❤ Its more than just words.

Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

skl as normal^^
had lit test 2dae..
its so..last min.
went 2 eat lunch wid michelle leong n choo,hannah n fredrick.
tried 2 do smthing 4 GB thing..but didnt work out..
went 2 lazy ard..met up wid brendan later on ard 5pm+
when i was going bac 2 skl i almost died.
almos got killed by a bike.haha.
went bac home ard 6plus
struggling 2 finish my zhou ye n other homework..
hai so tired..i wish they can like dun gif homework..
its a waste of time doing it.
anw..i'm gona slp soon.
nites ppl!

once again,every night its tears

1:31 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

went 2 skl,met mich leong,hannah n fredrick at busstop.
skl was as normal..untill i realised i've been backstabbed by e obvious.
sickening man.
she made e class com hate me..
make me look like e culprite of e class..
sayin tat i was e 1 hu asked her 2 step down as deputy chairman.
like Whack-The-Fish.i didnt even talk 2 her!
e only time i talked 2 her is during cross-country when she was beside.
i was encouraging her 2 do her best.
ass man..
e only reason why i didnt like her was bcuz she backstabbed many of my friends.
n also she got a bloody attitude.
Whack-The-Fish man.hai..
got bloody class com being bias 2 since she is like e " popular "
i really hv no idea wad she is popular for luh..2 me she doesnt hv e looks n e character.
so why are ppl so stucked up 2 her?
hai..i really miss being in NA
at least they are much more fun n honest.
2years of my life being in NA was e best.
even though there mayb some conflicts..
but those 2years were still rocking!
thanks 2 those hu stayed by me during those 2years n up till now!

once again,every night its tears

2:24 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

WEE!cross country..
i woke up quite early..5.30plus den i want back 2 slp.
woke up at 6pm.got ready n went 2 macrithe.
i thought i was gona b late cuz i'm suppose 2 meet mich tan
at 7am but i was early..way too early..6.40am i reached there.
i was quite nervous..is,am,are.still when i tink abt it.
b4 e race..cheryl,jo,amber,sarah lee,jia qi n i gathered outside e toilet 2 do warm up n 2 pray.
we took turns 2 pray 4 each other.
i'm glad tat i'm feeling closer to God now.
as in i can sense it.
soon aft it was our turn 2 run..
while walking 2 e starting point, i started singing christian songs..
amber n cheryl sang along too.
during e race..it started 2 rain heavily..
i met mark leong n chester on e way n apprently they were slacking.
haha.so i dragged them wid me 2 run..untill e splitting road of e girls route n guy's.
i wan 2 say thanks 2 siti..4 encouraging me during e race.
cuz i was like racing wid her..
n guess wad i got 25th position in competitive.not bad uh..
but its not e best tat i did..definately i felt tat i can do better..
well there is always next year^^.
they cancelled cross country bcuz e rain was pouring..every1 was drenched.
it was fun n cold.haha.
they arranged shuttled bus 2 bring every1 bac 2 skl.
i left skl ard 11plus.

at home..
i duno wtf has gotten into my parents..
they suddenly dun let me go out unless i finish all my homework.
like WTF!since when i duno when 2 do my homework n play?
screw them luh.they r obviously picking on me.
anw..i went out n met sk at 1pm++ since i was late.
thanks 2 e bloody homework.nehneh luh..
by den e rain stopped.

outside..
we went 2 orchard road.cine.
ate pasta mania there.
went 2 PS..i bought a eyeliner there at guardian.
it super sucks..n e rain started pouring again.
met mark leong n chester there.
got 2 run over 2 some place..duno wads e name
2 meet brendan.he brought us as in e 4 of us..2 a lan shop..
but den we cant play cuz only ppl above 16 den can play.
so brendan being swt enough,asked his friend 2 overtake him.
so brendan followed us 2 e arcade..haha.
we played daytona,getcha,e 3button thingy n house of e dead.
it was fun.haha..but time seem 2 pass by so quickly when we r enjoying ourselves.
later on..went bac wid sk..
went 2 SYC 2 support orange cove.
came back home ard 10pm.

at home..
watched charlie's angels..
slacked ard..
den my parents starts 2 nag again..sayin wad y never eat e bao in e aftnoon.
blahblah..why u duno how 2 appreciate what ppl do 4 u..
blahblah..next time dun buy 4 u food alrdy.
wdv fucking shit.they fuck hell spoil my day luh.
i WAS damn happy..i hate them!ass.i hate u i hate u!ARGH!
wana go out tml also cannot.screw u man.hai..this kind of parents..
also not say i purposely wan 2 4get abt e bao rite.

sry ppl abt e vulgarities.i was damn angry n irritated.
// i miss u lotss.

once again,every night its tears

3:48 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

hey ppl!
sry 4 not posting..for sometime.haha
n guess wad!i'm in skl now.7.31am.
sitting beside michelle leong in eng lesson at com lab 3.
haha.cool uh.
anyway..2dae is bound 2 a boring day.
cause there's 2hrs of chinese n 2hrs of math later on.
but aft skl it'll b better.
will b meeting up wid brendan aft skl 4 lunch.
aft tat i'll b havin lunch wid jim n candice..prolly.got e feeling some1 else might come.
anw!i hope it'll be a better day 2dae..
got ting xie later on..hai.havnt learn yet..
oh well..cyz ppl!shall blog another time.

//love ya!

once again,every night its tears

11:20 PM

Saturday, January 20, 2007

woo woke up late 2dae man.
suppose 2 meet nicolas yong at dover mrt..at 7am.
was 20min late.took bus 2gether 2 macritcie..whereeva tat place is 2 train 4 cross-country.
dorcas came wid hotang at arh 8.07am.they were 7min late.haha.
we admire the scenery while waiting 4 jo n amber.
e scenery is so nice,i wished i had brought my sketch book along den can draw.
its like e lake..ppl kayaking and many many trees.
when amber n jo came it was 8.30am ard there.
i changed my K5 to speaker mode so can entertain myself n others while running.
some sort of motivation by playing hip-hop songs.
every1 ran e guys rout.
acttually its much easier only thing its 1km more and its super muddy
the girls rout is steep(sp?)
my timing was 17min.its damn slow man.wid tis timing how 2 get top 25?
hai..my stamina really drop alot.aft running we went 2 eat KFC at thomson plaza.
was hopin 2 see my church friends there since i hardly see them..
but i guess it was too early.
we left thomson plaza at 11am.
jo n amber will b fetched by their parents,dorcas took a bus outside thomson plaza..nicolas,hotang n i went 2 take bus opp thomson plaza.
i made them miss bus 166..n hotang was complaining..
so we took 855.its a super long bus ride of 45min..
dropped at vivo city..
when we alighted the two guys slpt on e bench,since there wasnt much ppl..
when i board e bus they went 2 e arcade.
i came bac home at ard 12..super tired..
n e price paid 4 trainin at cross-country -muddy shoes,dirty leg.
as blog later in e night again tc peps!

once again,every night its tears

4:29 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

woke up early.8am..
slack ard..
started abit on my art homework..
i kinda regretted going express and taking art man.
its so difficult.
and i'm starting to think i might grow white hair due to stress..
i'm like gona fail for phy,math,eng,art n chinese..well i hope i dont.
i managed to ask mr mak to teach me phy aft school on monday.
cause its really 2 year study gap.i duno wth he is teaching during lesson time..
i've got english remedial tat clashes wid my math tuition..so troubled..
during chinese lesson..i cant really understand wad the textbook is talking abt.
hai..i'm freaking stressed to the core.
went 2 my god-papa hse later on..
some casual meeting..we sang karaoke..
the song i sang was a super sad love story..
when i was singing the song i cried..
hai 1st time i cry while singing a song..
its so similiar to my situation..
what music and lyrics can do to your soul..
some time later..when it was late afternoon..russell called..
i missed e call so i gave him a return call..he was damn funny..
we said to talk later ard 7plus..
but he didnt call..so no1 to chat wid.hai..
gtg back 2 work.stressed..
anyone got destress pills?
or methods to destress?
haha jkjk.tata ppl!

once again,every night its tears

12:35 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

oh man i hate the sec 4s!sry no offence.
stupid luh.some bloody sec 4s keep taking my table during recess..
my friends and i will hv 2 change place again.2times alrdy.wth man.
sickening.they are like bloody ungentleman.
hai.had to rush many many homework.
last nite talked 2 nicolas on e phone.
organise some class outing stuff.
damn it man,i think i shldnt even b doin all this kind of stuff.
its like i'm inviting more trouble since anyway i'm not in e class com.
ppl will tink tat i'm like extra and bossing ppl ard.
hai.i'm starting 2 miss being class capt.i realised it was kind of fun.esp last year.
can organise class outing easily.

recently brendan told me his cat fell frm 9thfloor.so poor thing.
anw i bought a red ball 4 it,when i went gamin at yishun wid novan n his friend.
quite long ago.like 2weeks.
there r like 4pet shops together..den like so many dogs.so cool man.
and erm i saw 2 kids " trying " to bully a cat at my friend's void deck ytd.
i wanted 2 scold them..but i scare that thier mum might slap me or smthing.
i felt xtremely guilty luh.i juz went up e lift..i duno wad e two kids did.
but when i came down,45mins later.the cat was missing.
i got damn worried but hai..e place is also under construction.juz hope e cat is alrite.

i find that express class is very much different frm NA.
we learn the same as na but only thing way much faster.
express class is kinda boring during lesson,quiet tat tis.
NA class is noisy but also can learn.its fun n learnable
express class got alot alot of homework!
NA clas got not much.only alittle.
express class will hv 2 b a fast learner,cuz they teach at damn fast speed n expect u 2 know it by juz a snap of fingers.
NA class take ur time 2 learn.no rush.easy n relax..
so yea,abt there luh.tats my opionon luh.

its been awhile alrdy.and i'm still waiting 4 him.
i'm starting 2 get impatient duno why.
even though he made it clear.
should i carry on waiting?1year more?
or
should i just give up and go 4 another guy?
haiya.i'm so confused.i'm stucked.i really duno wad 2 do.
i wanted 2 go express so tat we can leave skl 2gether but now tat we r not..
how now?suffer so much for nth?man wad hv i done?
1 stupid stupid stupid mistake cause me so much trouble..hai.

once again,every night its tears

10:09 AM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

SEC 1 orentation CCA booth.
man 2dae was e most tiring day of my live man.
aft skl stayed bac 4 gb meeting.
went 2 dover wid mich tan 2 eat lunch.
came back school..saw the stupid jerk.
everytime i see him,makes my blood boil luh..
2 actually think there really is such sickening guy that exist..
hai..anyway.we had 2 prepare e booth 4 e sec 1s..
so many things 2 do..aft decorating e booth.
u had 2 go up hall n take pictures of e GB gals doing fancy drill..
it turns out 2 b quite dissapointing luh..
only a super short while only.
n its damn boring waiting 4 e different type of cca 2 finish their presentation.
i went 2 play baketball wid ian aft tat..
my skills drop like shit man..damn sad.
i tired climbing e wall..but instead i end up with a injured hand.
me n mich went bac 2 e booth aft slacking awhile..
it so hot n boring..luckily i not in unform man.
stayed till 8pm.my legs felt like they were gona break.
in the end everything went well.
Good job everyone, well done!

so gald i saw him today.as long as we are still friends..i'm ok with it.

once again,every night its tears

2:10 AM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

man 2dae i had chem test..
i went 4 e test quite unprepared.last nite was doin my art.
and chattin on e phone wid 3 person..
not conference luh.but 1 aft another.
anw during chem test i slpt peacefully.haha.
had FC,talks abt world vision n OBS.
e thought of OBS is like freaky.
we are given 3 choices 2 choose 4 OBS.
either local,which is pula udin or overseas which are,brunei and somewhere in malaysia.
duno which 2 go man..hai..
anw its been a really stressful day 4 me.
had 2 rush so many thing at a time..
and tml is physics test!Whack-The-Fish man...
i'm starting 2 feel damn stupid..not being able 2 compelete any of e question 4 physics homework.
Whack-The-Fish luh..i really feel like suciding luh.bloody piece of shit.
why cant they understand that i FISH hell cant study physics?
its like so chim..doubleAmath?
wad velocity shit.i think bio is still much more fun.
i wish i cld juz jump 2 sec 4..den i can study bio..ahaha..so much better.
hai..shall blog another time.cyz ppl!tc!

//i cant wait till tue
and
i miss u alot.

once again,every night its tears

1:28 PM

new year..new wdv..
everything still remains the same..
1st day of 2007 n its considered the most shocking day of my entire life..
my cat,missy was slping on the sofa..den when my maid call her many many times also nv wake up.
her eyes were close,breathing were also faint..
when my maid lift my cat's head slity..it drop like a dead cat.
like my maid screamed n i was shocked my heart dropped..
the feeling was so horrible..
but later when i shook her..she woke up..
like wth..is a damn big shocked..
aft we put eye drop 4 her..cuz i think due 2 cat fight theres a wound on her eye..
i hope my parents bring her 2 vet tml..if not i'm bringing her..
man..its like if she dies..i wana die also luh..
it really hurts 2 she my cat being so sick..
it hurts more when i tink of kitty(dead).
living in this bloody pathetic world..when nth really matter.
i'm damn useless..i cant do anything..only 2 create more trouble..
hai..i really wish i cld die early....
i dun see any meaning 4 me 2 live tis life..when wdv i do..also goes wrong.

sry abt last nights' msg,its ok if u dun wana reply.

once again,every night its tears

12:52 PM