Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Saturday, February 28, 2009
stayed over night in school ytd for GB camp
with ivyna,weiting,amy and steffi..
they had night game as usual,
all the murder game and stuff..
den when the girls went to sleep
we were camwhoring X)
like doing retarded stuff at the parade square..
we had to sleep in the GB room cause they didnt book a classroom for us
and yea..
i couldnt sleep
cause the room was kinda dusty n the floor had ants
so yea.. n the table was kinda small =(
walked ard, tried to sleep in the canteen but got bitten by mossy
irritating -.-
so i gave up n tried to make myself comfortable on the table
slpt at 5am+ den woke up at 6.30am
was super shagged
went for breakfast with weiting n amy
since steffi n ivyna didnt wana go
watched the girls play games n all tat
den i went off at 10am with chris chng
long time no see friend! =)
he was going sentosa, so we board the same bus
cause i was going home
i was super tempted to go sentosa
because there was a frisbee event there
and i cld hv catch up with chris on his happenings
but yea i didnt..the 1hour of sleep will not be able to last me for the whole day
went back home to sleep from 11am-4pm
i feel like a pigggg =(
den head off for work
BORINGG~
i kinda forgot the table numbers n all the stuff
so i was practically useless -.-
i offered my service in the kitchen,
because that way, i dont have to deal with table numbers n customers! =)
so yea, was cleaning/drying the utensils most of the time
damnn boring
oh wells,
friday will be my last day of work =)
well hopefully..cause i told lady boss
i dont wana work anymore
but she asked if i can work on friday evening one last time
before i quit
soo..i said okay
otherwise i'll feel darn bad =(
the reason why i wana quiet is because
they can only schedule me on weekends and evening slots
which is super irritating because
usually i hv frisbee in the evening
and weekends are meant for me to relax n do other stuff besides
statying at home den going for frisbee
its like a time for me to hit the beach n envy girls wid hot body =/
chris said something abt me being different from last time
when i was super noisy n energetic
but now im like v quiet n all that..
oh wells..
once again,every night its tears
11:40 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
got the NYP mail..
like all the enrollment forms and stuff..
so many stuff..roarrss hate such stuff
i shall wait for my parents to come back
den will ask them to fill in the the forms
sigh, i cant believe im going to poly alrdy
im missing my sec school friends damn badly
ytd i saw russell,riaz,eric n faihan at clementi
chatted with them for awhile n stuff
roarr, miss those times =(
somehow i wish i was still in sec 2
i love my school, the teachers n friends
but i hate some of the school rules
and i hate the current principle
i miss ms lim! =(
sometimes im grateful for fairfield for building me up
and making me a stronger girl
esp for my cca as i did grow alot
but sometimes i really dont know if im grateful to the school
for molding me into who i am now
i really miss those times..
in sec 2, where i had fun and didnt hv any responsibilities or stress
but when i reach sec3..
when i was given the responsibilities and all that
i know it changed me
it made me stronger, mentally n all those
but ever since i was given the leadership role..
i havnt really smiled n laughed from within
isit because i was too serious, tat now it becomes part of me?
was it because i always had something to do that i couldnt enjoy myself with my friends?
sigh, i dont know..
what happen to the happy-go-lucky me?
once again,every night its tears
12:39 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
wasnt really in the mood to do anything
i really wanted to just stay at home and daydream
(for once you get to hear me say i wana stay at home.lol)
but i alrdy promised to meet CS at 3pm at yck mrt
i'm gona treat him bubble tea n he'll treat me prata
BUT he woke up at 2.30pm and was late luh..duhh
super sians..but he bought mcflurry n applepie for me =)
somehow i wasnt my usual self today
didnt feel like talking to anyone or wdv
sigh, duno whats wrong..
today's training was a little harsh..but okay
did go 2 drill and mushroom drill..
den hucking drill
and scrimmage..girls against guys
( which i didnt play cause my leg was injured =( )
obviously the guys won..so yea
after lights out..
ben talked n talked
den and as usual..dinner..
im thinking abt my batch..
what will my batch be like
those that join frisbee
i really do hope tat my batch will be a batch of higher standards
and hopefully no tofus ard
and hopefully they are nice,friendly people =)
once again,every night its tears
1:58 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
somehow i knew it'll happen..
but it doesnt matter since its over
well at least it wasnt because a third party or wdv
but honestly speaking it does hurt..
haha, who am i kidding who breakups and never feel the pain
than again, its part n parcel of life
and life still goes on..
i guess i've made up my mind like before..
no more r/s for me..till maybe i graduate from poly
or at least prove that i can cope with my studies and frisbee trainings 1st
=)
once again,every night its tears
11:33 AM
Monday, February 23, 2009
didnt do much today
slacked and watched earthsea..
its a nice show =)
watched a bit of ultimate videos on youtube..
kinda motivate me a little to play better
esp when im going for msia opens
i know i have to step up
cause im the noobest in the DK team
and i dont wana be a burden to them
oh wells..
i need to break this stupid wall
the wall that stops me from improving..
it seems like its so easy to play ultimate
but when im in the game,
i feel like im trapped
everything i do is by instinct
obviously i do think a bit but i know its not enough
i cant think 2steps ahead because i cant see the big picture
roarsss
got work on saturday evening
i wanted to like stop work
since poly is gona start soon
and go for beach pickups
but i guess i'll just work awhile more..
just a little while more
it just doesnt feel right anymore..
once again,every night its tears
10:21 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
went for NYP training
so little ppl luh =(
played soccer for awhile
i swear, i cant kick the ball anymore =(
went to the pitch later on
did Go 2 drill and hucking drill
after that played baseball/frisbee game
super tiring..
cant wait for sunday to come
at least i'll be doing some stuff
helping out at the charity hat =)
get well soon! =)
once again,every night its tears
11:43 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
cant rmb what i did in the morning
all i rmb was slacking till its 4.40pm+
den i went to vivo to meet markong
ate bens n jerrys ice-cream,chat,slacked
and waiting for the movie to start..
its good to catch up with old friends =)
hurry back =(
cant wait for tml evening
for you to be back =)
once again,every night its tears
12:26 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
went for service.
met ivan n sam and we left after worship
had lunch at sk with them and luke.
i know my biggest mistake last year
was to neglect friends for frisbee
and thus im trying to patch back and balance it =)
slacked and watch half a game before starting
drills and preparation for the game which is at 4
i seriously didnt know whats wrong with me
i drank red bull but i was still so lethargic
i really hate that feeling
i couldnt run and concentrate..
maybe it was the weather
but i dont wana push the blame
my team lost 6-9
we only have 8girls in our team..
same for the opponent
after the game i was in quite a bad mood
maybe its the weather and i felt tat we shld hv won them
(i know i shldnt be too competitive but im not the type that wana lose)
but we did improve towards the end of the game
we did step up on our defense
went to help out at the booth
with the stats sheets n all..
super frustrating
i dobnt know i mean
count n count i only collected 7sheets
and im v sure 1 of the team capt did give me his teams' stats
but it wasnt there!!! so yea..
in the end i was plus plus moody =(
went for dinner den took the purple line with eliseus
seriously, i wana thank eliseus
for bringing me back on my feet =)
for giving me the encouragement when i needed it the most
im so glad i have a friend n senior to be like him
someone who i feel i can depend on when i need someone to perk me up
so far he is the only person that i can tell him stuff
and he can understand my situation=)
thanks eliseus! =)
sigh,
hurry back and dont climb mountians alrdy! =/
once again,every night its tears
10:39 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
im damn bored now..
waiting for time to pass untill its time for me to go for the tryout
im quite excited cause it'll be my 1st time working
but i know once i start, i'll nv wana work again -.-"
LOL oh wells, i need the cash and to kill my free time
im still thinking if i shld work on sat
or go to sentosa for pickup instead.. =/
plus i need to tell the boss ASAP by tonight..when is see him later on
howwww... =(
im actually quite worried tat i might screw up
cause my left arm hurts
and im not sure if it can handle the weight
esp with ytd's retarded frisbee training..
its retarded because theres so little ppl den we played a frisbee game with golf rules
and a bit of soccer(using a ball)
den scrimmage
this scrimmage is totally retarded..cause you can only score by layouting -.-"
it was super tiring and it killed me(my left arm)
but its fun =) seeing ppl trying to layout even though its not ness
oh yes, even if you layout n caught the disc..
you must layout in style if not its not counted =/
thats what happened to me once
and the other time whereby i caught the disc n it hit my face -.-"
thus dropping it! haha hilarious..
oh yes..because of some sliding i did
i've got a long scratch on my upper tigh
freaking pain =(
looks like i need to buy more long shorts =/
man, there must be more to life
other den just frisbee n facing this computer -.-" n maybe work
this is totally not happening man..
once again,every night its tears
2:45 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
oh yes,
after appealing..
im still posted to NYP
but now its molecular biotech
i told my mum abt it
and as usual..
nags and nags to why i change..
when food science is highly in demand n all that..
but seriously i really dont give a shit abt it
as long as i dont end up in a IT or engineering course
and as long as i aim and get a scholarship..
life wld be so much easier..
otherwise, i hv to think thru which uni to go to and what to study..
how irritating -.-"
so yea..new goals for me as i go on my next phrase of life..
1) make new friends?
2) excel in frisbee
3) have a balance between frisbee and studies
4) get a freaking scholarship
yuppp..
once again,every night its tears
10:43 PM
woke up early,
went to the library to accompany him..
was suppose to do some research there
while he studies
but i end up using my laptop
and i drew a flower...
im not sure if its the library's environment or what
but i did have quite a bad headache
went home at about 4pm..
browse thru todays classified paper
and guess what!
theres a vacancy for part-time waitress at vivo
awesome luh!
called up the lady and was asked to go for a walk-in interview before 6pm..
it was kinda rushy but yea..
filled up the form n all that..it was kinda scary but yea
the dude says i have to go for trials
on thursday for 2hours
because im inexperience
and if im okay i can start working part-time
im not very sure if i should work on vday
6pm-10pm
oh yes, the pay is $5 an hour
and again, because im inexperience -.-"
okay luh...resturant,vivo..better den macs or kfc
went to buy a pair of black shoes for it..
and freak, i had to walk into a converse shop -.-"
seriously like of all shops converse..
and i had to be attracted to this pair $60 shoes..
ROARRR~
and yup you guessed it..
argued with my mum cause it was seriously overpriced
(and i had to buy it even though it knew its expensive -.-"..
what happens when i shop alone)
got pissted with her and paid her back with my savings =(
i still owe her $20 i think
but yea..
im freaking broke now =(
im not sure if i shld go for frisbee tml
(if there is...)
cause im left with 10bucks =/
oh yes,
welcome beky/bekie!
to my family =)
yuppp this is beky/bekie(my sis named it dont ask me why)
it was either abandoned by its parents
or it got lost n it ran into my hse kitchen
(not jokin abt the kitchen part)
so yea, currently now we're looking after it =)
and its looking good! =D
cute little fellow..
FYI my hse is famous for adopting injured/lost animals
if you have to know
there was a period of time where by my hse had
2cats,
2rabbits,
2hamsters,
a tank of fishes..
then..the number shrank to..
1cat,
2chincillas,
a big tank of fishes
n a mini one..
and currently..
1cat,
2chincillas,
still a big tank of fishes
n a mini one..
1 lizard
1box of mealworms..yup mealworms
my sister bought them for the lizard =/
but im taking care of them -.-"
n this baby squrriel..
once again,every night its tears
9:20 PM
Sunday, February 08, 2009
ytd i went for dk training and for national trials
dk training was okay but i didnt know why i was quite drained from it..
den come national trials..
i duno what the fuck i was doing at all
drills, i got "scolded" by keeks
den scrimmage(girls against guys)
i got scolded by ben
fuck man.
i totally did breakdown ytd..no shit man
i've nv played sooooo badly in my entire life luh
and yea,
obviously i wasnt selected to go for national trials..
so therefore i freaking admit
i suck at frisbee
its not that im not on form
its just all excuses
i admit i totally suck at it
i dont need ppl to tell me that..
i freaking know i suck at it
after trainings n trainings..
i shld be improving and im fucking deproving to like a beginner standard..
aiya but wtf man i was freaking sad not because i wasnt selected for the national team
cause im not really in to it..
as in if i get selected, i'll work my arse off and win for singapore
but if i dont, den who cares..life still goes on..
what i was really bothered abt is
because i really did disappoint ben..
i duno abt keeks but maybe i did..i duno..argh freak it
today, i went to church
den i left early, met up with terence for lunch
went to sk and waited for drills to start..
my team lost 7-12
freak man.
like seriously today we played like shit(IMO luh that is..)
but we did better after the half-time
and again, i played like shit..
argh fucking pissted with myself..
oh yes, i think i sprained my left elbow..i duno
but it freaking hurts
i cant bend it n all that
fuck! =(
my morale is 0%
okay luh not tat bad
maybe theres like a 1% there?
and to jamal,xiaolun,eliseus,ryan
im not fucking like jason
i dont carry his bloody give up attitude
i dont give up in a game
for now i just need to fucking find the problem with myself,
rest till my injuries fully recovers
and start working my arse off to improve again
roarrr =(
anw went for dinner with
xiaolun,ryan,eliseus,jamal n weiliang
at kfc -.-"
damn scare i get food poisioning again..but yea
met terence at hb mrt
he is so sweet luh,
send me back even though hes like dead tired..
loves luh! =)
oh yes i so have to blog this..
readers please dont board bus 10,30 and 143
from vivo or hb during 8.30pm-10pm+
u'll never get on the bus
or otherwise, the construction workers will jam up the bus at hb busstop
and the bus will be stationary for abt 10mins?
so yea..
i seriously have no idea why are they so freaking dumb..
i mean not to be evil or what
but wtf
move back luh..e poor ppl are waiting at the busstop..
and its like all of u are dropping at the same stop -.-"
dumb or what!=/
once again,every night its tears
10:29 PM
Thursday, February 05, 2009
went to NYP in the afternoon
slacked with robin,xiaolun,jamal,eliseus n edwin at the canteen
ate prata..i'd say its not bad =)
went for training..
so little ppl luh =(
cause most of the ppl are having exams..
oh wells..
did some agility drill
$#%^@%&% my ankles are really irritating
its like preventing me to run at my full speed
and every time i jam break, it hurts quite a bit =(
did box drills aft that..
its not too bad..
den we had scrimmage
sucks luh, i was playing horribly
after today..
i really think twice about wanting to go for the national youth trial
the discs that i can get i was like 2sec slow or smthing
cause of my freaking ankle..
i feel really freaking slow luh
and i hate it ROARR
its like im jogging or something =(
ANKLES, I HATE YOU FOR BEING SO LOUSY >=(
sigh i might as well not play frisbee anymore
like seriously
i cant run fast anymore
i cant jump high
i cant layout anymore
i cant do proper cuts
i cant handle -.-"
den wth am i suppose to do =(
i feel f-ing useless..sigh
after scrimmage
we practiced rabbit D
not bad, at least i learn something new..
and got used to the play.. =)
aft training, went for dinner with the usual at the usual place..
woahh i feel freaking fulll
ate fried rice,
stingray and 9sticks of satay..
i feel like a glutton =/
oh wells..time to lose weight! X)
once again,every night its tears
12:20 AM
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
dont blame me i was bored
and i was searching for quizes to do
and i came across this web..
so yea
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be. | |
| Commitment | |
| Looked down on | |
| Being Alone | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Losing Someone | |
| Death | |
| What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
omg this test is awesomeee
its quite true,
i hate ppl to be disappointed in me
thats why i hate my O lvl results
thats why i am trying hard to improve in my frisbee skills
| What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too) | |
| You attract unstable people! | |
| You attract models! | |
| You attract geeks! | |
| You attract rednecks! | |
| You attract Yuppies! | |
| What type of person do you attract? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
ehh, i dont think so?
| What Hair-do matches you? Your Result: Solid/Dye Your result is Solid! Your hair would look pretty and perfect with solid hair colors. Darks, to lights, to mediums . "Dye" is another word for solids, because solids are only one color. | |
| Root dye. | |
| Highlights | |
| What Hair-do matches you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
hmmm...i shld dye back my hair to black.
or maybe dark brown..
Your score on this personality test was 65%
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
Personality Quiz
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woah okay, no comments
You are 19% Bittch!
Well your on your way to being a Bittch! Just a few more years! I suggest you calm it down. It really doesn't pay to be a bittch. People stop liking you and it can be awfully lonely!
How much of a B*tch Are you?
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err...okayy weird quiz
| How will I die? Your Result: You will be murdered. This doesn't guarantee pain and suffering, but it will be at the hands of another. Perhaps the vile deeds of a past life will attribute to this horrific demise. Do not fear murder. There is a rare epiphany that comes from this type of death. You will see it in the last moments. | |
| You will die of boredom. | |
| You will die in your sleep. | |
| You will die from a terminal illness. | |
| You will die in a nuclear holocaust. | |
| You will die while saving someone's life. | |
| You will die in a car accident. | |
| You will die while having sex. | |
| How will I die? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
woah okay...
i just hope the person doesnt kill me when im having the best time of my life
and murder me in a very brutal way =/
its everybodys wish to die in their sleep,no?
| ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You? Your Result: Teal Cat You're the Teal Kitty Cat! You're as swift and sly as a ninja and very hard to please. You can be very soft yet very cruel at the same time. Your soul mate is the beige racoon and you're in conflict with the red jaquar. | |
| Silver and Red Wolf | |
| Tan Giraffe | |
| Ocre and Gray Dolphin | |
| Red Jaguar | |
| Blue Fox | |
| Gold Falcon | |
| Yellow Trout | |
| ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
lol, maybe tats why i love cats so much..
once again,every night its tears
12:34 PM
went to the doc
and yes, he bandaged my leg again -.-"
wtf man.
i wana play frisbee tml or on wed luh..
sighh..
staying at home makes me moody
and now i cant go out for 2days again
sucks man..
once again,every night its tears
12:09 AM
Monday, February 02, 2009
wasnt allowed to go out ytd -.-"
@#$#^$%&
i wanted to go for league
like quite badly but my parents didnt allow me to
cause my cousins were coming at 3plus..
i thought i can at least make it for the 1st game
but yea..wth luh
didnt do much slackked
i asked my mum again if i can go out
in the evening..and yea she didnt allow
but guess what!
like ard 7pm she asked
" i thought u're going out? "
-.-" okayy
so yea anw i went out with him =)
yay its been a week since we met
had dinner at west coast plaza
den went to walk walk ard west coast park...
so i guess ytd wasnt as bad =)
except for the winter league thingy..
my team lost the 1st game by 2points
and won the 2nd game by 3points
they only had 8ppl..
sigh, i feel quite bad
as in its not like i had anything impt but
its cause of my parents
den my teammates have to play till they almost died=(
sighh, i mean if i was there..
it wouldnt be that tough for them
cause i would be taking some load off their shoulders..
oh wells..
i'll be going to the docs again later
yess, i think i said this sentence like 4 or 5 times
in this month alrdy ahaha
i'll be seeing the doc to see if my ankle is okay alrdy
and hopefuly he wont hv to bandage it AGAIN
once again,every night its tears
12:38 PM
