Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Sunday, August 31, 2008
YAY one week of holiday =)
but i think i'm allowed to slack much during this one week break.
got to hand up my dumbdumb board by next monday i think.
its 1full artday for me on monday and tue..
and for the rest of the week, do prep work.
i'm sooo close to finishing my art.
its just that..i'm missing some stuff.
and the biggest problem is, i dont know what the hell is missing.
sigh, i hate it when i get stuck it such situations.
because circumstances like this force me to go nuts.
and majority of my prepwork that i've done in the begining of the year is useless..
i repeat USELESS..
my wasted effort and time -.-"
sigh.got to redo majority of my sketchs.
i swear, next time i've got kids..
i'll never allow them to take art as a subject,
unless they are really talented, like my sis..
talking abt my sister..
she is the reason why i'm so determined to get my A1 for art.
my parents always praise her for her art and ALWAYS
compare my artwork with hers.
and keep saying i've got no talent and all those shit.
its damn irritating.so, i wana get a A1 to prove that i'm as capable as she is.
its just that i need more time to compenstiate the talent that i dont have.
tsk, irritating.
oh wells, time for frisbee =)
been 2weeks since i played frisbee..
and hopefully it doesnt rain later on..
once again,every night its tears
2:08 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
okay, byebye A2 for science =(
chemistry was tough shit man.
sigh.oh wells...i guess whats over is over.
time to excel in lit paper 2,chinese paper 2 and ARTTT =)
i swear its not easy having to always be positive..
but to make myself appreciate life more,
and hopefully the people around me..
cause the world isnt all that bad,
its just that satan is being a bastard..
anws i'll force myself to look things at a positive perspective.
especially when my parents try their best to make my life better..
they acttually wanted to help me with my art,
but too bad they're definately not going to touch my art piece.
its my work n my results so i'll do it myself.
oh wells, i wonder what will my reaction be when i recieve my results
in 2weeks time?..
theres no school tml, so YAY to that =)
more time to study lit n do art..
mr ho said many ppl did badly for the math paper1 n 2..
=( its a easy paper, i really really really do hope i can get my A1
honestly speaking..
i'm really really desperate for my A1s..
i mean its been close to 2years since i see As in my report book n results..
im dying to relive the past whereby im able to experience the sense of
satisfaction n accomplishment =/
sigh.
i'm really really confused on whats going on.
once again,every night its tears
1:56 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
had english paper 2 in the morning n math paper 2 later on..
math was kinda difficult but do-able..
felt like killing myself when i realised i made alot of careless mistakes
after i walk out of the examination hall..sigh.
oh well, no more A1 but at least a A2 =)
still a distinction =))
tml is chem n lit.
2 of my supposely strongest subject.
but now i think it have become my weakest..
because i havent touched my chem book at all..
and its the same for my lit -.-"
sigh..oh wells.
it goes to show i musnt be bias towards my subjects..
cant wait till prelim results are out.
i want my pet fish, fish n chips meal n free movie =)
i'm definately gona get my rewards I DONT CAREEE =)
gona spend my 1week after prelims doing art n slacking for awhile
before mugging again.
oh yes..i'm retaking chinese again -.-"
so much for not retaking chinese..
sigh.i really do hope i'll get a B4 =(
once again,every night its tears
7:12 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
you may think that i've gona bonkers..
but i'm starting to think that exams are damn fun =)
firstly,
at least i've a goal in mind
n it keeps me busy as i'll have to work towards my goal.
second,
it doesnt make me feel useless and it adds a sense of purpose into my life..
not tat ive any sense of purpose before -.-"
third,
makes me feel happier because i'm able to learn new stuff =)
lastly,
it tests me on my limits.
its been damn long since i've been challenged to how far my ability can bring me to.
also i wana see exactly how strong is my sense of discipline,determination n perserverence
so yup..
exams all the way! =)
still got math paper 1 n chinese on monday.
i'm sooo gona achieve my distinction for math,phy/chem,lit n art.
i'm confident i'll do well =)
oh yes i've decided..to give up on chinese.
because as long as i pass chinese, i can make to JC =)
and C6 is a pass so its ok.
shall not stress over chinese or worry about it..
cause i'm definately not counting it in my L1R5
chinese sucks XP
i wont let those who have high hopes in me be disappointed.
once again i'll make them feel proud of me like when i was promoted to express.
=D
ohoh,
thank God my english oral was super easy!
passage n picture is on disabled people,that section is kinda screwed up.
but still!conversation topic was in natural environment...
its a super super big advantage for me.
firstly, i'm a geog student.
secondly, i'm always watching animal planet n those tv programme on the natural environment.
lastly, i'm a animal-lover!
so ask me anything abt animals n the current affiars on the world n environment!
well, at least theres a glowing light of hope for my results now =))
once again,every night its tears
9:42 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i know i should be studying but i shall do
amber's quiz -.-"
1)If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
angry n disappointed duh.but i wont do anything, because if he doesnt love me anymore.theres nothing i can do rite?
2)If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
get into a school of my choice, a job of my choice, marry my dream guy, save the animals,improve my frisbee skills X)
3)What will your dream wedding be like?
good question..
prolly held at a beach?no formal wears just casual =) and just party i guess
4)Are you confused to what lies ahead of you?
duh.hellooo prelims and Os.
what happens if i dont get the results i need..isnt that confused?
plus now i'm trying to spot out the questions coming out for SS paper on fridayy
5)Whats your ideal lover?
i'm so not gona repeat it again. -.-"
but i shall just list the basic..
*christian
*gentleman
*good-looking(IMO)
*animal-lover
6)Which is more blessed?
what the hell is this question about?
7)How long do u intend to wait for the person you love?
i've wait for 2years before..so yea..
as long as my feelings for that person is still there
8)If the person you like secertly is already attached, what would you do?
i'll kill myself or just leave the matter aside
(not serious about the suciding part, its totally retarded)
9)Is there anything that make you unhappy these days?
freak hell yes.
freaking prelims n Os..plus stupid chinese O result
10)Is being tagged fun?
definately not
11)How do you see yourself in 10years time?
how would i know..God will plan for me
12)Who is currently the most impt ppl to you?
family,friends and God bros =)
13)What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
RETARDED, always there for me =) but is usually in emo mood....
14)Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
what kind of question if this man.
you wont be happy in both situations man.retarded
FYI i dont believe that if you're married to the man of ur life n he cant support u means u'll get happiness.TOTAL BULLSHIT.cause as economy rises, money problem will tear everything apart
15)Whats the first thing every morning?
what the hell?i dont understand this question..but from amber's ans..
i suppose its the 1st thought that strikes me every morning..
and that would be " oh man isit 5.55am already? "
16)Would you give all in a relationship?
yes and no i guess.
17)If you were to fall in love with 2people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i thought simultaneously is only used in math equations -.-"
the one that fits most of the points on my criteria list duh...
if he fits most of it, i'd most likely love him more den the other guy..common sense
18)What type of friends do you like?
friends that understand me, can brighten up my day n not make it worse, be there for me =)
give useful advices.
19)What type of friends you dislike?
freaking hyprocrites,liars,bitches,jerks,irresponsible idiots
i shall not pass this thingy on to anyone else,
cause IMO its damn dumb -.-"
i prefered those that requires me to name people.
plus the creater of this quiz needs to improve his/her english..
cause its definately much more worse den mine X)
once again,every night its tears
8:15 PM
sigh..
chinese Olevel results was announced ytd(i think)
n i got a C6..
i didnt expect myself to do so badly.
was hoping at least a B3 but than again
thinking of all the mistakes i made..i think C6 is considered not bad.
i mean, i wrote out of point for my compo,
i screwed up my oral,
listening is screwed too,
i didnt understand a shit about the chinese paper 2(passage)..
so yea.if only my standard of chinese didnt drop =(
sigh..to retake chinese or not to retake chinese?
zhang lao shi said that..
even if i retake, it'll be very difficult for me to get a B3/4
because of my oral, which i had a pass.
i seriously feel like stabbing myself a million time.
i swear i've never felt to disappointed in myself..
i mean for someone like me, to a C6 for chinese.
its like wth man.i really really REALLY hate it.
sigh.
God whats the meaning of this shit man.
i freaking studied for chinese for the 1st time n i get a C6.
i might as well not study n get a B3 grade like how i used to =(
i just hope i dont get such results for my other subjects for prelims n Os
if not i'll really really kill myself.
my parents keep saying nvm if u did not do well, at least u did ur best.
like wth even if i do my best not say i can get a cert for my effort that i put in.
i mean yea i appreciate my parents not giving me pressure and stuff but..
look at the harsh reality.
everywhere u go, u need a bloody cert..
and if i cant get into a school i want...i dont know what i'll do =/
cause i dont wan my parents to spend like thousands of dollars on me
(which they already did thanks to my bloody weak health n sensitive skin)
like how they did for my elder sisters.
i know that my parents,okay my dad..is always working till damn late
and thats why if i can go into JC i would, to help my parents save cost.
sigh..i'm really worried i would get a C6 for english.
if i do, i can just say good bye to JC and poly. =(
come on i need a freaking MIRICLE damn it =/
God, i think its time to lend me your helping hand!?!?!?!?
cause i'm really really frustrated about this shit.
plus prelims in like 2days!?
sigh.
roarrr!
the world is awesome,
in some awkward ways =/
anw congrates to those who did well =)))
once again,every night its tears
7:39 PM
Friday, August 08, 2008
today SUCKS like SHIT
i swear this is the most useless/meaningless event i've ever attended
COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME
i'd rather they let us study, den i can do my art! so irritating.
luckily i brought my frisbee disc with me =)
the one amber gave it to me =)))
but didnt really play much cause every time when we want to entertain ourselves
we get scolded -.-"
like wth, its FREAKING BORING. i'm just trying to kill time with fun
not like a flying frisbee will set off a bomb or something.
like wth, its FREAKING BORING. i'm just trying to kill time with fun
not like a flying frisbee will set off a bomb or something.
anws, went to vivo with amber aft the dumb n pathetic event
ate pastamania, brought back alot of memories of him =( sigh.
i hate it when i get those sickening feeling.
so yup aft tat went to the rooftop studied,
played abit of frisbee..
and again we were told not to play.
like come on!there are ppl skateboarding n playing soccer excuse me
plus theres noone ard(we went to open space).
the only ppl that are gona get injured is either amber or myself.
stupid ass head.
man i really hate the event
making me stand under the sun for so long gave me a super bad headache
like the one i got when i was in kanchanaburi.
i miss the kids there =((
oh wells..
tiobu! X)
michelle tann <3
joel LILI!
rest of the photos with amber n trevor =)
once again,every night its tears
9:03 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008
THE WORLD IS AWESOME =)
acttually, i typed out this whole long essay
on how my life sucked n that God is being such an ass
but den again..i thought about it..
its not God's fault that i regret so many things
and that i made a bad decision..
cause like i said, I was the one making the decision.
i should prolly look at the situations with different perspective..
and i might acttually end up learning rather den complaining =)
i must get back my real attitude man,
cannot afford to let it be crushed because of peer pressure.
13days to prelims.
15points BABY! =D
once again,every night its tears
10:18 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
when in doubt, just SMILE =)
and everything would be fine =)
smile.smile.smile.smile =)
once again,every night its tears
11:40 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Morning: sleep...
Afternoon: TUITION/MUG
Evening: MUGGGGG
so much for having a weekend break uh.
prelims in 2weeks.
got to start revising my other subjects
cause i've only been mugging for chem/phy n math
15points you are mine baby!
lets see..
Eng -A2 (doubtful,but i'll still try)
Math -A2 (confident, if i dont panic)
Chem -A2 same as above
Physics -A2 same as above
Chinese -B3 (hope?)
ART -A1 (tough..)
SS -B3 average i guess?
Geog -A1 (not easy, but why not?)
Literature -A1 ( sure, if i dont panic )
once again,every night its tears
10:26 PM
