changed out n double check everything.
we set off at 8am.
we had 2 row boat 2 another side of ula ubin.
it was super tiring.they purposely make us make go 1 big round b4 reaching our destination.
damn wad lor.anw..we had 2 pee n change in e bushes.
so werid but it was a once in a life time experience.
aft tat,we tracked to our camping area.tracked 3hours long.
i was carrying 2 bags at 1st.
my own bag,which was filled wid everyone's food.
and my cloths are in jacob's bag.
the mass tins and pots are in jervis bag.
so i carried e food bag n mass tin bag.
super irritating when e bag slips off.
Beyanca helped me 2 carry jervis bag which was heavy.
we reached e place later den e other grp.
so we had limited choice of where 2 pitch e tent.
oh well..we cooked dinner again.
also,we had 2 do patrolling because wild boars.
3-5am was our patrolling time.
we saw wild boars.they are so cute!but they stink =( smell like dog food.
ahahas.we had 2 hit e sticks when we see them 2 keep them away.
Day 4
we unpitch e tents,pack bags,change 2 wet attire again n set off kayaking.
i had 2 change partner because there was an extra boat.
so my partner was nicholas.
i sort of panicked because i was so scare tat we will capside(sp?)
but yea.we made it thru to land.
=)
we had 2 go thru mangrove swamp den into e sea again
it was fun.Hands on experience.
CONFIRM PASS GEOG!
haha =X
we reached shore.
and this is where e problem starts.
1st i argued wid alex.
later on e abt 6 girls were against me.
hai.i was damn dissapointed.
they blame me 4 some childish thing.
like wad bathing?
argh.lets see if they were in my position how wld they handle e situation.
so yea.those who pitched e tent went 2 bathe 1st.
den e rest bathe.
mas,nicholas n jacq took over cooking.
i lock myself in e tent n cried.but later on i decided 2 stop bcuz i rather help den 2 be a burden.
so i helped them.when e food is cooked,i warm e food up 4 those tat were bathing.
but they took too long so i decided 2 off e fire n start eating 1st.
den markong n issac came down.
and i broke down again.so i went 2 eat wid them n liyan came.
its so good 2 have friends tat you can company and comfort you when you're down.
oh man.i sooo love you guys =) thanks alot.
aft tat we went 2 slp.
Day 5
we woke up late. 5.40am
suppose 2 be 5am.
wash up and pack e store.
was super irritated when packing e store.
not everyone helped and we were late AGAIN!
everyday we are late for things.
Andy got pisst when we were late n some of us werent in shoes.
its like wth.i lost my sports shoe rite.
den other ppl can wear sandals why we cannot.
i almost wanted 2 shout back but yea.
decided not 2 because its just shoes.
aft tat we had grp disscusion
some problems were trashed out.
but yea.i also duno how i shld be feeling.
forgive n forget?never forget what happens n get back at them?or just leave it when they hurt me so badly?
ahhh..so confusing.
it really spoils everything.my mood,my impression,my energy level n everything!
hai..but good news.i no longer need 2 deal wid e probs i had anymore =)))
YAY!!
once again,every night its tears
12:48 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
oh man..
going obs tml.
feeling kinda sad.
dun feel like leaving sg.
i'm gona miss my darling badly.
5days,i wont be online n near my hp.argh.
oh well.still duno my grp members n who is my partner.
i hope tat my grp members n my partner are ppl tat are easy 2 get along wid.
i've packed my bag 4 tml alrdy.
its super heavy.carry untill got headache man.
not sure if its meant to be tat heavy...
oh well.
Happy mothers day ppl =)
shall blog again when i come back from obs!
wish me luck!
once again,every night its tears
4:53 AM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
went 2 sentosa 2dae wid brendan =)
met him at 2pm+
went 2 vivo,saw junming n 3C guys.
saw my juniors so we headed 4 harbourfornt..
bought a new shorts there,super sexy =D
ate ice-cream,drank cookie n cream drink..
den we went 2 shop 4 food at cold storage
bought sushi,hand rolls and twisties
and off we go 2 Sentosa!
we took e sky train,super fun.
reached there at abt 3pm,headed for siloso beach.
saw many many ppl there so we went 2 e other beach(dunno how 2 spell e beach's name)
had a super super fun time.
left sentosa at 8+
we went 2 play at e playground n something else
reached home at 9.15pm.
enjoyed myself 2dae..
loves baby =D
happy anniversary!
oh man,i'm damn worried for obs.
grpings not out yet..hai.
i hope i do not end up wid ppl i cant get along wid..
and i wont get e irritating partner.
hai..oh well..
hai..oh well..
all e best 4 tml's math paper baby.
me n my darling =) <3
oh gosh i look ugly in tis photo =(
once again,every night its tears
2:34 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
YAY!
written exams are over =)
now only left art!
but its on monday so..i'm safe..
got sat n sunday 2 prepare the layouts.
woohoo!cant wait till tml =)
gona go jammin den go out wid brendan.
its been a super long time since we had a proper date out..
oh yea aft his exams..he is gona help out wid my band..
sucks man..
left me,yifeng n trevor..
duno abt matt n jeremy..they seem not interested anymore..
oh well..
once again,every night its tears
11:38 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
man.stayin at home sucks!
finally i can blog man.haha
=)
tml got geog,phy n chinese paper..
arghh!
damn worried for phy paper.
scare tat i'll fail man..hai..
oh well.
cant wait till holidays!
can go out wid darllingg =)
miss him badly man..
anw!all e best for exams ppl!
once again,every night its tears
12:15 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
TESTING!
1-2-3!
if tis has been posted, tagg me!
once again,every night its tears
1:24 PM
