Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Monday, August 31, 2009
super super tired.
slpt at 3.30am ytd
cause i was playing dota with baby =)
he is freaking hell damn good.
oh wells.
woke up in the morning, like 7am!
yea exactly like my timing to go school sia -.-
and i thought its the holidays..
suppose to sleep in and stuff..
haha but give and take =)
went to meet baby at clementi mrt
head down to NP
den like play toss and stuff
I NEED TO CORRECT MY BACKHAND THROWS!
yupp.
every time i throw its OI so irritating
lucky got baby to play toss with me
allowing me to adjust and get use to the new throwing way
thanks for your patience darling!
than i accompanied him to his sec school at sbw =O
far i know, but what to do.
give and takee =)
i just hope when i keep practicing on my backhand,
i wont lose my forehand throws.
zzz why cant i have proper training right from the start when i even know abt ultimate?
tsk.its like so bloody hard to change now.
for backhand i need to change:
1)the way i release the disc, its like my wind up is too big for a very short distance
2) OI, i sort of can do OI and IO but not STRAIGHT throws.so yea.need to practice
for forehand i need to change:
1) my grip, 3fingers to 2fingers
2) the way i release the disc, got alittle chicken wing.
OMGGGGG sian.
basic not there means everything else also useless =(
COME ONNNN
i willl get it back.
i will FLOWER-POTTING GET IT BACK!!!
once again,every night its tears
9:17 PM
Sunday, August 30, 2009
HAPPY 1 MONTH BABY! =)
all those that i need to tell you,
i've alrdy wrote it down in that card..
so yea..
I LOVE YOU BABY! =)
hmm, went out with him.
duhhh..LOL..
was suppose to meet at 2pm but we both overslpt.hehe
den we met at dhoby at 4.30pm instead
erm..i was late.hehe.sry darling
den we went to seragoon
cause i thought there got shopping center =(
but its like all HDB buildings only..
seragoon shopping centre was at kovan.
cheat my feeling sia.
tsk tsk
went to bishan..pierced my ear and his pierced his.
omg looks hotter with his piercing now. =)
not that he isnt hot before.
okay.i just have a thing for guys who look good with a single ear piercing
thann we went off to slack at somewhere..
stupid luh got this stupid *&^%$#&^banglah tried to steal my bag.
arsehole. I DONT LIKE YOU!ROARSS!!
but seriously, if he stole my bag..
he picked on the wrong victim.
cause eitherway that old *&^%$ banglah wld get chased down either by me or my bf
how the hell can we not outrun him.
ridiculous.
haha.oh wells.stupid loser
lucky i was observation enough..
i swear it was damnn close.
oh wells.
im still in a state of shock.i admit.
cause the way the creep up to steal my bag was like a freaking 7th month ghost thing
you know..like black figure,crawling slowly..except for the cigrate bud.
tsk tsk.
ahhh.^%$%$
exactly like what my sister said
how can we not hate them when they do such stuff that people hate.
makes sense..but yea.
oh wells.tsk.
once again,every night its tears
11:07 PM
Friday, August 28, 2009
YAY! exams are finally over
funny thing is, it doesnt feel like exams are over.
i still feel like as though i've got another paper to sit for =/
oh wells.
time to enjoyy!
stuff to look forward to:
1)trainings!
2)chalet
3)spend more time with him
4)catching up with old friends???
5)chilling out!! =)
once again,every night its tears
11:26 PM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
i swear, poly exams are such a pain in the arse!
!@#&^%$#@!@$%%$#
i had better not get anymore Cs or Ds
otherwise i'll kill myself
for putting in so much effort n still getting sucky results.
to hell with lifescience math and phychem.
once again,every night its tears
6:33 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
waking up late is so not me.
lol..slpt at 2.40am+ this morning and woke up at 1.30pm?
haha..gosh.i feel like a pig now.
got to start studying soon
exam is in a week time!OMGGG!
it feels like O level all over again
only thing,
i'm feeling super insecure and dumb cause i dont know most of my stuff well
oh wells.
got to study hard now
and
enjoy later!!
2weeks to freedom baby! =)
awesomenesss
i seriously cant wait for the
class BBQ and chalet.
i hope everything will be fun! =)
even though my class isnt THAT fun
but i hope i'll enjoy myself either way.
BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!BBQ!
CHALET!CHALET!CHALET!CHALET!CHALET!CHALET!
hehe.excited..
oh yes and back to intensive training =)
FRISBEE!FRISBEE!FRISBEE!FRISBEE!FRISBEE!FRISBEE!FRISBEE!
NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!NYPU!
DK!DK!DK!DK!DK!DK!DK!DK!DK!
okay shall stop spamming now.
oh yea..i just realized that my english deproved ALOT
cause of someonee...lalalala~
hahah jkjk X)
oh wells.study break is meant for mugging.
soooo see ya people!gona study now...
hopefully it'll be productive ^^
all the best MB0902
MUG HARD =)
even though i know you guys will..
all the darn muggers/smart arses...
LOL
i miss you baby!
once again,every night its tears
4:31 PM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
there are so many things i wana say,
but i cant put them in words.
honestly,
i really feel broken.
with the stress from studies..
and losing out in frisbee
and my class ahem so sucky..
they are really so &^%$^% that i practically ignore them alrdy
unless i really have to talk to them or if they kaobei me or my friends
if they did kaobei me or my friends(infront of me), i'll make sure they pay for it..
i dont know how im gona do it, but i'll just make sure they regret being such a irresponsible jerk.
its not like i've never been a bitch before,
i did and i can say im extremely good at it..
conflicts?its my game..but when im in the mood to make someone suffer..
but yea....oh and!
my cat that had been missing for a week alrdy =(
sigh,
its like history repeated itself once again.
exactly like when i was in sec2,
2 weeks before my exam my cat went missing
and after that my exam
i found out she got hit by a car
and flower-pot the bloody idiot who did it to her didnt even own up.
like COME ON the whole estate knows that only my house owns 2cats
which we allow them to roam ard.
stupid stupid.roarss
and now, my cat is missing!(my other cat)
it was like so sudden.
the house is like so much quieter.
i cant stand it.
i miss her meows, her blur look and everything about her!
flower-pot. please tell me is is okay
i want her back.
i want her back now, more than anything else.
she is like a younger sister to me..
even though she is just a cat
but she's been with me for 5 years!
argh shit.
i cant take it.
its like i wana cry out loud, but i cant..
cause i dont know if she is still alive or dead
even if she is dead, i wana see her body
damn it. why?seriously..why
does life really have to work this way?
give and take
by giving her away, what do i get?
good grades?like what happened in sec 2?
giving me the choice, i rather have average grades rather den have good grades for her to come back home.
sigh, im feeling really really broken now.
my whole family act as though she doesnt exist at all
or maybe they are just hiding their emotions..
argh.wdv i dont care.
the feeling is just really horrible..
when you wana cry but you cant.
having to always pretend everything is okay, putting on a fake smile
be it at home or outside..
sigh.if she is dead.i'd rather to know the truth now rather den to wait so long for the news.
sigh wdv.
must not let this affect my studies.maybe i'll cry after my exams.
like have a emotional breakdown or something..
im bottling up too much stuff.
well....
at least,
i still got jethro =)
thanks baby.
im tired and yea wdv.
need to study for inmolb test tml.
lesson at 8am.
fuck.tml is a busy busy day
once again,every night its tears
12:42 AM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
back from hongkonggg alrdy =)
i swear i think i lost weight instead of losing weight
haha..
the amount of time spent on walking is more than the calories i had consumed.
haha X)
esp when the weather there is sooo bloody hot.
Day one,
arrived at hongkong airport,
took a bus to the hotel and slacked in the room for awhile
den we head out for lunch and shopping at the shopping mall next door
after that we went to the "flea market"
so many stuff sia..
but my legs felt like they were gona break
im not used to all these walking..
my mum wanted to find the porridge stall
so we walked and walked SOME MORE..i was supere irritated and tired.
in the end we gave up finding and eat some other food
Day two,
if i remember correctly,
we went to ocean park.
its a theme park..
honestly, after going to gold coast Australia, disney land..
the rides there were like..no kick.
lol.but yea.
it was fun...in a way.
by the end of the day, my legs were like soo pain man.
the uphills and downhills.
roars.ahaha..
came back to the hotel and went to the "flea market"
Day three,
went to sit cable car to see the giant Buddha
so cool sia.the bottom of the cable car
is like transparent.so nice =)
after reaching that place, did some sight seeing
den went to shop at the shopping mall near the cable car
=) i love shopping.
came back and went to the "flea market" AGAIN ..lol
Day four,
went to the airport in the morning
and did some final shopping =)
i had fun.
but im damn tired.
after i came back home,
went to meet him at jurong east.
i was suppose to study with him..
but i end up day-dreaming
sigh.oh wells.
once again,every night its tears
6:50 PM
Thursday, August 06, 2009
FINALLY
inmolb project work is OVER! =)
one big burden off my shoulder =D
and im quite proud of my class =)
seriously, like first time we did something well as a class
okay..excluding some people.which i dont really care as long as they dont bother me or my friends
so yea.
well done MB0902!! =)
but now im still flower-potting stress
cause im leaving tml morning at 7.30am
means..
1) i'll miss out inorg revision lecture!!
2) i cant go for the NE celebrations = i may have to go myself next time
3) cant spend time with him
sucks luh.damn sway
why must my parents bring us to hongkong this week?
like when i come back..
i've got to doo
tuesday:
1) inorg chem report
2) microA report
wed:
3) Phychem thermo test
4) Phychem radioactivity and electro tutorial
thursday:
5)IMB final test
6) FC poster presentation/revision
friday:
7) FC test
omgomg.flower-potting stress.
plus my cat is missing!for 2days alrdy =(
i seriously hope history wont repeat itself..
otherwise i cant just say good bye to my results
cause i definitely cant concentrate
FUCK! =(
its like when i was in sec2 having my final year exam luh.
fuck fuck fuck.
please come back missy! T.T
i hate how things are now
seriously i do.
i hate my results
i hate how my frisbee standard drop
i hate staying so far from him
i hate the idea of going for a "holiday" when its 1-2weeks till exams
i hate exams
i hate this situation now
and
i hate making him feel uneasy with my moody attitude...
im so sorry baby.
=(
once again,every night its tears
9:48 PM
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
not enough sleeppp..sigh
was like gona fall asleep anytime today.
had math lecture today.
after which,
our whole class stayed to do inmolb project work
and we all have to skip our lunch =(
like maybe getting small bites or something
but it totally sucks man
i had gastric and it hurts bad bad badly.
went for phychem practical and yea
freaking hell, our last prac is like sooo long
we ended at like 5plus!
when its suppose to be 4 =(
aft tat we gathered as a class and discuss about the inmolb thingy again
sian.
tml,
we've got to meet up aft math test to make the props and rehearse the skit
seriously, i HATE project works.
its the worse.cause its time consuming and everybody needs to work tgt
and it sucks when ppl in the grp doesnt.
cause its like their laziness have cause the others their grades.like NOT fair.
okay enough of my complaining.
stayed back in school
with chel,ginette and greg
to study math..
okay not really but yea.
THANKS MICHELLE FOR TEACHING ME MATH =)
seriously i think she is the best
throughout this few months,
she've been helping me alot.
i seriously duno what to do w/o her help
thanks alot michelle! =)
stayed till 9pm
waited for him.
den went off tgt.
sad, why cant we stay nearer to each other..
at least we can go back home tgt.
oh wells.
waited for my sis at hb
for like so flower-potting long.
&^%$#&^% but okay luh.
i appreciate her fetching me home.
tired.
math test tml.
OH MY FLOWER-POT
but...
trainging tml! YESH =)
finally
once again,every night its tears
1:33 AM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
I aim,
to excel in my studies
and to be selected as one of captain in NYPU
(even though i know this part abit not possible cause its usually guys who are capts.SEXIST!roars but im still aiming for it anw)
i just need to bloody hell be smart
and
i can focus on frisbee
come on ralene,
for the sake of yourself and for him.
work your ass off and be smart!
once again,every night its tears
1:46 PM
was suppose to meet ivan at hb at 1plus
but i decided to go jean yip at clementi with my sis
cause i've got a feeling tat he'll take a long time
and my mum have been nagging at me abt my hair..
like not taking care of it, tat its dry and keep dropping..oh wells
did hair treatment, trim n thin-ed
but wth my hair now like ah lian style sia
ugly shit.not hot lei! haha X) joking
sigh, lucky he doesnt mind..haha
anw my six sense was right.lol
ivans training ended at 2pm.so yea -.-
i had to wait for abt an hour plus before he can reach clementi
den can like study for a while only before meeting jet.
but like.not really worth..waste 1 hour+ on waiting den yea.
so i decided to just meet jet aft ivan told me he just ended at 2pm -.-
oh wells.
went to west mall den to boon lay cause we couldnt find a nice quiet place to study
i think singapore is really lousy
no conducive place for ppl to study sia.
oh wells.
chiong CS presentation and microA report and phychem report NOW!
my handsome/cute bf =)
loves many muchonce again,every night its tears
1:05 AM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
=)once again,every night its tears
1:49 AM
