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Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


seriously
i duno what to do with my life
im not even fucking interested in studying anymore
im scare to play frisbee
every time before i leave the hse,
i would think thrice.
isit really worth it for me to make my way down to play frisbee?
how late would i come back home if i went out?
will my parents nag at me again?
will i play well today?
will i learn and apply new tactics that the experienced ppl are gona teach?
am i gona get injured again?
will it be a serious one till i get banned from frisbee forever?

everytime i get injured,
i'll cry
not because it hurts but because of the fact tat i got injured
injury = fucked up by parents + lesser chance of improving + no frisbee for a while

im still thinking if i should join NYP ultimate
sigh, why cant life be easier?
i mean why the fuck does it hv to be so irritating
why isit so hard for me to enjoy myself n at the same time please my parents


if only i fucking hell did get into the national youth team
i might have a different story..
my parents may acknowledge my passion for frisbee
and let me play with more freedom
now i'll hv to deal with this bullshit everyday
always complaining and nagging at me


besides this im also troubled with other stuffs
sigh, like i said i know i have to get a hold of myself n get on with life
but i just cant
i automatically go into the emo mood
fuck luh, as much as i wana be strong again...
i cant.
im not sayin that ive given up..
its just tat i cant keep up my strong front anymore
im tired of facing all the bullshits...
even though i hate being weak...
esp with a weak mentality
its something i cannot change for now
even if i did give my best shot in try to change it

once again,every night its tears

1:57 AM