❤ Its more than just words.

Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

ahhh second day of skl =
was feeling super fatigue towards end of skl.
n i keep fallin aslp during chinese lesson.
so yea.
there wasnt rec meeting aft skl..
it changed to conference at 7pm tonight.
i dont think i can go church or care group alrdy man.
my parents came home 4am this morning.
sigh.anw they bought things for me.
braslet(sp?), 2dress,1 shirt, 1 wallet, 1hp keychain.
ah i love my parents.just wish they were christians.
sigh.i shall wait till them time is right.
than i'll tell them i'm a christian and encourage them to convert n be saved =)

once again,every night its tears

10:41 AM

Monday, June 25, 2007

surprisingly i woke up at 9am.
haha.anw slackeddd...untill 2pm+
den went out 2 tiong.met up wid michelle tan 2 do e SS project work.
den swenn join us later.
sigh.i'm super sad tat my K5 player isnt working.cant on it.
=(
anw yea.went 2 my grandma's hse.
ate dinner.
majong 2rounds.den dun wan 2 play lei..
cause i duno know how 2 play.haha.only abit.
den i went 2 play com game 4 awhile.
den i watched 200pound beauty.
i didnt watch finish e last 20min part.argh!
e girl so chio =/ so hot.
i also wan go plastic surgery!haha =X
school starts tml!
sigh.boring man.more n more school work.
i dun likeee! =(

once again,every night its tears

2:34 PM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

went out to meet michelle,junn n jonathan yeo(duno who junn's friend) at PS
den went to buy rubber waxxx =)
duno why i buy also.but it look super cool n nice to use.
oh yea.at ps we saw this surfs up modelling thing.
e models are like super supr hoooot!
e guys are like wowo!e abs n everything..
den e girls are like super chio n figure super hot!
i wish i had tat too =(
anw went 2 y hope.
join their church there.sigh.not sure if i did e right thing.
its like yea..
so yea..went to meet up wid mengrong n his 2 other friends(guy n girl)at jurong point.
its been a super long time since i've met mr.haha.
so yea..we went 2 e arcade..
den they bought a bottle of alcohol. "whitelabel"
and 2 bottles of coke.to mix wid it so it wont be too strong.
anw yea.mr's friends went 2 the place 1st(place to drink)...
den erm i went 2 meet joffre.
he had to pass me something which he borrow from onni -.-"
stupid lor make my bag look fat.haha.
anw mr waited 4 me n bought fries 4 me =)
yay! loves him man.was super hungry.cause i skipped dinner...
anw yea.went got lost cause we duno where's e place.
den we walk there n walk here like some stuppid ppl.
so yea.in e end we found them n we walked 2 e place.
its a freaking long walk.felt like i've just went 4 2 methodist walk.ahha.
so yea anw, we went 2 e void deck n started drinking.
ok mayb them not me.i drink 1 cup only, they dun let me drink alrdy.
cause my face was red. -.-" stupid lor. i wasnt even feelin drunk or tipsy.
my face is just red.haha.
so yea..send one of mr's friend(girl)home.
den mr,his other friend n me took a taxi.
they send me home 1st.den i pass mr 20bucks 4 e cab fare even though its like 10bucks plus but yea..he paid 4 my fries,drink,arcade n chocolate.haha.
den they went back.
its suepr funny.his friend is like half drunk den he like keep sayin funny things.hahaha..
but yea.last nite was fun =)
i hope i have e freedom 2 go out late at night when my parents come back home =(

once again,every night its tears

4:43 PM

i think i'm becomin a pig.
i woke up at like 2pm.
den started doin GB proposal.
had to wait 4 deborah n michelle leong to send in thier proposal..
den i can do some adjustments and send in e proposal.
went to syc.
its been a long time since i've met up wid e ignite dudes.
ahh.miss them.
anw came back home n do e GB proposal again
ahhh...i hope she approves of e proposal!

once again,every night its tears

4:25 PM

Friday, June 22, 2007

did GB proposal in e morning.
went 2 my grandma's hse in e aftnoon.
left 4 skl aft eating dinner at 4pm+
went locker, put my books den went 2 WZ hse.
stupid lor my scanner suddenly cannot scan..
so have to borrow her scanner 2 scan in sketchs 4 the GB proposal.

once again,every night its tears

12:03 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

how sway can i get man.
i got molested by a yound kid.
dun say " aiya young kid.4get it luh.mayb accident "
like yea sure -.-"
a girl knows when she is molested.
he fucking hell did it on purpose.
argh.i feel like whacking his face.
but yea.i cant.his mum was wid him..
n even if i scold him, his mum will scold me instead 4 blaming her child who is like 5yr old.
n if i bring him 2 police station.they'll nv believe me.
but yea.shit arsehole.
anw.went skl in e morning 2 do my canvas.
FINALLY ITS COMPELETED!
so happy.den had gb meeting in e aftnoon.
went off 2 ikea wid choo at 4+
den went holland v.
tats where i got molested.
feels freaking uncomfortable.
idiot man.sigh..

once again,every night its tears

2:50 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

slpt at 3am ytd.
was talkin to markong on e phone.
sigh.now i'm feeling super fatigue.
woke up at 2pm.
did laundry,abit of my artwork.
den started cookin 4 randang 4 my sisters.
was feeling super hungry man.
anyway yea..
tml got skl at 9am!
argh.have to wake up early.

once again,every night its tears

11:23 AM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

went out wid benedict in e evening to watch fantastic 4.

went to pierce my ear at 77street at ps.

den yea.

movie starts at 9.15pm.
so we had quite alot of time to waste so yea.

anw e movie was nice. =)

smile!

SMILES!

retardddd

i feel bimbo -.-

big smilllle!

note:he is not my bf

once again,every night its tears

4:51 PM

just came back from tuition.
super tiring.
had tuition in the morning.
bought lunch den went up to mr tan's hse.
ate lunch n watch e show next.
its a super cool movie man.
sexy!
so yea.did abit of trigo aft tat.
den went 2 e playground wid clara n mr tan.
also went to dover park view.
super cool.
den left at 3.30pm+
my sis came to fetch me home.
got to start homework soon.sigh..

i'm letting you go once and for all.
you've made me realised,
you aint worth it all anymore.
this time, i mean what i say.
once i throw the string into the fire,
its never coming back.
its over.

once again,every night its tears

7:10 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

today is the most boring day EVER!
Joffre asked me out to watch fantastic 4..
but i didnt want, didnt have e movie mood.
and i'm starting to feel kinda moody to go out..
did the laundry, super mafan.
I DONT LIKE HOUSEHOLD CHORES =(
den in the aftnoon, i saw one of my fishy died.
it jumped out of my pond.
many big flies were flying around it n there blood.
den i see tat e water level in the pond was very low..
i feel so bad.
sigh.i realised i didnt feed the fishes for more than 2wks -.-
i somehow 4got abt them.sigh.
i cleaned up e dead fish, added water into e pond n fed them fish food.
felt kinda guilty n e fishys in e pond look kinda sad =(
mayb tats one incident tat makes me feel super reluctant to go out.
i dun even wan to go out to buy myself dinner =
sigh.i feel even more sad when i think of him.
everytime i log on to msn, i stare at his nick.
when he appears to be online, i'll open the conver n think wheather i shld talk to him.
when he appears busy, i close the conver n stare at his nick.
sigh.life sucks.
still got many things not done yet.
and i really really want to go out wid him, at least one last time.
but yea.anw thanks to my stupidity, i'm suffering from hunger now..
uh..i feel like goin to WC's macs to buy a meal.
but yea.still reluctant to leave hse
and going WC will only bring back memories i'm tryin to let go off.
ah! so many things i have to do..
1) complete all holiday homework!
2) complete canvas for art competition!
3) complete proposal for GB!
hai..homework is pissting me off.
its so not nice doin them.
someone help?
sigh

i just wished things didnt happen this way.
memories of us brings a smile on my face,
at the same time,
it pierce through my heart.

once again,every night its tears

12:38 PM

Sunday, June 17, 2007

there are many things i wish to tell you.
but i could not put it into words.
the feeling's so strong that i wished,
things didnt happen this way.
even with this three words,
i love you,
cannot describe what i feel for you.
the more you ignore me,avoid me,
the pain becomes stronger.
memories of us keep coming back.
each time they flash through my head,
the intense pain is torturing my heart.
i dont want to let you go,
but since you told me not to wait,
i'll try my best to let you go.
i dont wana be a burden to you,
i wana be a blessing to you.
whenever i see you,
the impact is greater than i thought.
no words can describe what i'm feeling now
or
what i want tell you.
if i could, i'll rip my heart out and let you feel my heart beat.
for every heart beat of mine will tell you,
how i really feel.

once again,every night its tears

9:47 AM

been while since i blogged.
anw, i finally watch POC!
haha..i think it was 2days back.
i watched it wid my cousin. =)
its nice lor.duno y my parents say it wasnt.
next movie i wana watch is fantastic 4!
looks nice.
ytd went 2 e planet shakers thingy.
it was cool man.
its been awhile since i've been to such a event.
so yea..
i havent really started on my homework yet..
i guess i lack or dicipline n motivation 2 complete them.
all i wana do now is slack.

once again,every night its tears

7:09 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

oh, choo just send me some photos, but they r not very clear.

during kayakin camp

ikeaaa

IKEEAAA

once again,every night its tears

11:59 AM

YAY!
almost complete my canvas =)
got to go back just one last time!
went 4 tuition in e morning.
did abit of quadratic equation n coordinate gog.
brian n sarah came 2 mr tan's hse later on.
so tuition ended early...
played 2 games of taidi.
went off wid jun ming..
den i realised i was super early..
so i ask him 2 accompany me 2 dover 2 eat lunch.
den again, i 4got its lunch time.so all e coffee shops r full...
so i didnt eat.
slacked at han ling till 2.00pm.
during tat time, uncle cooked spagetti 4 me n junn.
UNCLE! cooking standard PPAAASS! =)
it was nice luh..haha.
went back 2 skl n jun went home.
thanks junn 4 accompanying me =)
went 2 do my art, saw WZ n dorcas doin their art also..
den yea..
i saw him, he was having media camp.
he look so cute luh.but hai.look one look den dun wan 2 see lei.
e more i look at him, e more it hurts..
but oh well..went home at 6pm.
came home, had a super full dinner.
gonna do homework now.so yea.
cya ppl!tc

once again,every night its tears

11:38 AM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

went 4 tuition =)
den went 2 skl 4 GB meeting(farewell party arrangement).
end abt 4pm+
me,choo n hannah went 2 ikea.
i ate meeeat ballllls.the $8.80 one.
den we went 2 play n take photos. =D
ahhh i love ikea.sooo fun
now here r e retarded photos!

STRIPS!

LIME GREEN BEDSHEEEET!

SEXY FLOWER MIRROR!

HOOOOOT PINNKK!

TOOOILET!

!!naked!

CUTE BABY TURTLES! <3

SUPER BIG TURTLE! <3

EGGY!

once again,every night its tears

2:26 PM

Monday, June 11, 2007

went out wid Joffre again.

met him at bugis.

while waiting 4 him...

some dude approached me n do a survey..

when i told him my i/c number,

he was like "1992,must be damn young..."

n i said " yea, 15yrs old."

he said " oh, i thought you were older.cause you look so mature. "

i said " err...okay. "

he said " erm,ok.thank you for your time.enjoy your day. "

oh well..at least i look old enough 2 some ppl...

so now i can at least go n play pool later on.

Joffre came 5min later.

wanted 2 watch ocean 13 but decided not 2 watch a bugis.

went 2 eat pastamania.

headed to cine.on the way there...

Joffre said tat guys keep lookin at me..

i was like hmph yea rite -.-

is like,i'm not even wearing anything revealing,also nv put make up.

i just wore a normal collar white shirt n black shorts

i think e guys who looked at me are cockedeye

n they are prolly lookin at how i walk wid my new heels

which i cant balance properly...

anyway yea..

went shopping wid Joffre, helped him picked out some tops.

den went to watch ocean 13.

e movie is niceee...

cabbed home wid Joffre.

thanks 4 paying 4 my cab fee.

went 2 the BBQ pit b4 heading home...

did some thinking over there..

so yep.tats abt it.

gona start doing my homework soon.

havent even touch them yet.

gtg.tc ppl!cya

this was wad i wore.simple.

once again,every night its tears

2:25 PM

Sunday, June 10, 2007

stayed over at my grandma's hse last night again.
played PSP,PS2,badminton n everything.haha.
damn funnn =)
gonna slp soon.
got 2 do work tml morning.bye ppl!

PICTURESS from kayakin camp!!

Sexy!

smiles!

once again,every night its tears

2:30 PM

Saturday, June 09, 2007

its no point being in a relationship wid someone who doesnt want to be.
it was my mistake to ask him for patch,
i guess i wont be in a relationship till e guy is really serious abt it.
but everything feels normal even aft we break.
wad really happen?
//
just came back from camp ytd at abt 7pm
went 2 my grandma hse 2 stay over night.
left her place at 11.30 to do some shopping at vivo.
i hate doin shopping man.its like so tiring n boring.
anw, i bought 1pair of heels, 1shorts, 1 wallet, 1 tube shirt, 2shirts.
i was expecting 4 myself 2 buy more since i'm like running out of cloths 2 wear but yea.
some cloths makes me look old when i wear them.
wanted to buy dress but, think again mayb i shldnt.
it makes me look super werid.ok tats wad i think but yea.
came back home, felt super fatigue.
so i decided to not go out 2 watch movie wid Joffre.
SRY DUDE!
my body is aching.its like e pain is accumilated from obs.
cause its like during obs, i dun feel any pain.
but when i go 4 kayaking camp which shld b easier my body just start aching like mad.
kinda werid luh.oh well.i shall be a strong girl! =)
shall slp early, den start doing my homework next morning.
so yea.bye ppl!

once again,every night its tears

6:52 AM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

YAY!my darling is back from nepalllll =))

but yea.msged him, he havent reply yet..

called him, he nv pick up phone..

hai..tml i'll b havin GB camp.

DONT MISS ME PPL!

anw yea.i went 4 tuition in e morning..

den skipped lunch,

went 4 art n was dyin of hunger.but cant do anything..so..yea..

mum n dad came n pick me up at 4pm+

went 2 vivo..

so freaking pai sei.i wore PE shirt n fbt.

so pai sei man.anw.

went 2 my uncle's office at HSBC vivo bank..and guess wad!

i saw JJLIN!cool man!didnt see his face.only his side.

eh..i'm not a stalker so yea.saw once den never look lei even though he is like sitting beside my uncle's workin desk.hahaaha. =)

but his body hotttt.haha

so yups.went 2 eat saske sushi aft tat.

went home,took a shower,went 4 some kids cooking class -.-

like wth man.i'm like not classified as CHILDREN anymore.anyway yea..

went there..e kids r like 6-10years old n its like 26 of them.

they r like super cute but chao noisy.

i helped out wid e cook bcause she is my mum's friend.

so yea like help wid e muffins n cookie lollipop..
guiding e young kids along..
oh yea got 1 young boy cried -.-
duno wad 2 do man..hai.but at e end of e lesson he left e place alrite.hengg

LOLLIPOP COOKIES! =)

CHOCOLATE MUFFINS!

KIDDS

ADORABLE&SMART!<3

once again,every night its tears

2:24 PM

Monday, June 04, 2007

stayed at home day.
wana go out, but too lazy + no cash + many things 2 be done at home.
woke up like at 11+
slacked den went 2 do my chem.
got tired of chem, went 2 pack bag 4 tue.
gonna go 4 kayaking camp soon =)
cant wait 4 him 2 come back from nepal.
hai.miss him so much man.
gtg lei.cya ppl!

once again,every night its tears

2:13 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

super tireddd...
just came back from e Jpop contest at youth park.
went there wid Joffre to support chris ong n his band.
sit there soooo long. 6pm+ - 8.30pm+
anw CONGRATS CHRIS ON WINNING 1ST =D
sian..got headache.
i think i now have a phobia of ppl smoking -.-
so many ppl were smoking luhh!
i think i'll die 1st instead of them...
anw, went to eat wid Joffre at mos burger.
was super hungry.
went to vivo n waited 4 bus.
I'M SOOOO FREAKING PISSTED >=
its so freaking crowded that 5 bus came n go wid ppl packed in it...
and i didnt have e chance 2 board it -.-
met onni at e busstop.small world.
we took bus back.
n guess wad.i waited in total 1hr plus!!!!
woohoo *claps* =.=
anw when i was walking back..
i saw e moon.it was sooo freakin nice.
its full moon n clear sky,wid shiny shiny stars..i wish brendan was here.
to watch e moon n stars wid me. =(
oh well 2 more day!!! =)
i cant wait 4 him to come home!
lovessss

once again,every night its tears

3:05 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNNNN MINGGG!
yay 2 more days n he is coming back =)
3 more days n i'm leaving for camp -.-
havent pack my things yet.hai.
went for lunch at jap resturant near my hse..
its super nice.
i tried e raw sea urchin,tastes werid o.O
not like the 1st time i ate.
and now my tongue is numb.
!! i think i've been posion!ahhhh.
haha...anw thier sashimi there is super fresh.darn nice.
=) gona go out later in e night 2 support chris ong n his band
so lazy 2 go out -.-
oh well gtg do my homework.cya ppl!

once again,every night its tears

6:22 AM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

woke up at 11+ today.
slacked for awhile den went 2 do my art.
took quite awhile 2 draw my fist.
somemore have 2 draw 2times -.-
still waiting for the art file 2 be uploaded on e skl portal so i can download it.
webcamed wid michelleleong aft i drew it.
n showed her e drawing.
as usual..she will keep saying its nice -.-
eh den i webcamed kenneth n showed him my artworks.
only boredom can make me do stupid thing like that.
so yea.slacked all the way till 5+
went out wid my parents 2 eat Thai Express.
woohoo!they rock man.
their food is so nice n they support orange!
sexy man!
ehh..aft tat went 2 my grandma's hse 4 awhile den headed back home.
did mtan's test n i got 100%! haha
cause she helped me. =)
anw i created my own test also.
its below e chat box.
WARNING! its not a easy test =)
wahahehehehehe.
happy doing =)

once again,every night its tears

1:17 PM

Friday, June 01, 2007

wee!i'm back!
wooo.i'm super happy 2dae.duno why also.
so yea.left hse at abt 1pm cause it was raining n i cldnt find e stttupid umbrella.
when i was walkin out 2 e bus stop..
e wind like keep blowing against me den
i felt i like i was gona get blown away =/
also, my leg was wet =( so dirty.
anw,met michelle leong n james at outram.
she n i wore e same top,black shorts n white heels.
twins! =)
only thing i 4got 2 take picture -.-"
sian.haha.so yea.we went 2 somerset 2 meet
joffre n jerry(new friend!)
eh they both starts wid J haha.ok back 2 wad went on 2dae.
mich n james went 2 cine 1st..
den me,joffre n jerry went 2 heeren 2 find place 2 eat..
walk e whole heeren.decided 2 eat at cine.
went there ate yoshinoya.
den we went 2 watch shrek 3.
e movie is kinda dissapointing.1 hour only -.-
i rather watch POC but yea.shrek 3 is funny.
aft e movie, we went 2 play pool.
eh..we sneaked in luh.haha.tat is for mich n me.
haha.so yea..
we went PS to eat dinner den play arcade.
i got trash in daytona by the Js.
sian...i'm not play daytona anymore.
came back home at 9.20pm
woohoo!2dae is funnn.
haha.tml got 2 start mugging
chiong all e home work! =)
wish me luck.

once again,every night its tears

2:00 PM

yo people.
sry havent been blogging.
too lazy to.
anw yea.gona go watch shrek 3 2dae.
wid joffre,michelle leong n joffre's friend.
jo is suppose 2 come, but her mum didnt allow her.
e worse thing is,i alrdy book e tickets.
so now i got 2 find a replacement 4 jojo.
sian.i alrdy tried asking ppl.but like yea.they cant come.
worse come 2 worse,jo will have 2 pay me w/o watchin e show.
hai..sad case.
so yea.gona leave hse at 12.meeting michelle at somerset at 12.50.
i think i'll be there at 12.40 -.-
oh well.
darling left for nepal on e 29th of may.
eva since, ive been dying inside.
but like recently he is behaving kinda werid...
i just hope we wont end up going our own ways.
it feel super werid w/o him ard,
and i cant imagine myself wid another guy.
as in i've never met someone who've got e same interest as me
other den brendan. =)
hai.i love him so much.
if only he would understand n
i have e ability to explain things better

once again,every night its tears

2:10 AM