Declaration
God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference
In JESUS name,
AMEN
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
had all 3paper today
super tired..skl ended later den normal skl time even though i'm having exam =(
siann..
physics paper was horrible..
ok honestly speaking, the paper is easy
but i just cant do..my mind was completely blank..somehow =((
so i just slpt through the paper..
mr liew kept waking me up..so i just tired to do the paper anw
i managed to do abit.. =/
aft that was lit..
i'd say that the lit paper was abit tough
and i only write one page for each qn =(
oh mannnn..you know whats funny
is tat when i was in sec3 i could write like 2pages or at least 1 1/2 pages
and now i cant even write properly..i just hope i pass
for art..i couldnt finish it in time because the painting style i was told to use is super time comsuming -.-
stupid graphic painting..have to make so many tones waste my time =(
tml i've got practical exam at 11.30am i think
physics n chem all at once =(
i've got a feeling i'll screw it up..somehow..
but aft tat i'm planning to go sentosa with the 4F ppl..
even though they are having class outing =/
i feel super left out ever since i came to express =(
i miss my friends badly =(
saw some sec2s playing frisbee at 3pm+
they are not very good at it..except for 1 or 2..duhh
thanks to ivan n myself a number of ppl are influenced to play frisbee =D
mayb we can start a frisbee cca soon! =))
even though i'm graduating in a few months time =(
i'll miss fairfield badly.
passerby: there, i've answered your qns =)
once again,every night its tears
10:13 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
had chem paper today
it was average..i believe i can pass =)
aft the chem paper i went to find ms wong
she offered to pray for me so i said ok
i felt so much better after praying =)
she reminded me to keep having faith in God
and block out negetive thoughts..
so yea..aft tat went to art room
went to look for mdm lim but she was missing -.-"
i did abit on my board..screwed the sky part
den tried to draw my theme development picture
help me man..i cant draw for nuts!
i'm gona take a photo of my board the before and after process
gona have physics,art n lit tml
the worse day ROAR!
i hope i can at least pass physics,get at least B3 for art n lit
i dun really expect a A1 cause i'm not prepared for it =(
once again,every night its tears
9:35 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
again..i was really tempted to frisbee
but as you can see i'm at home now =(
studied chem from 10plus all the way to 3pm
felt super irriated by the confusing things my textbk is saying n the humid weather
so i decided to take a super cold long bathe n play darkeden
as a break from my studies..
but erm..i think i took a too long break..3hours break -.-"
sian..if only my clock isnt spoilt -.-
anws i feel kinda sad for the NA classes
cause they've got to take 4 papers tml
history,ss,eng paper 1 n eng paper 2
n i pity myself for having to take 3papers on tue
physics,lit and art =(
i'm tired of studying..
how i wish i was as smart as the teenager who won the guiness world record
for being the youngest professor at 18 or 19years old =(
or maybe as smart as my cousin who was offered a scholarship thingy
sigh..i hate this feeling of comparing others to myself
but i cant help it =(
i know i'm like demoralising n lowering my self-esteem by doing tat
but, its really uncontrollable,,
everytime when i know someone who has everything
a pretty face,sexy figure,smart,talented in everything,rich,happy family
i just start to feel God is unfair..i know i shouldnt be feeling tat way
cause being jealous is a sin =(
one thing i can be grateful for is tat i can still study n learn more stuff
sometimes i feel as though everyone has desserted me
leaving me alone to mock myself,to carry myself so lowly
having to keep thinking of these negetive thoughts =(
argh it so irritates me.
i love my friends, but i feel tat they are drifting further n further away from me
all i can say now is i feel extremely stressed,sad n miserable
roar! i hate being emo
once again,every night its tears
9:37 AM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
woo oral ended =)
i love english oral man, its always the most fun
but i hate chinese oral cause i cant express my thoughts easily =(
anw yea, had my chinese oral den english in the hall..
chinese was total crap i skipped alot alot of words
and for the conver..its horrible
oh man, i was super nervous for chinese plus the teacher looks abit erm strict..
haha so yea..went for english got mr guo..
some lower sec eng teacher i think
at first i thought he would be strict but it was fine luh
kinda funny though..ask me funny qns during the conver
oh n i did something damn stupid which inever thought i would say
he asked: " so do you have anything esle to add? "
i said: " erm yea, i think the kids are very cute "
den he gave the -.-" look..haha screwed man
during the conver
he asked: " share about the most boring event you ever attended " (something like that)
i said: " woah, what kind of qn is tat man " screwed again -.-"
so yea i talked about the teachers repeating themselves over n over again
den he asked: " so do how do u think the teachers will be feeling "
den i said that it'll be irritating for both parties the teachers n students to hear or repeat the same thing over n over again...
den just keep talking..
den he asked another qn " why do you think ppl are attracted to fear like watching a horror movie "
den i explained cause it add spice to life n started crapping..
den he asked " so what is your opinion on horror movies? "
my reply: " personally i do not like horror movies because they give me nightmares "
den he asked " so how different isit from thai horror movie to the others? "(cause i raised the topic on horror movies..like the typical scary n all those)so i explained cause thai horror movie's ploting are different to the movies made in amercia n all those..
so fun having english oral..and i keep laughing =X
haha mayb cause he looked funny but partly cause of the lame qns
haha oh wells =) english oral made my day =D
gona go merv hse for chem tuition later on with shervin n nick yong
acttually i was suppose to study wid almeric at the library again
but he got squash n will end quite late so no point i guess..
plus the library closes at 7pm -.- so early luh..
once again,every night its tears
5:05 AM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
crap i hate feeling emo =(
anws today was crappy didnt really do much
aft skl went to help mag wid roll call..
its sad to see that the sec1,2 n 3s dun listen much anymore -.-
its not like we(sec4s) stop cca means the standard drops ok..
it still remains there n will only climb higher not drop down
so yea..went to help ms reena to mark the sec1's badgework test paper..
den erm help abit of drill
i think the sec2s so hate me now =X
too bad, i'm sorry but drill means discipline
den went home n took a super long nap..
now i'm having my dinner n gona game for an hour
den study chem..
how do u acttually prepare for oral?
once again,every night its tears
11:05 AM
Friday, April 25, 2008
I'M FREAKING DEMORALIZED!
math paper today was..no comments
i really really want to kill myself now =(
tell me why do i exist
i suck at my studies
i have no talent in anything
i can no longer sing
i cant play any instruments
i play frisbee like shit
whats my future damn it =(
i'm freaking pissted off my life
why can it just end like now?
get strike by lightening or something
den the world will be a better place for everyone
ROAR!!!
went for fris at acsi aft the math paper
cause i was suepr sad n i need to cheer myself up
apparently it made me feel more worse
because they were training for inter JC competition
n ivan was needed to help them with their training
so i basically sat there n stone =(
irritating luh
anw i'm happy i've got a full stomache now =)
i just hope..
i can do well for my chem,physics,art and lit paper
i swear i'll so kill myself mentally if i fail most of my subjects
once again,every night its tears
11:30 AM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
had social studies n geog paper after school ytd..
i was super brain dead even when school wasnt even coming to an end yet =(
anws social studies paper was erm ok i guess?
its SBQ..i wonder why theres no SEQs
we were made to stay in class after SS paper n wait there for 15min
aft which taking our geog/hist elective paper..
geog paper was extremely easy..
but i still think i'm gona fail because i didnt read the qns..
they said to choose one qn but i did all =X
stupid, i know -.-" so much for having exams after school
from what i know..i'm gona lose out 3marks..or more..
because i didnt really specify which i'm identifying..
dumb, i know -.-"
you see, my problem is..
i cant express my ans in words easily
i tend to add in useless details n in the end missing out the main point
it happens when i'm doing SS,geog,english,chinese n lit papers..
sigh i just hope i pass with flying colours.. =/
at least it'll boost my moral for passing ss n geog once
next up is math paper tml!!
roar!i've got a feeling i wont do so well =/
i duno why..but i do hope i get a distinction
i'm gona mug math aft 1hours of darkeden ahah..
i really need a break man, aft the papres ytd i went for lunch-dinner
with amber..
den i went for tuition all the way till 9.30
super tired, came home n i felt aslp..
aft i bathe duhh..
suprised that i'm blogging now?
hehe..thanks to exams, i wasnt feeling well
got slight fever tats why =P
oh wells, at least i dun need to go to boring school =)
once again,every night its tears
11:30 PM
had eng paper 1 today aft skl..
i just so hate the idea of having normal skl day den sitting for exam papers aft skl.
i think i'm jsut gona fail all my subjects
esp for tml...
i have art!! it so drains my energy away luh =(
ohh and on thurs i've got pe den emath paper
ROAR! FAIL FAIL FAIL!
i hate life =(
sry for the emo post
i'm just feel extremely demoralised
esp aft chinese papers on sat n today' paper
i just cant get anything right.
they say when you grow older you'll be wiser
like AS IF!
total bullshit i think i grow older i'm more stupid
simple example:
i didnt study for any sci tests when i was in lower sec n i scored distinctions
now,
i study for it n i just pass..15/40(for my recent test organic chem)
how pathetic can i get?
i feel pathetic n useless =(
i dun wana end up studying in poly or in private skl!!
someone kill me please! =((((
T.T
once again,every night its tears
9:25 AM
Monday, April 21, 2008
stayed at home whole day =(
i wanted to go for fris but yea i got to study for EXAM =((
i really hate it even though i use to love exam
mayb because i use to score super good grades..
but now i'm not doing very well?
studied SS from 10am-1pm
slack all the way till 4
studied rivers from 4 untill now..
i'm gona go back to study at 9pm after i'm done with 1hour of darkeden =)
i want to practice my math but..
i cant =/ maybe i'll do it after my revision on coasts
or tml morning..
i'd better score a distinction for math.ROAR!!
but i kinda think i'll score between 60-70marks..
or maybe lesser den tat.. =( oh wells.
STRESS!
hate hate hate exams n Olevel!
once again,every night its tears
10:44 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
hello.
i had chinese paper 1,2 and 3 all at one go today..
believe it or not, i didnt even study a single thing.
and i'm definately not proud of it cause
it'll cause me my poor results =(
anw, thanks chester for lending me your jacket.
i think if you didnt lend me, i wld freeze to death.
after the papers i went home to take a nap..
aft which i went to jurong library to meet almelric and study again.
did practices on algebric equations and indices(sp?)
it kinda refreshed my memory so yay! =)
suddenly i've got this drive to revise all my math topics..
just hope this feeling will stay with me untill my Os are over..
monday i'm gona have english paper 1.sian
oh talking about english..
it reminded me tat mrs ly-ann confiscated a book i borrowed from jiaqi =(
she say she'll return it to me when she is done reading it..
ROAR!what am i gona do in the mean time??
honestly, this is a 1st time i feel dead w/o reading a story book.
so yea..cant wait till exams is over, and it'll be frisbee for me for 1week
den back to studies =(
sry amber about today =/
once again,every night its tears
1:15 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i'm make this short n quick.
recently i've been too busy to update, so i'm sry..
midyears is starting within 4days time.
and i've got no time to blog so yea.
i'll blog aft my midyears is over
cause i'm busy mugging now.
i think i should learnt to study fast n efficiently(sp?)
cause i really slacked alot
i've got 3/12 for my geog of food test.so demoralising =(
but i've got 21/30 for my math matrix n vectors test..
not good enough..
if i really want my 7points..i need to work extremely hard =/
as in really really really hard.
mug hard like a super nerd who thinks of only scoring full marks
perserver(sp?) on for afew more months
and i can play frisbee n go out all i want =D
my parents WILL NOT be disappointed in me
they WILL be proud of me
i'll prove i'm NOT stupid
i'll be the special one in my family.
OH!yes one more thing..
for service learning i'm going to kancanaburi(sp?)
suppose to go chang mai but i switch with someone..
yay for it
once again,every night its tears
1:34 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
went to school for art..
i spend like 3hours plus on like 1 small portion of my board..
super irritating..
ARGH!i'm freaking slow..
anw i went back home by bus..
and it was raining cats n dogs =(
swayy, also because of the rain
frisbee got cancelled so almeric asked if its ok to go jurong east library
so yea, went to meet him at dover mrt station at 4plus
den make our way to junrong east library
studied physics n math..
i'm glad tat i rmbed n learn more stuff =)
so this is one of the study times tat i have is not a waste of time
had dinner at long john slivers
den waited at bus interchange for bus 51
stupid almeric took my hp n didnt want to return it to me..
making me miss my bus >=(
so while waiting for the next bus got this guy sat besides us n started talking to him
he start e cover by saying:
"hey, you still studying?"
Almeric: "erm,yea,studying in ACJC"
"must study hard alright, now a days in singapore its very difficult to get a job"
Almeric: "yea, must study and get into university"
"i only got my PSLE score and now i'm jobless so must study hard"
Almeric: "have you tried working in macs?"
"yea, tired about..6times but still fail"
Almeric: "how about being a waitress?"
"tired before and still fail, i'm still waiting to see if i can get a job by monday or something..
i was once working as a assistant superviser(Sp??)in orchard hotel but got retreanch cause of the Blanglah people come to work.Who esle can we blame?We cant blame ourselves..we can only blame..."
aft that my bus came n we left.
i feel sad for the guy..
cause w/o a job he got no shelter over his head n cant get money
when i heard the conversation, i feel very unsecured for my future..
i'm scare to live on the streets and having to sleep with a empty stomach every night..
i'm scare tat i will suffer.. =(
ROAR! additional pressure =((
once again,every night its tears
1:05 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
ok to start off..
i'm super sorry if i showed you(my friends)black face
when you saw me after school..
i was super stress, i didnt want to behave in that manner but i cant help it
cause the HOD of arts came in my art n it builds up my stress..
so yea..I'M SORRY! =/ really..
and i'm so gona fail my physics test
i woke up at 5am to study for it..
i really tried..ok but not my 100% because its in the morning
i left some qns blank which adds up to 6marks..
so byebye 6marks..
what more i dont think the rest tat i've ansed will get correct..
AHH! if i really do fail this test..
i'm so not gona study physics anymore
i'll be super demoralised luh..
from wdv i've said..and if the results i get is what i said to be..
i can only say this:
RALENE YOU ARE SUPER STUPID
YOU SUCK SO MUCH AT PHYSICS
demoralising..i know
anws had GB aft the class cell grp thing
we went to botanic garden for AMAZING RACE!
YAY!haha..i could say everything went well =)
but the GB girls today are super slow..
eunice keep asking me what happen to the girls today
cause when we talk or give instruction to them they took super long to response..
and we had to repeat it more den 5times..
so yep..tats my last GB mtg for me =(
i'm sad cause i dont see my squad missing us(the sec 4s)at all
unlike other squads..oh wells..
when we go, they'll surely miss us =)
its normal because we are all human beings
we know we should treasure everything we have
but we just dont do it even though we know so..
but den again, i know many ppl will be happy when i'm not ard
cause i think i scold n nag too much..
oh wells, mayb its a good thing i'm leaving too!
cause tat means i dun have to nag anymore =D
do you have any idea how irritating it is to scold n nag at ppl
i feel bad everytime i scold =(
anwss...
Ms ong gave out some forms to fill in..
its the CCA thing..
like reflect on..
what have i learnt during my 4years in GB(character developent&leadership skills)
achievements n participation
community services(CIP hours)
personal recount in being in GB
i took super long to complete it..
haha n i wrote super long for the personal recount
in summary: I LOVE GB!
really i do =) it made me grow into a more mature person compared to last time
n i learn so much things that i definately know no other CCA could give me the opportunity to do so
so yea, i filled in the form after dissmisal..
aft that i went to thank ms reena n ms ong for everything
they have done for us through out these 4years
and gave them each a hug
i almost cried luh =(
sigh, suddenly i feel so old..
i dun wana leave fairfield i really dun wan to =(
ok i've done enough whining..
anws i thought that these two news i read online was kinda scary
http://www.asiaone.com/News/Latest%2BNews/Asia/Story/A1Story20080411-59288.html
i tell you, you read this n you'll hate the woman who abandoned the child
seriously, if you cant be responsible for the child den dun have sex!
for goodness sake, you are only a teenager..
get at feel tat you are ready to be responsible for a child
den have sex luh..honestly stupid girl..
http://www.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20080411-59361.html
i just hope the school will pay more attention to thier school facilities
cause its super scary..i dont wana get crushed by anything at all man..
WELL DONE EUNICE!=D
REST WELL GIRL,
YOU DID A GREAT JOB IN PLANNING FOR AMAZING RACE. =D
really, you are my role model..
how can you acttually sleep for 1/2hour just to complete your task
and not complain at all?
i really salute you girl.seriously...
=D
Eunice, you are the best
once again,every night its tears
1:06 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
i was super tempted to leave school for frisbee in ACSI
but, i convinced myself not to as i need to do my art and
i need to conserve my energy to study later when i reached home..
and not heading straight to my bed after i've reached home
after school played toss awhile wid ivan,nikki n christopher
den i went to find mr liew for my "physics tuition"
sigh i'm kinda worried for my test
n i dont want to dissapoint mr liew again
i really do hope i can pass with at least 18marks n above
after the "tuition" went to do my art
BUT the door is locked n my bag is in the art room..
so yea, mdm lim in not n skl n the cleaner seems to be gone..
spent like 15min sitting outside the art room wid nattarat(sp?) n daddy daniel..
jacob passed me a cheese pancake n went to the office to get someone to open the door..
thank you so much =)
sigh, art is really really troublesome
i painted the board over n over again but its always wrong
and i have to hand it in by july
like 2more months! OMGOSH!
things are happening so fast now that i really feel i'me lagging behind =(
anw did my art untill 6plus than came back home.
even though i didnt go for frisbee i still felt tired..
i've got so much work to do!
got to mark my physics wk bk chpt 15-17
study physics for physics test tml
do lit homework
do artist research
ARHHH! tired =(
theres a drama thingy on next friday 7-7.45pm
i feel like going even though its 1day before chinese midyears
oh wells..
once again,every night its tears
10:57 AM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
had math test today.
i think i'm able to pass with at least 18plus?
well at least i hope so..
i so-called tired my best in attempting to complete it..
i only left out 2qns cause i duno how to do n short of time
im really tempted to go for frisbee tml
but i cant cause i've got art
and i got to study for physic test on friday
sigh..stress
D.C circuits n light? what is tat man
i just wish fmss got a frisbee cca
den i can have at least friends whom i can play toss with for awhile aft skl..
after skl, i went for the first aid lesson thingy
to get my GB first aid badge..
honestly, i dun see a point in going for it when i alrdy know i cant get my pioneer pin
but anw i just went so i could learn new stuffs
from the class i was at, i could see ACJC frisbee players tossing..
really, i felt jealous
i really wished Os is over n i'm enjoying myself now.
its like hell..its sucking out everything i enjoy. =(
and all these stress is making rash appear
n its spoiling my skin..its irritating
i know i keep complaining about Os..
you can dont read abt it if you are sick n tired of reading the same thing over n over again.
so anw aft tat, i had Gb exco mtg for friday
friday's Gb mtg will be at Botanic Garden.
how exciting! =/
i'm really tired of GB n i'm finding it a nucience(sp?)
i love Gb alot, but not when its interfering wid my studies n stuffs..
oh wells..
i feel this desperate need to go to church
but my parents dont allow
cause they find tat its a waste of time..
i think if i go to church i'll feel so much better
den emo-ing here..
n also i'm drifting further n further away from God..
i can feel it, its just so sad..n it makes me feel empty.
i hate this feeling i hate hate hate it..
God, can you hold onto me tight and never let me go?
I wana stay by yourside through the toughest time in my life
because i know, only through the it, our relationship can grow stronger n stronger
and i want build trust n faith into our relationship
so God, please help me.
Happy birthday.
even though i know you dont read my blog.
once again,every night its tears
11:08 AM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
i didnt blog ytd cause..
i wasnt feeling okay..
i mean after tuition i came home
and i just felt all the stress
that my dad wants me to get 10points n below
i know its nothing since i want to get 7points
but its the pressure tat is affecting me n i hate to disappoint ppl
so its really disturbing..
den i've got up coming tests like math,geog,physics n chem
like wth man.i felt super discouraged when i've got 6/30 for my math
and 22/50 for my english test
like who on earth fails english n single digit for my test?
it never happened to me only this year.
when i reflect about my attitude for this year..
i really slacked alot alot.
i mean i use to ace in all my subjects except math obvious
but now i'm like failing?
i really wana pass my mid years wid flying colours badly
so badly tat i could end up crying n banging my fists n roll ard like a small kid
i told my parents tat i'll fail my mid year papers
and they said if i were to fail,
prepare to get caned..
freak luh i never got caned in my whole life
n now sec4, i'm gona get canned?wth man
16year old kid get cane for lousy results
how humilating is tat..sigh
so anw, after all the thoughts on that..
i went to check n plan my stuff
i realised i cant go for frisbee for 2months
den i started crying..stupid?no i dont think so
2months is super long for me..
no frisbee, means...
i cant have fun wid my frisbee mates untill 2months later..
and i really miss them
i cant destress
i cant enjoy my hobby
i will be a lump of fats
my throwing will turn from bad to worse
not going for a week is like skinning me alive
what more for another 8weeks
oh oh plus service learning..9weeks
OMGOSH! =(
i just hope Os will end soon
and i can enjoy myself..really n of cuz wish tat i'll do well n score A1s
ROAR!
once again,every night its tears
11:58 AM
Monday, April 07, 2008
ok here are the photos.i know i look so like a small boy ahah, but who cares..its for the sake of fun n i know i also look super unglam n all the photos.its fun trying to behave like a uhmm..punk?haha oh wells. =)
once again,every night its tears
10:58 AM
went to celebrate daniel daddy's bday
russell made me n patten wait for 2hours for them..
thanks alot pig
so what did we doing during tat 2hours..
patten n i went to NYDC to buy bday cake..
was suppose to eat there, but we rmbed tat NYDC is not Halah
so riaz be grateful tat i gave up my spagetti for you. ROAR!
so we went to fish&co, met daniel,russell,jon n riaz aft tat
anw russell is nice enough to treat me lunch for letting me wait for 2hours
and riaz giving a treat to patten
you can say i'm evil or anything ahaha
but i purposely order extra =X
haha anws yea i bought a super expensive chocolate for his present
it cost my 3/4 of my allowance haha.
thank God my dad gave me extra money before i left hse ahah
went for movie aft lunch
watched flood.its a super HORRIBLE show
dont watch, i waste 10bucks on tat pathetic movie.
parents picked me up at outram park.. =)
so i'm gona study soon
cause i'm feeling frustrated now..
can you believe it, i was thinking of studying the whole time since friday.
siann.
i'm gona try to upload e photos i took ytd..
once again,every night its tears
9:51 AM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Count down to 120th fairfield birthday =)
it went well today suprisingly..haha
i went retardly hyper today..haha due to lack of sleep i guess
everything was alright.i'm glad my prayers for a united class has been answered
went to macs at king alberts for lunch wid..
my class girls exccept jiaqi n sarah =(
den head back to school for art
irritating..ok not irritating irritating but yea..
mdm lim keeps asking me to stay back after school for art 2-3times
like please coming week i still got GB =(
n i've got no time, so i'm only gona stay back on thurs.
sry mdm lim.i have no choice.
oh yea saw frederick and i realise something..
he n clifford look somehow alike
and they both look like someone but cant rmb who..
and and nicholas n almeic both look abit like each other
so yupp..went to celebrate my dads bday..
its ok luh, slack ard n stuffs
i'm so gona grow fat tonight..
ate alot of junk food, a total big mistake man.. =(
this is damn sick
http://www.asiaone.com/News/The%2BNew%2BPaper/Story/A1Story20080404-58127.html
once again,every night its tears
3:12 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
what can i say about today..nth much happen
i just spend 2hours painting 9grass during art lesson
and yea..went for the cell grp thingy at ms yeo class
den went for GB
i cant get my pioneer pin T.T
i'm really really sad luh..i cant say tat i regret going for fris
cause i really dont
and its like i dont have a choice also..
i feel really fucked up luh.sigh
today we end at 5.45pm..
because tml have to report in school at 6.45AM =O
sigh..
i think, i really shouldnt have come to express
den i wouldnt get the chance to play frisbee
den i wouldnt fall in love wid it
den i would have gotten my drill badge!!!
but i would have missed out making friends wid nice ppl =(
i really really dont feel like going tml
but i'll feel bad n guilty
but seriously, its a total complete waste of time
cause i can spend tat morning resting
den study..but..
i have to go even though i wan to pon it badly cause of art..
ARGH! i hate life.
sry for tat emo statement..but it really sucks right now..
its super irritating when things dont go smoothly
and the way i want it to be
espcially when i have to decide between whats right n what is my heart's desire.
oh yea..when i was on my way home,
i saw like this big grp of ppl running
and guess wads my 1st thought when i saw them..
frisbee..
i think i'll really crazy about frisbee alrdy =(
which is damn bad..cause most of my time i think goes to frisbee now..
its a good thing i dont have a boy-friend
if not i'll confirm get scolded for not spending time with him ahha..
ohoh..no more frisbee for me untill mid-years are over
and i've got to plan my time properly if i still wana play fris
so here is my timetable
1st n 3rdweek of the month:
monday: 3pm-6.30pm tuition
tuesday: 3pm-5.30pm tuition
5.30pm-7pm+ frisbee at ACJC
wednesday: 3pm-5.30pm art
thursday: 3pm-5.30pm art
5.30pm-7pm+ frisbee at ACSI
friday: STUDY
saturday: 9am-12pm+ study
1pm-6pm+ Bums frisbee at sentosa
sunday: 10am-3pm study
3.30-7pm+ WCP frisbee
i'll have to choose to only go for one in the pinked schedule..
sigh i hate Olevels
2nd n 4th week of the month i wont play frisbee..
just study n mug hard
i'll try to use this timetable untill Os are over..
at least i plan my time properly between frisbee n studies =)
plans for tml:
6.45am-12pm -> bloody school activity
12pm-4pm -> art-.-
4pm-7pm+ ->study with almelic(teaching me math n wdv tat has numbers)
once again,every night its tears
10:45 AM
Friday, April 04, 2008
normal day in school..
took my napfa test during pe
i got A for all except incline pull ups..can you believe it!?
i've got B..haha mayb because i was took tired from the frisbee n stuffs..
its also amazing tat i've got 46cm for sit-n-reach..
usually i'll only get B or C for sit-n-reach luh cool man!
YAY to Gold award =))
went to dover for lunch wid amber n cheryl..
den went to artroom to "do" art
i couldnt find my paper for doing paper sculpting..
so i dont see a point staying back
so i decided to just leave n go ACJC for frisbee
it felt werid stepping into ACJC but..aft awhile its fine =)
saw some ex fairsians there
nat n wilson was like so shock to see me there ahah
their reaction is darn funny..
so yea..it kinda drizzled n rain super heavily so we could do anything besides tossing..
kinda did mini drill wid almeric
like sprint there den catch
sprint back n catch again..
its tiring but fun =)
oh yea alex n kevin were there too..funny ppl
alex keep calling me timbah thanks to daniel -.-"
n they call kevin google..i duno why dun ask me ahah..
aft fris went to eat dinner at ghim moh market..
the food there sucks, or mayb bcuz i chose to ate at the wrong stall ahah..
almeric keep pestering me to study real hard to come into ACJC..
alex too, like both of them were expecting me to go ACJC
but i'm like scare i dun have the potential
and what more frisbee is a co-cca in ACJC
so i cant DSA through it or anything..
and i surely do not what not take 2sports CCA in JC..
its nuts, the amount of work/projects to do
and i'll have to make time for 2sports, crazy really..
oh wells..was suppose to go ACSI at 5pm
but it rained so i didnt go over =(
n was suppose to pass clement stuff but yea i couldnt thanks to the rain..
what a spoiler luh..ROAR!
of all days it had to rain today, why couldnt it rain like on days when i dont have frisbee
like wednesdays!=D
tml i've got Gb..
got to wear full uniform..sian
really dun feel like though.sigh.
and i feel really sad when i keep hearing the word drill
cause it reminds me of my drill test
where almost everyone took e test n pass..
except me cause i missed the test twice =(
once again,every night its tears
12:53 PM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
as usual, every wed is the most boring ever..haha
hmm had lit,eng n math test today =(
brain almost died.was super letargic(sp?)
so yup, tossed awhile wid ivan aft skl..
went for exco mtg
den went to botanical garden to get familarise wid the place
for next week's amazing race..
apparently they cancelled our outdoor adventure day which suppose to be this week
to a normal full U GB mtg -.-"
how boring is tat man..sigh not fairrr! =((
i wana go wakeboarding man!!
oh wells..
so whats on for tml..
normal school day, aft tat i'm gona do my art
den erm go for fris either at..
ACJC or ACSI
ok i'll definately go ACSI, is wheather i'm going ACJC
i wana go there n see how good they are
n prolly it'll motivate me to wana throw better throws =)
oh wells, sad tat clement n clifford cannot play fris tml
if not can bully them ahah..
oh yea, daniel is now training ACSI for fris
so cool =) ahaha..
crapp i wana learn how to make a proper cut and layout correctly
ok mayb i should 1st get the guts to layout..haha
i'm gona try my best to try to layout tml =D
come on ralene!you can do it!
its just jumping diagonally for the frisbee and have a painful landing..
and after tat you'll get blueblacks =/
once again,every night its tears
11:43 AM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
just to let you ppl know,
i wont be using msn alot but i'll be blogging
cause it only taktes up 15min of my time to blog.ahah
hmm, i'm trying to study/mug now cause of the stupid mid years
they pushed it forward to 19april which is 2weeks from now.
i'm feeling the stress now but yea, when i think of frisbee
i'm fine =)
i can so totally say tat frisbee is my life now,
my boy friend ahaha.
being a frisbee player, i get to excerise, in other words can lose weight! =)
meet more pro frisbee players which will inspire me to be better
be more aware of my surroundings
be a better teammate =)
hopefully grow taller because i have to jump alot
increase my stamina because i have to run alot alot..
FRISBEE ALL THE WAY! =D
frisbee is not a dog or gay game
its a super style n sexy game when u see pros play it
ppl can practically fly for the disk as in really man..
so yea, enough abt my frisbee stuff..
today was damn boring..
i didnt go for lit remedial cause i was super super tired
i really could take it so i have to go home n rest.
i duno why i'm so tired also, i mean it makes no sense when i slp early ytd
oh wells, i slpt for damn long n now i'm trying to complete my math homework
and study for lit test tml..sigh
exactly what do MOE think we teenagers are..
giving us to many things to do..
i know it'll benefit us, but dont u adults think we should at least have some time of our own
n please freaking stop the bloody cca!
i'm so totally irritated by the fact tat they push forward the mid years
but dun wana stop cca untill next week
like sure thanks alot man, w/o cca i can have 2days free to study
tats like alot of time for me to catch up luh
espacially when i'm not smart n need more time to study
sighh.
oh yea apart from skl stuffs..
i cant go frisbee anymore =(
only to acsi on monday n thurs for training sigh..
no more bums or playing wid church friends =(((
stupid Os see what you've done, you spoil my life.
oh oh and next frisbee competition is on 1st week of june
tats what i know from my friends luh so yea
Happy aprils fool day =)
oh yea i played a trick on clement
i told him tat i "like" him
but den he was smart enough to know i was faking him ahah
even though he almost believed me..
oh wells, i'm a lousy liar ahah..
which is good =)
once again,every night its tears
11:45 AM
