❤ Its more than just words.

Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Sunday, June 29, 2008

frisbee-ed,

got freaking scolded by my mum.
cause she hates the idea of my spending so much time on funfair
and keeps nagging tat orniguri wont sell.
look come on,like i fucking hell dont know.
is that fucking ppl dont wana listen to me.
wtf can i do?
so stop nagging alrdy.
they want me to do it, so be it.
if it cant sell den too bad.i alrdy told them
its ppl dont wana listen..
i didnt ask for your help this time so dont say as though it'll gona take up ur time.
this time i'll do it myself n share this burden with my classmate
cause EVERYONE is suppose to play a part
be it at the game stall or food stall.
sickening man.

sorry g-man for not going for your party.

plans for tml:
sch,
art,
fucking funfair preparation

once again,every night its tears

10:01 PM

Saturday, June 28, 2008

stayed over amber's hse ytd =)
YAY finally my parents let me stay over someone's hse for the 1st time! =))
amber, feel honoured X)
shall not blog abt what i did ytd,
cause i'm freaking tired now.

last night i only slpt for 3hours =(
cause we slpt at 1am close to 2am
den amber's alarm woke me up at 4am
so yea..
did art in the morning.
let dorcas,chermaine n bolin try the Oniguri and soba
(Ex14, thats why we wake up early.to cook jap food)
they said it's damn nice =) naturally +D hehe
got quite agitated(sp?) while doing art
cause i keep cutting my art piece wrongly =(
and i started saying all the vulgarities n stuff
sigh, i really should stop.this is so unlike me man =(
mayb cause i'm too stress or something..sigh.

aft art, i came home..
my maid cooked jap rice too -.-"
i thought i had enoough jap food alrdy man..
so yes, last nite's dinner,morning and lunch is all jap food -.-
sickening..sigh
took a nap, allen came.
had 2hours of math tuition suppose to be physics but yea
he dropped me off at amber's hse again to collect the origuni moulds
cause i was planning to make it with some fish meat or something
den we can raise up the price or something.
met chris at clementi mrt.nehneh make me wait sooo long =(
went to seng song to check for the jap vinegar(oh yes,my hse ran out of it)
they didnt have it(my maid said they would..)
so we went to ISETAN supermarket instead.
checked the price of jap rice and all the jap stuff..
its like $11+ for 5kg of Jap rice(made in china -.-)
den i cant rmb all the stuff..only bought the 5kg rice n 1bottle of vinegar
by den it was 9.30pm shops were closing n stuff..
plus i havent ate my dinner yet =(
chris was super nice, he bought cheesecake for me n sushi =)
thanks alot =) oh yea,
amber, this cheesecake is DAMN nice XD
walked to Taka, followed him buy new hse phone and look at bags..
and he obviously send me home.
its freaking late n i cant carry the 5kg rice anymore
cause i was tired n i was hugging it most of the time
chris almost killed me by having me to consume a drink with milk..
even though i know it wasnt on purpose.hehe =)
i wanted to come home n cook somemore stuff but think again..
mayb i should wait for my maid to guide me in some calculation stuff
before i start doing anything.

plans for tml:
sleep till late morning,
study,
frisbee?,
G-man's bday party,
be home before 9.30pm.
(cause my parents are gona come back from genting)

once again,every night its tears

11:36 PM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

its only the second day since school reopen
and i'm dying alrdy.
or rather, 99%dead, 1%zombified..
i wonder how long i can endure this torture till freedom comes
and yes its a freaking torture to wake up as early as 6am and come home as late as 7pm..
and having to sleep late thanks to homework and studies.
i cant wait till we are given the study break thingy
by then i wont have wake up so early n all those..

had chapel today..
i kinda screw up the back up..
and i'm super sry Ms Yeo..
today is just one of those screw up days
when my voice just wont obey my commands =(
had pe n art too..
freaking tired.even though pe was just height and weight =/
went to 79 to study with ivan,caleb,john n sam..
sian, didnt do much, in the end started chit chatting n singing songs..

my mum sent my cat to the vet
and they said she was sick.
bloody hell i freaking said that 2weeks ago and noone believed me
make my cat suffer for nothing luh -.-"
but its a good thing she did anyway
if not it'll end up like how my rabbit died on national day
cause she was sick, and noone believed me again.
oh wells..

once again,every night its tears

11:22 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2008

sigh..
its close to 1more month to prelims.
and i havent even finish revising yet =(
screw it man.
suppose to wake up at 7am to start study but yea..
apprently it rained(ok still raining) so my laziness took over me
slpt all the way till10am..sigh.

amy said he'll treat me to the movies if i do very well for my prelims
in other words BUCK UP!
sigh.i really do envy those peopl who dont need to study and still score A1s
like wth, i wana have their brains too!
but sadly God didnt bless me with such brains =(
damn it luh God why like that =(((
its like people dont study and they score high marks..
and when they study they get like A1s n all those
whereas people like me have to study,study,study just to get average marks
where is the justics(sp?) man.
NO FAIR! =(

ROARR!

once again,every night its tears

10:28 AM

Monday, June 16, 2008

by Amber's demand.
i'll post this once again untill months later =)

so recently, what have i been doing?
studying, like duhh..
almost completed studying physics =) YAY to that
but i still got like other subjects.
how irritating..
whats more there is s2e for me to attend..
like 2whole week, there goes my holiday man..

also, irritatingly that someone is in the same class as me..
i'm not blaming anyone, but only myself for being so weak
i dont want to go back to what happen 2years back,
i dont even wana think about it cause
its just my wishful thinking
and its this wishful thought of mine i had 2years back
that almost killed me on the inside
so for now i'm basically happy with everything that i have..
only thing is Os is screwing everything up =(

ANYWAYS! apart from all that, basically life is alright
only thing there have been alot of emotional breakdowns this month
just had one ytd
and i'm really glad to have my friends around =)
like amber,dorcas,winnie,chermaine,sam,ivan,jireh,clinton and yea luh everyone esle
just too lazy to name out all +)

i'm just glad that i have friends that i can turn to when i'm feeling troubled..
but too bad i'm not the type where someone can turn to when they are troubled =(
sorry, i'm just not good at all these..
i cant even handle my problems so i dont wana give wrong guides and see my friends end up like me..

acttually, Os is good if someone wants to lose weight =)
cause for me, my appetite is getting smaller n smaller
i only ate 3 small slices of pizza ytd for lunch n had no dinner..
and for today, only vegeterian noodles for lunch
so if i continue doing this for 3months,
i might acttually lose weight! =D

oh yes,
and the world is just getting more and more werid
like most of the better looking guys are going to ugly girls
den there will be none left for me =(
JOKING JOKING X)
( amber: i swear this is just random not relating to anything =) )

once again,every night its tears

6:21 PM

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Day 2
had breakfast in the morning
than head down to the school.
its quite heartwarming to see the kids
and how they greet us as we walk down the path into the school..
we had our own thai lessons before starting on our work
we learn how to introduce ourselves and stuffs..so yupp

we(nat,peiwen,jon fong,jacob&i) went to teach the oldest grp of kids
they are all 12years old and yea.
it was kinda awkward at 1st cause we couldnt really communicate with them
but luckily, we got master Lek(the teacher incharge over there) to help us with
the introduction and stuff =)
so yupp, everything went smoothly.
we taught them english,chinese and origami
i feel kinda bad cause we taught them how to fold paper hearts halfway
and we couldnt finish it cause we didnt know how to carry on and its thier recess..
i made new friends with this grp of 12boys.
jacob and i call them our brothers =)

went back to the resort for lunch and took a short nap
before going back to the school and start work again.
when we went back, i saw my brothers doing our work(gardening)
i feel kinda bad cause we are suppose to be the one helping them and not the other way..
so yea, went over to help them.
i swear its a freaking tough job..kinda look up to the kids
cause them had to like maintain the school themselves and all those..
and i kinda figure out tat the oldest boys in school meaning the 12year olds
have to like do "household chores" in school..
like sweep the floor,paint buildings and all those..
and the oldest girls will have to look after the kindergarden kids.
so yupp..i guess thats thier system in skl..
you can always see the last class empty cause everyone will be out doing stuff..

at night, after dinner...
we were made to learn the friendship dance thing
cause on friday is the last day we will be with them..
(last day because, noone goes to school on WEEKENDS!)
even though we are coming back on the sat..
so yupp its kinda fun and i really cant wait to dance with them =)
song: As we walk to the left,
As we walk to the right,
As we walk,as we walk,as we walk all night
With a heel and a toe and a half a round a turn
With a heel and a toe and a new friend found =)

Day 3
went to school, more thai lessons =)
and we got to learnt thai dance =))
Master Lek and Kun Albert were teaching us the dance
so yupp, went to teach another class =)
i think this time the kids are like 9 or 10years old
so yea, communication was even more difficult
we let them do some colouring,origami den brought them outside to play
cause we dont know what to teach them anymore
played soccer with my brothers and
lunched at resort again,napped den went back to school
this time the teaching grp went to paint the play ground
my brothers came to help..so sweet =)
and mai(naughtest boy) gave me something like ice-pop to eat
so sweeet =))

Day 4
today is e offical closing ceremony day
we had a soccer and volleyball match, fmss against the kids
i was in the soccer! =)
it was fun playing soccer with them
and my brothers are super good in soccer
all the lack is just a bigger body..
i swear their skills are better den anyone in fairfield maybe because they play everyday

after the match, we gave out presents..
the kids all just came n snatch my sweets =/
its abit scary, but cant blame them..
i'm glad tat i didnt cry =)

i'm just sad we didnt get to do the friendship dance =(
cause we were short of time

Day 5
went to visit the deathrailway thing..
its kinda sad to see how the ppl suffer in WW2
den went to visit the farm
apparently its one of my brother's house..
in other words he is the cheif of the village son and his name is an
aft that went for lunch back at resort den napped again
and went back to school
went to do some painting and stuff..
gave an my hp number but i dont think he'll ever msg me..
when we are going back to the bus..
te(my favourite kid) gave me a soft toy keychain and a paper heart..
and i started crying.and i know i kinda shock the kids and ppl ard me
cause somehow i gave them the impression tat i'm those tat will
NEVER CRY..but yea.everyone got thier soft side =)
i wouldnt have cried if noone gave me anything
but yea this are the reasons why i cried even though i told myself repeatly i wont
1) the kids are not rich but Te still got for me a soft toy
2) rmb the 2nd day when i said that we didnt managed to finish teaching them how to fold the heart?well, they took the initiative to go figure out how to do it.
those are the reason why i cried.
you might think chey like that nia..
eh but its e thoughts tat count.

so yea.i really didnt want to leave the kids..
i started to go round hugging the kids and
cheryl had to push me bus the bus =(
i so wanted to come down the bus again but decided not to
in case ppl will start to think i'm being dramatic.. -.-"

at night in the room, amber n i kept crying
but in the end we laughed cause we did something damn dumb
so yea..it's the last time i'll be seeing my kids

oh and i officially announce Te is my new boyfriend!
even though its a one-sided thing XP haha

Day 6
left kanchanaburi for bangkok
but in between we stopped at the floating market to shop
went to walk ard wid my shopping buddy, amber
and freaking hell we both got scam -.-"
800bahts for 2dresses..freak man.
oh wells lesson learnt.

arrived at Max hotel
(dont you find the name rather uhmmm..)
amber was my roommate again =)
we had our room connected to the guys' (gab,bolin n jonyeo)
which is kinda werid..but its fine =) more ppl means more fun!
can play tai di and all those ahah..
left our luggage den went to MBK
to have dinner and do some shopping
Thailand is the best shopping place ever! =)

came back to hotel..
some ppl got food poisioning and stuff
quite scary..but luckily those sick ppl got thier roommates to look aft them
Heres a funny thing,
gab tired to order room service(supposely 24hr),
but the lady just picked up and like said no room service..
so gab n i went down to the lobby to like check out stuff..
apparently thier 24hr room service isnt really 24hr haha..
and theres like quite a number of ppl at the lobby buying cake-.-
cause theres no other food..they provide us wid hot water so we could eat maggienoodle
at least its onething good abt it..

went back up and watched james bond..
kinda lame and aft tat watched black swarp?or wdv it is
Bolin offered massage service to the guys..
lol damn funny.
dorcas came over to our room also..and she slept wid amber
they slpt super early like 1am
i fell aslp on gab's bed ard 3am+ while watchin tv
and i feel kinda bad taking his bed ahha.oh wells.

Day 7
today's the last day,
i'll just miss thailand..

once again,every night its tears

12:18 PM

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

i'm back from singapore! =)
came back on monday hehe.
so i shall blog about the SL trip! =)

Day 1
we left singapore at 12pm
and reached bangkok at 3.15pm+
then we took a bus to kanchanaburi resort
and we reached the resort quite late at 8pm+
the resort is pretty big n nice but theres alot of bugs flying around..
quite scary n irritating..
most of the girls were screaming.damn funny
i'm sleeping under e same roof as cheryl,dorcas n amber
but in same room as amber =)
we were told to leave our stuff in the room
and come to the "canteen area" for dinner..
dinner was damn nice. =)
had briefing on what we are gona do tml n stuff
then went back to our dorms
e bed is super hard =(

shall post again tml =x

once again,every night its tears

8:13 PM