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Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Wednesday, January 30, 2008


HEY PEOPLE!
i wana declare out loud here on my blog that...
I LOVE GOD ALOT ALOT!


its like lately, after the dec holidays
and after feeling left out and all in class..
somehow i felt really much closer to God =)
maybe cause i realise i cant depend on anyone else but God and myself
its not like i'm saying my friends are not there for me..
its just that ppl got their own problems n i surely dun wan ppl to think more cause of me..
so yea, this make me talk to God more often..
and also i'm reading this book diary of a teenage girl(given to me by joel li),
its a really really cool book as in..
its so like my life, not exactly..but most of it is..
haha i duno but i feel that God is talking to me thru e book
as in how he can help ANYONE as long as you give your heart to him
and i find that God really is helping me..


i always thought i'll be the outcast of the class(still am anw)
but it didnt really affect me anymore..well not as much as before..
as in things got better, well at least now i know true colours of some ppl..
and its good that i learn it other wise i'll end up being miserable again
but yea, i learnt how to overlook ppl's bad points(well still trying to acttually can say 80%thru)
and i'm happy about it..i learnt to judge ppl less too =)
i mean its not like judging ppl can really do anything to the situation right? =D
ok i know i sound like some..yea but its really what i realised n thinking abt for months..



a change isnt really a bad thing, however...it is a bad thing to the ppl round me
i realised that some ppl changed for the worse! =(
n im not really happy about it, as in its darn sad to see ur friends(even though she is just myclassmate) drop in her character values..
or mayb its just her true colours?i duno man..
sometimes i really wish to say this out but i decided not to..
unless ppl starts to find me cocky and spreading rumors abt me again..
i duno if i shld point it out to then so they'll know..
cause usually ppl gossip w/o knowing but yea..human instinct, they'll think i'm critising them..
i guess i all i can do is just to pray?oh wells..



i duno what i've done but i realised..
from ppl's facial expression..i realised that they are either jealous or hate me or despise(sp?)me..
i dont see the reason why they shld feel that way cause
1) i've not been intruding to anyone's lifestyle(at least i try not to&hope not)
2) i think i shld be the one hating them 1st for spreading rumors
3) i hardly ever gossip about anyone!
so yea..maybe i'll just pray about it too =)
since anw i think pirioty is my studies n shldnt bother too much about these minor stuff
that wont affect my future..
i'm glad that i acttually do have friends tat i can go to when i need to or share my problems..
people like..
michelle tan mei ling =)
siew jun ming =)
wilson wee =)
merv =)
joel li =)
ivan leong =)
samuel =)
and my NA friends =)
(sry too many to list lei haha or u cld just say i'm lazy XD )

thanks for everything guys =DD i really appreciate them cause they not only comfort me when i'm sad but also give me spiritual advice!..haha..
oh yea one thing i learn which i think i'll need to depend on if i want a bright future is..
i acttually learnt how to look on the bright side!as in seriously..well i think i did
i also learnt not to complain too much, but instead to appreciate life more!
i guess changing on how you look at life can really do a great change in your life!

so yea..what happen today?
everything as normal, just tat i had to stay back aft skl to do my art..
and i kinda got frustrated about it but it's fine i guess..
i'm like real tired now, but i still got math homework and i've got to study..
mayb i'll wake up tml morning to do my homework =)
also like everyone know I'M SINGLE,
and I'M HAPPY BEING SINGLE cause it allows me to concentrate better on my work and my relationship with God..
guys have to pop up in my life n say they like me..
like sure, but i guess its a big NO..well it certainly is untill my Olevels are over
and i'm nailing myself on that..
i cant afford to let a guy screw up my Olevels, its definately not acceptable
hahas..i know i may sound so stucked up n all those but i'm dead serious..
even though i know its freaking nice to have a bf but i'm sure i dun need one now..
cause i have enough things to account for besides, i wan to hv a stable relationship wid God 1st =)

once again,every night its tears

11:59 AM