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Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Tuesday, September 09, 2008


I'm SUPER DISPPOINTED =(
seriously, i'm feeling super lousy inside right now..
i thought i would do better den this.sigh.
i thought that my lowest would be a B4 den highest be a A2
but sadly it isnt.
ralene, why on earth are you so stupid,
cant you be like your cousins who scores As and not Fs.
sigh.someone just kill me please.
i really do feel like giving up and just go with the flow of life.
be happy everyday and just be who i am.

honestly, i really do feel like crying,
but its not like i can get my As by crying.
and i emphasize again, i'm feeling really REALLY broken inside.
it felt worse den breakups and arguements(hate them).
it felt like as though my future is screwed
and i'm no longer the smart one.

i admit, i like to feel smart,
who doesnt, damn it?
i hate to have the feeling as though i'm the dumbest person
and everyone just insults me.
i wan to be the person whom
my parents would say,
"well done, you've made us proud"
and enjoy my life w/o regreting anything at all..
esp to regret not scoring better to get into the school of my choice.

ppl might say, hey at least you didnt score ALL F9,
but look here, i'm aiming for 7points.
does 24points++ look like 7points to you?
damn it man.i dont care if u score all F9s or what cause i'm not part of it..
i want my As and i wan it freaking badly.

seriously, i never thought i was dumb untill today.
when i score 9.5/50 for my geog.
i was shocked and utterly disappointed.
i knew that i wont do well for my SS and geog,
but i hoped i would at least pass.

ARGH!
i'm freaking pissted with myself for having such a pathetic brain.

sigh, i'm tired of life,
tired of every single shit.
God, will u please end the world now?
so i can go to heaven and just live a life w/o having to feel troubled and all those crap.

once again,every night its tears

7:33 PM