❤ Its more than just words.

Declaration

God grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,and,
the wisdom to know the difference

In JESUS name,
AMEN

Saturday, March 31, 2007

normal day againn..
met brendan aft skl 2 spend sometime wid him..
cause i wotn b able 2 talk 2 him on sat n sun.
i'll miss him alot =(
anw..
GB was alrite..
was glad tat rec went smoothly even though we had many obsticals 2 go thru like...
1. getting their attention
2. rushing e game in afew mins..
3. making sure they enjoyed e game =)
super happy!even though i'm abt 2 lose my voice..
i think i shld start trainin for e loud voice tat i lost 2yrs back..
ahaha..last time i can shout so loud..now i cant..
mayb cause i hardly shout in e past 2years n only raise my voice alittle..
but oh well..
2dae's devotion was meaningful..
oh yea we had badgework..
and we got 2 organise a party 2 appreciate our parents..
and i was voted 2 be overall in-charge..
its kinda scary n pressurising..
but i got 2 deal wid this mini probs 2 b able 2 accpect bigger challenges..
so yea..aft gb..
came bac home straight,
packed my stuff for tml's trip 2 malaysia.
i'm kinda excited abt it.
even though i have 2 wake up n leave at 4am tml..
hai..so yea..
please dont contact me from 31 march n 1 april 4am onwards..
cya ppl!enjoy ur weekend..
man i just realised i got phy test n math test on monday..
hai..stressed..

once again,every night its tears

10:29 AM

Friday, March 30, 2007

boring day..
i just realised tat doing art can make a person super isolated..
aft skl went 2 collect jersey frm nick yong..
and its super big plus it makes me look like a guy -.-
if i knew tat e jersey wld look so manly -.-
i'd changed my name..
anw yea..i got pang seied by my clique
was damn pissted off..
they went clementi w/o n i was waiting 4 them..
sucks man..
hai..anw i managed 2 paint finish e flower on e canvas..
so now left e bulidings =)
still..my art work is not attractive enough..i really duno wad 2 do 2 it 2 make it look attractive enough 2 cature e judes attention..hai..
went back home at 6pm.
didnt had lunch.because of them..
so i bought biskets n stuff them into my mouth.. -.-

hai..i really miss e feeling of seeing those tat i dislike cry..
really really feel like being a devil again..
but hai..now i'm a christian..
i dun think i shld do it..
even though its super tempting..
hai..still thinking..even though its like 2or3wks ago thing..
but 2 me as long as a rumour tat i know is spreading n its utter RUBBISH..
its something i definately wont let go..

hai..sometimes i feel like as though i'm like..duno wad 2 say luh..
i just hate waiting,having ppl 2 keep askin me wad 2 do when they can think 4 themself and ppl who keep sayin they cant when they havnt even try and make so much noise tat they cant..not pointing 2 anyone i'm fine wid all those.just tat when there is too much of it..it really irritates me alot..hai..
sometimes i really wonder if...
my existance is a trouble..

once again,every night its tears

11:48 AM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

skl was normal as boring as usual like every wed
..only thing difference is tat...
i got a medal 4 gettin 25 position during cross-country which i dun really gif a shit abt cause no1 does..
and
that i got worried abt brendan..
but yea everything is settled =)
peace at heart now =D
oh yea 4 recess i ate e jap rice thing wid salmon n 2cups of icecream
haha i'm gona grow fat!
aft skl had exco meeting den i accompanied juilen till she done her work..
i went 2 e bridge aft tat..
and yay!
i finally get 2 paint e wall aft begging mr lin 2 let me paint..haha
so i drew n painted in like 45min..
but 30min went 2 jo's paintin cause i was helpin her..
so i had only 15min..
tml got 2hrs of art lesson i'm gona complete my canvas den do e wall painting..
its retarded but yea..
anw i'm super tired alrdy
gonna go lp now.cya ppl!tc!

oh wait..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE!

once again,every night its tears

1:38 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

had 2.4km Nafa test 2dae.
sucks luh i 4got 2 eat my breakfeast..
den i cant run properly..too hungry..
haha timing like 14.10sec.sucks.
slack by 3mins alrdy..hai..but sill i got A =)
haha..so yea..2dae is kinda a boring day...
nothing much happen only during chinese lesson
i cant stand backstabbers.
esp when stuffs are meant 2 be kept confidential they just have 2 say it.
irritating ppl.when will they learn.
will i found 2 in my class.
a guy n a girl.they sooo totally match each other.
bloody hell.
anw yea.i shall not reveil anything here.
cause its confidence.
all i can say is..my class sucks n i wana transfer to 3F!
not sayin e ppl in e class sucks..juz tat somehow..
i cant tolerate such primary skl behaviour..
not childish just that...there is just something in 3C
tat atmosphere n impression tat i get..
oh well.. -.-
it sucks when i work so hard last yr 2 get into a better class...
but instead i got into e worse of e worse class
when e teachers just look down on 3C
and treating 3C worse den NA n NT
thanks alot fat penguin for spoiling my life.
really feel like suciding..
i cant see myself getting 8points n below for my O level.
hai..i really really wana migrate overseas 2 study..
best place to aus.there can learnt how 2 b a vet..
in singapore..hai..nothing 2 say man..
noone realy really cares for animals.
argh!!
this sucks..feel like i'm gonna breakdown sooner or later..

hai..havnt really been talkin to brendan 4 2 days alrdy..
i'm starting 2 get worried tat our relationship will drift apart..
bcuz we cant really sms now..
and how only way of communication is thru letters or msn..
i miss him badly..

once again,every night its tears

10:39 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

been quite awhile since i posted.
ytd was e fancy drill com..
pioneers got gold
seniors got participation.
its damn heartbreaking..
i think e judges are stupid!
e senior team shld get at least sliver!!!
blind arses..hai..

gonna finish all my homework by morning n afternon...
so tat in e late aftnoon i can go out n watch mr bean movie!
haha.its so funny..

anw i realised tat my relationship wid brendan is quite good.
we hardly argue..we dun really hv any restrictions..
like MUST talk on e phone.
MUST go online.
MUST go out wid me.
CANNOT go out wid guy even if in a grp of friends.
CANNOT talk 2 guys.
but yea..i duno how he feels abt it..
e only thing i dun allow him 2 do..
is to always game n slack alot
i'm feeling kinda concern for him...
esp when he is gonna have his N levels this year.
i'm juz scared tat he might find me naggy like havin a extra mother..
oh well..gtg complete homework alrdy.cyz ppl!

once again,every night its tears

1:38 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

!! COLLECTION OF REPORT BOOK !!
haha.super nervous n worried..

not for me but for my darling..

i did alrite..
for my L1R5 i got 25points.

eng - 56.6 C5

chinese - 6.7 B4

math - 53.3 C6
phy,chem- 60.9 B4
social studies - 38.9 F9
literature - 60 B4
Art - 72.8 A2

so crap man..

social studies..38.9.like WTF!

lit..last year top all e way..now like hai..

i cant even top in 1 subject.sucks man..oh well..

brendan made my day =)

he bought me a honey cow..which is so adorable..
like him..haha..

and set aside sometime 4 me.

i feel so blessed to be wid him =)

i simply cant live w/o him =D

oh yea my mum bought me a new pair of shoes!
my prayer answered!haha..
its orange and so is my new sock she bought!
=D loves!

cowww!

MooOOooo~

ORANGE SHOE+SOCKS!

SHOE!AGAIN!=D

once again,every night its tears

11:50 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007

hai argued wid my parents in e afternoon.
sucks man..
my dad scolded me bcuz i didnt wan 2 do my homework..
den is like..wah lao..
ppl wana have 1 wk break also cannot meh..
hai...anw..i went into my room locked e door and did my homework..
well at least those tat needed 2 be handed in tml..
den my maid gave me some food aft i unlocked e door..
i left it on e floor..didnt feel like eating..
aft afew hours..i brought it 2 e kitchen n left it on e table.
left untouched...
my mum saw and starts nagging..den whack me.
like wtf my dad scold me alrdy no appetite to eat
den my mum keep forcin me 2 eat..argh..sickening..
anw..i went back into my room n locked e door..
ate some tablets n went 2 slp.
woke up..slacked.pack my books..
still pissted abt e matter..and did some art homework..
hai..i know my parents love me alot tats why they scold..
but why must ppl scold den we kids will understand tat they love?
life is soo complicated..oh well..
skl starts tml..
hope everyone is prepared 4 skl tml =D

once again,every night its tears

12:15 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

HEY PPL!
haha had project work 2 at clementi macs ^^
for once i was earlier..haha.some more 9am..
haha yay improvement!haha
anw everyone(trevoe,michelle n swenn) came..
matthew came also..cause his grp was suppose 2 do project work also..
but apperently they "didnt know"..so on e safe side..
he joined our grp =D YAY! new grp member..haha
had 2 compelete a borchure(sp?) on Amazon forest..
mich n swenn brought their lappy..
we took turns.
trevor,matt n me took e 1st shift.
mich n swenn took e rest..
when it was my shift..mich n swenn was watchin youtube..
ohoh did i mention tat b4 we started we ordered food..
everyone was eating n i was playin kongkong..haha =D
funnnn!
when it was mich n swenn's turn..
trevor n matt played a game of solitire..den later changed into a damn nice game..
but i duno wads e title..super fun..
i joined in later..aft dazing..
e game is like u got 2 cycle den drive a car..
u can kill ppl..snatch ppl's car..
if u do it infornt of e police they'll chase u n if u get caught..u r BUSTED!
haha..swenn gave us cheat codes 2 getting many many weapons..racing car n many more..haha
we r like retards in e macs..TURN THERE!TURN HERE!RUNNNN!haha
loves them man..haha
i went off at 12pm++
went bac 2 skl took my books...came home..
slpt like a pig again..man i duno when i'm gonna stop pigging
it sucks tat nothing gets done but shiok when i slp..haha XP
was thinking of going swimming now..but..
i got no proper attire 2 go swimming!
argh wana buy also dun dare buy..
if i make up my mind 2 buy..i'll have 2 buy bikini alrdy..
but i also dun feel like wearin tat..hai..oh well..
i'm gonna waste my time now..cyz ppl!

once again,every night its tears

8:04 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Wee!went 2 amber's hse 2dae 4 project work.

super big luh her hse.i'm jealous.haha

but i'm sastified wid wad i have =D

jo,mich leong and i met in skl den jo's dad sent us 2 amber's hse.

i feel super bad cuz i was late thx 4 my parents and me not rushing them..

hai..sry ppl 4 makin u wait.

anw we slacked at amber's room when she said she'll go cycle 2 ginza there 2 buy stuff..

but she didnt buy anything cuz there wasnt any stationary shop.

oh yea amber's dog is super cute like a pig man.only thing cuter.

its a female and hates male human.funny rite ahaha..

so yea..we slacked awhile..took taxi 2 clementi macs.

ate den went 2 big book shop bought stuff..

and taxied back.hai..was super tired.

i wrote some stuff on e board tat we bought den i went 2 slp on amber's bed.

cause they were watchin tv..so when i was slpin it was their turn 2 write haha.

mich and jo went back at 4pm+

i went home at 5pm+ aft doin some writing on e board again.haha

at e begining of e day i pestered them 2 take photo but they all said later..

later later untill never take photo hai..standard 1 sia..

wait ok we took 2 b4 we left 4 lunch but it was screwed so i deleted it...

oh well tml gtg clementi macs again at 9am again.haha

amber's dog(sam) and me!super cute rite

once again,every night its tears

9:36 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

came back frm a super heavy dinner.
had jap buffet.the green tea ice-cream was fantasic!
super super nice.i love it so much..
anw i went 4 tuition at 3.30pm++
brendan came..
aft tuition went 2 his hse 2 play wid his cat.
super cute.love it!
so yea tats how i spend my day..
well at least 4 2dae.
tml got tuition again.hai..
super tired but must perserver on.
have to study.
for those ppl out there....

> dun be discouraged if ur results arent good.take this period of time to study hard and rest well.exams are near by.its just afew more wks, so stay focus and study when u have to.and rest well aft u've studied.<

oh well.sad case that we have 2 be so competitive in our studies or we'll nv earn a living in e near future.i had a really werid thought 2dae.thought: why cant ppl just live life?why do we need 2 live in such a competitive lifestyle?ppl who are born wid everything are blessed.ppl who are born pretty and smart are very bessed.so why cant we juz live life simple and appreciate wad we have?
guess life is jus tat sad.gtg slp soon plenty of homework 2 compelete!!
cyz guys!

a promise i made:
I, ralene fok will come back to sch to study with michelle tan after i graduate!=D

once again,every night its tears

2:07 PM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

hey people guess wad!
i'm blogging during circullum time AGAIN!
haha..wanted 2 blog earlier on during chinese class but yea..
teacher told us 2 off e com so cant.
now is math..we had 2 use e com 4 heymath! assignment.
aft we do e test..we can surf e net.
2dae is a super slack dae!
4hours of free period!
haha our math n chinese teacher didnt come.
YAY!anw..my class went down 4 recess at 10.15 2 set up e stall.
we had 2 sell pizza and cookie.
good news is tat we sold everything!
sadly next next wk on wed,we wouldnt b selling pizza...only cookies.
but hey,its still nice!really it is.
i dun undersatnd why ppl look 4 quantity den quality.
aft skl gona practice stomp again.
hai..dun feel like practicing,wana go watch soccer math!!!
fairfield vs bishan.
jia you fairfield!haha..
got 13min more 2 spare.guess i'll go visit ppl's blog.
tc ppls!luv yaa!

once again,every night its tears

5:58 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

my parents are going overseas 2dae..
they'll b gone 4 1wk.
starting 2 think if its good or bad.
anw last nite's performance was alittle screwed..
but overall audience said it was good.
brendan came 2 watch.
he said it was alrite..
i wanted 2 spend more time wid him aft e performance thing..
but i cant hai..
i wen back home n chatted wid him on e phone..
somehow we ended e conver wid a arguement.
i felt alittle angry n so was he.
but yea..on e phone b4 we hang up,
there was tis 5min of slience aft e arguement.
can feel both our ego getting in e way..
i just hope things wld patched up and e ego thing wld not happen again..
oh well..gona spend my whole day doing homework.
and i jus realise my blog is dead..no1 visits it..
oh well...

once again,every night its tears

3:15 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

AH!2dae is 3rd march!
time really flies fast man..
i'm starting 2 panic for 2nite's performance...
hvnt really been practicing..hai..
oh well..thought i just blog since last nite i didnt blog.
tc ppl!have a great day ahead.

if u wana come see e performance..
tonite:9pm-??
venue:ulu pandan community centre-car park or either basketball court.
event:celebrating chinese new year.

once again,every night its tears

2:41 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

woah!super tired..
had drill aft skl den performance practice.
suppose 2 meet brendan aft everything at abt 7 den go back home 2gether.
but den my mum said my eldest sis will b pickin me up.
hai..why like tat.mayb we r not meant 2 go home 2gether 2dae.
sometimes i wish we r neighbours.
things wld b so much easier..for him n me.
////
last nite i watched a show called " tuesday with morrie "
its a super nice show.
its abt tis old man being interview by tis young dude..
who doesnt shed tears n needs 2 seek wisdom..
the old man was suffer frm some kind of sickness..
even though he was alrdy halfdead.
cant walk,coughin,tubes inserted into different part of his bodies,hand shaking n dependent on ppl.
he still said stuff tat are so meaningful.
every word tat he said was like gold.
words of wisdom.
its a very sad but impactful story.
everyone shld watch!

once again,every night its tears

1:55 PM