Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Saturday, January 31, 2009
okay im like damn pisst now, so forgive me with the vulgarities
went for national trials
i was classified under the not so good grp =(
wtf man
thanks to my fucking ankle
im not trying to say im like VERY GD but its like aiya you know..
ROARRR!!! =(
im not like really angry abt tat
but its like i felt tat i didnt even play well
and my fucking ankle is restricting me to play at my best
and i really wana get into this team
and win the competition
so tat i can prove to my freaking parents
tat i can play frisbee well n i really love it
and they'll prolly accept the fact tat
I WANT TO PLAY FRISBEE
AND NOT BE A PRETTY FACE GIRL!
its not like im pretty and my skin is super smooth
so whats the point!
%^&#&@$%^$%*
i just dont get it..
adults n their way of thinking
doesnt mean im a girl means i hv to stay at home ALL DAY
it doesnt mean that I CAN'T PLAY SPORTS
it doesnt mean that I CAN'T STAY OVER AT PPLS HSE
it doesnt mean that I CAN'T STAY OUT LATE
it doesnt mean that I CAN'T GET TANN
wtf man i really duno whats wrong with them
ROARRRR!
i hate my life like fucking seriously
its so unfair cause my sisters can go out
and i HAVE TO STAY AT HOME
like wtf can i do at home
i've been staying at home for 3weeks alrdy n it isnt enough?
its my fucking holidays!
i really wana enjoy myself untill poly starts
why cant they fucking understand that! =(
i'm not proud of what i posted =(
once again,every night its tears
7:28 PM
Friday, January 30, 2009
got my posting results..
im going to..NYP..
food science -.-"
LOL i'm still thinking if its THE course for me
but i really dont know..
i can cook n bake, no doubt abt it
but what am i suppose to study aft poly?
i dont wana waste my 3years studying tat
den when i graduate i'll hv study business in university or wdv..
sighhh..
what does singapore education suck so much
and i wana go out..
but nobodys free =(
once again,every night its tears
2:49 PM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
ytd i went to ambers hse
with bolin,dorcas n cheryl cheng
and she gave me my super big belated birthday present
lol! guess what, its a super big monkey!ahaha..
after tat we played abit of mahjong
i went back home,to take oranges n mdm lim's book
cheryl tagged along
went back to school n met up with dorcas n bolin
visited the teacher and all tat..
cabbed home cause i wasnt feeling well
and yea i had food poisioning =(
had diarrhea 3 times n vomited 3 times..sucks man
and later on at night i had high fever.. -.-"
roarrr~ horrible
anw today my god papa came over in the morning..
chatted and all tat.
was suppose to go ps with my eldest sister
but i wasnt feeling too well so yea..i didnt go
my second sis didnt go as well cause she had high fever also..
oh wells, hopefully i'll be alive and kicking by tml
so i can make it for the trials
once again,every night its tears
7:11 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
HEY!
HAPPY CNY TO ALL!
sorry ive not been blogging for awhile =)
been busy and lazy hehe
went to my cousins hse in the morning
den we went for buffet lunch at some hotel..
(pronounced as trade-dous)
sry i dont know the spelling of the hotel name ahah
food was alrite,
as usual i wasnt in the mood to eat =(
i had 1small plate of salad, 1small plate of seafood,1mini bowl of soba
den i went for the dessert..
i didnt take alot either cause they were is small cups
(refering to the jelly n all tat)
went to my grandma's hse
slacked n all that..
did the tradition stuff, give oranges and all tat
and receive angbaos! =)
awesome man =)
but my great uncle
(my mother's uncle..)
couldnt recognize me cause
i was wearing a dress,i had make-up on n i changed my hairstyle..
ROARRR
but his reaction was damn funny =)
oh wells..
once again,every night its tears
12:43 AM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
ok im sick =(
small appetite,super fatigue,feels like a zombie..
all that a sickly person feels..
sighhh...
went to wcp in the morning
slacked and took photos of them playing
using bens not so advanced camera X) haha
oh wells..
didnt stay to watch the national youth trials =(
went to cine for jap buffet lunch with
bryan,robin n LB instead..
i didnt wana go at 1st but aiya think abt it..
just go n stuff myself with food lor..
if not 3 ppl go a bit..boring also ahah
after lunch, LB went off den the 3 of us went to walk ard
and try to give robin inspiration to what to buy for his gf..
cause its her bday on duno when ahah..
oh wells..
i went to buy a fabric marker..
i wana try and draw on a dry fit t-shirt and see if it works
and if it does..its like so AWESOMEE! =)
i'm gona like buy many many plain dry fit shirts for 7bucks each den start drawing
100% original! =D
just pray hard tat it works n the ink will stay there for as long as i live =) hehehe
after which, went for dinner at my grandma's hse
whereby i only ate 1 slice of pizza den i went to sleep for 2hours+
pigg i know =(
AND
life is EXTREMELY boring w/o frisbee
like totally..cause the only stuff tat i do to entertain myself at home is..
1)use the computer
-fb
-check email
-msn
-listen to music
-watch abit of anime
-game(im no longer a hardcore gamer so yea..)
-stare at the computer
2)watch tv
-whichever tv programme tat attracts me
3)lie on the floor n stone
4)help out in the kitchen
5)eat and sleep(and i really mean eat than sleep)
i think thats abt it..damn boring luh
i hv no idea how people can cope with such a lifestyle..
to stay at home and rot
ok i'm still quite fed-up with my ankleS..
roarrr..
good thing is i wouldnt miss out any frisbee for a week cause theres CNY =)
but other den tat..i really hope my ankle heals before the last trial..
i really freaking wana go for it
but i dont think i'll get in either cause i only attend one trial..
hmphhhh..this is uber frustrating
oh wells =(
at least im still in league =)
once again,every night its tears
9:49 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2009
honestly,
i dont know how long i can keep this attitude of mine..
being positive making a joke out of every bad stuff tat happens
i freaking need to get my life back in order..
too much of freedom killed me
and now i need discipline..
its part n parcel of life, i know
thus i must learn..
to cope with every single shit tat happened
and to know my priority..
i know im falling sick
but ill never give in to it
ankle, please heal faster
before the flu catches me. =(
ROARRR!
you have no idea how
depressed i am feeling right now..
once again,every night its tears
2:31 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
removed my bandage in the morning..
den went to see the doc in the afternoon
kns he bandaged my leg again!
can only remove it on friday..roarr
if he have to bandage my leg everytime i see him
i dont wana goo
cause its ugly n i cant go out =(
oh wells..
no frisbee for 2weeks..or more
and i most prolly cant go for national youth trials =(
ROARRR~
so totally hate this..oh wells.
at least i've got something to laugh at..
tat i look like those kungfu fighters X)
this is like totally random =/
ugly bandage.ppl shld invent some sexy or nicer looking bandage X)once again,every night its tears
8:43 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
okay, im not going to coach/help out at acsi anymore
reason..because not many are serious abt frisbee
i mean most of them treat it as a recreational sport
so yea, no point going there..
but yea, i dont mind going there to see my friends
and toss ard but mayb not now
cause yea, ytd we sort of ended up in a arguement
and nana got angry and all
i mean cant blame her..
i know how shes feeling n all..oh wells..
sigh
now is definitely my down period of my life
i had my ups when i joined winter league,dk,made new friends n met him..
now i've got to accept wdv is happening
i mean nobody's life is always so ever smooth sailing rite?
theres always ups n downs..
so yea..now im like..
having friendship problems, family stuff, sprain both ankles, what else?
i really dont know but yea..
kinda had the feeling all these would happen when i was enjoying myself
i just hope it doesnt get worse..
and i cant wait for my ankle to be okay
i'm freaking bored at home..
eat,sleep,eat,sleep...im becoming a pig damn it!ROARRR
whatever happens,
i'll try to smile.. =)
once again,every night its tears
4:14 PM
Monday, January 19, 2009
sprain my left ankle ytd during league..
sian now both my ankles are busted =(
screwwww
anw i had double headers.
won the 1st game with 7-4
and lost the 2nd game with 9-11
close fight.we could hv won them if only we were more focus
roarrr but yea..
gona see the doc for my ankles later
and prolly go to acsi to coach the girls frisbee
yupp u heard it right coach..
haha but its like not really coach luh..
just go there enforce some discipline..teach some simple tactics
and all that =)
its also gd cause tats the only way i can enter the school...
den again i hv to wait for ruth or nana to tell me if their teacher allows me to do so 1st =/
once again,every night its tears
10:36 AM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
i've never ever felt so useless in my entire life before
now my morale is damn low
1st it was my results
den it was frisbee
den everything else..
argh, its like one after another..
i'm damn freaking fed-up
with everything esp with my freaking ankle
i feel like a freaking useless idiot
plus tml theres winter league..
and i cant play it,
i cant play it n hv fun with my team
i hate this =(
and i think even if i were to go for the national team trial
i cant even perform well
ROARRRR =(
and now you know why frisbee is my life..
without it im like a zombie =/
esp when i havent start school yet..
freak luh like seriously =(
i didnt even play much today n i didnt go for beach pickup
once again,every night its tears
6:18 PM
went out with terence
for movie and dinner
am i smart or what =)
eating dinner before eating at prom
haha i know the food will not be good
plus its buffet so yea.. =)
went for prom at 7plus
overall prom was okay..
maybe because i enjoy the dancing part
but yea..
it might be the last time i see some ppl
oh wells.
plus today isnt a photo day for me ahah
look super unglam in many photos..oh wells
DK training tml..
hopefully my ankle can handle it
once again,every night its tears
12:43 AM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
hate my ankle.
heal faster man heal faster!
not sure if i shld join singapore's national youth team..
sigh.
studies,family,friends,BGR and frisbee
if only i can stop studying now =(
once again,every night its tears
2:25 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
got back my results today..
L1R5- 19
L1R4- 14
was super disappointed
esp with my english,chinese n geog
i was expecting to get B3 for all three
and for my math..A2
sigh oh wells..
no JCs for me i guess
have to go poly =(
now im really troubled on which course i shld choose
and which poly i shld go to..sigh.
i hate making such decisions
and i really dont know what i want
esp with my english grade of C5
i have limited choices =(
i cant even get into mass com i think..
fk man =(
once again,every night its tears
12:46 AM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
overslpt =(
and was late for DK training
sian...
sprain my ankle even before scrimmage.kns
cause i was marking hayden and the field is super uneven so yea..
"pop" and there goes my ankle.ahaha
it was darn pain..
maybe because its the 1st time i sprain my ankle.
so yea, in the end i didnt play any game at all =(
even for league cause i cant even walk properly,
i was limping all the way..
freak man i had better get well soon for next week double headers
and yea, i'm so sure my parents will be darn happy
cause i definitely cant go out for a week -.-
ans that means
i'll b stucked at home =( kns
results will be out tml 2pm =/
scary.
worse of all i think we have to wear school uniform..
the problem is, my top is like abit short -.-
so yea i duno what im gona do abt it ahah
wish me luck man =)
once again,every night its tears
10:08 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
went for FS trial even though i overslpt X)
i think the trial was alright..
but if u were to gimme a choice to choose
from DK,FS or shiok
i'd choose DK..
maybe its because of the ppl there
or its because i prefer ben's way of coaching
went to meet
edwin,daryl,lb,robin,eli,bolin
at cathy..kns every cinema was full
(thanks for helping me check out the seatings =) )
slacked ard, walked ard den went to settlers
played taboo,some topper game n sabotuer(sp?)
weee =)
met my cousin, allen there too..haha
toss abit along the corridor den went back home..
mum picked my up from hb
argued with her in the car -.-"
sian, i'm like grounded once my results are out..
like well done man -.-
like wtf luh, you wan me to stay at home n clean up the hse i will luh
but why ban me from going out n playing frisbee
damn rubbish luh..
what do u wan me to do at home
its not like we hv any bonding time at home
other den during dinner
but still, both jies always come home late
so no point also rite =(
why cant you freaking understand frisbee has become my life
and its not just a sports or even a fucking dog game =(
sigh.
once again,every night its tears
11:41 PM
its been awhile since i felt so moody n lifeless..
and i really hate this feeling.
been feeling this way ever since they announce that results will be out on monday..
maybe its because im stress..
stress over results,
which school i'll go
and isit the best for me,
or rather..isit what i really really want.
and i really regret what ive done..
spending more time training frisbee and hanging out with my new friends
rather den my old friends..
not tat my new friends are bad its tat just..
i sort of seem like i abandon my friends
but i know very well i didnt
its just tat..i duno how to explain =(
im sorry. =( i truly am and its not like i did it on purpose
and and i definitely did backslide from God
and im not proud of it..
i dont know whats going on with me..
i've got almost everything i wanted after Os..
play in winter league,
expose myself to more frisbee stuff,
improve my frisbee skills,
make more friends,
join a club,
that someone special..
but why do i feel so messed up?
or isit just a temporary feeling
tat will soon fade away when my results are out?
anw..
i really wana go vet course in TP
but its freaking far
and i hv to struggle to stay alive if i take tat course
because i hv to study
Amath,bio,physic,chem n many more subjects
plus they dont hv a frisbee team in TP
sigh..
once again,every night its tears
12:18 AM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
HEY ALL O LEVEL STUDENTS!
results is out on 12jan, 2pm!
heres the link
gosh, this is so scary..
and i dont wan the fun to end yet!ROARRR
anw went out with terence in the morning.
aft which i went for NYP training,
got a "lectured" by ben on being late..damnn
we played game today..
1st few games i wasnt really fired up.
only later den i start playing really hard..
even though i did injure myself again,
its so worth it =)
i guess.. X) ahha
went for dinner with the NYP ppl and
monster gave me a lift home.
thanks! =)
ohoh heres the cool part.
monster is markong's cousin!
awesome or what!haha
uhhumm..no wonder monster is like so childish X) ahha
once again,every night its tears
12:40 AM
Monday, January 05, 2009
once again,every night its tears
12:57 PM
