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Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Wednesday, July 09, 2008


today's weather was so nice
if i were to stay at home n sleepp
but yea, have to go to school
cause of Os =(
after chem practical,
left school to visit the doctor..
she said i got some allergy n rashs
super irritating cause its damn itchy n i cant take it
why isit that among my family i'm ALWAYS the one that got problem.
sucks like shit man.
my sisters got everything..the looks n talents
but me, what do i have man.
if my Os result is more den 12points i can just practically go n kill myself
cause i dont have the looks n the brains =(

so yes, back to what i did today..
went to dover with amber aft school
ate mee sotong,bought green tea mooncake and camarel(Sp?) chips
i almost died eating them while doing art when we came back from dover
sigh...


can someone just freaking kill me.
i've lost my motivation to study..
my passion to study so i can get into a school with a good frisbee team is GONE
so what now?
i dont know what i wana be in the future so theres no motivation either..
all i lack is just the bloody thing called
MOTIVATION
=( wheres the motivation when i need it.





i wana believe that i can complete this last lap
without you by myside.even though,
it was you who gave me the motivation to study hard
and be promoted to express.
its just something so special about you that i cant forget.
its been a long time since i lost you,
and my motivation to do my best in everything that i do..
fades with every second.
this may sound so mushy n stuff.
but i do swear, these words that carry the meaning of how important you are to me
are real.
still, i want to believe i can complete this final lap without you
even though my heart says its impossible...
they say you're my bad luck charm,
but i beg a differ.
they just dont understand how much you mean to me.

when another he came along,
i thought he could be the one that will be able to mend my broken heart.
he restored my motivation and my passion to live life to the fullest..
but all these were just lies,
when he just left without a word.
now i really wish,
i'm able to complete this final lap without either one of you, or anyone,
cause its this race that will determine the route i'll take for the rest of my life.



*note to the readers.
keep your comments to yourself, if you want to gossip or say anything just shut up.
you dont know how it feels like to be in my shoe.
even though you might say, " i've been through this before "
yea sure, the situation might be the same but the impact is definately different.
so just keep your comments to yourself before you rip apart someone's life with a sentence.
to those bitches n basturds who live their lifes like shit,
i'm definately not being dramatic neither am i seeking attention nor compassion from anyone
i just want to let out what was trapped.

once again,every night its tears

7:38 PM